Tuesday, June 7, 2011

The Paradigm of Purposeful PLAY


Defusing Bombs

It's been nearly a week since the first (solar) eclipse of the summer celestial sandwich and that means we are officially off and running….in circles. Well, spirals really. For the next few weeks we will be sprinting up the spiral staircase of (DNA) evolution at unprecedented rates, running toward the embodiment of our soulular self. And just like with any overexertion we can feel exhausted during these soul-jaunts, so as always its important to temper that annoying balance between what we want to be doing and what we actually feel capable of until our bodies catch up. !@#^%$

Speaking of which, I hope you took a deep breath whilst yer head was still above water because we are definitely going under again…deep see-diving into the depth of our core-self to make some final welds needed to fuse our two (polar) halves. And while my inner-petty Patty is dying to talk about the foreboding formerly associated with any eclipse, I will be all grownup instead and remind us all that the jolt of drama, dread and fear are never required for us to embrace change…that eclipses are powerful gifts of transformation and this one in particular can provide us with a thorough release from our past if we utilize our detached discipline to see everything that presents itself from a multi-dimensional, zoomed-out, and neutralized perspective.

And it will be well worth the effort because the unseens say that this solar/lunar support is the motor behind the release of our pain/fear body, the first phase of embodiment that they mentioned in the last update. In reality, those already focused in a fifth dimensional way have diffused so many internal (karmic) bombs, that even tho the buttons may remain, they are mostly duds. And if any buttons are still active, you will know before we complete this journey because they will all be tested…one by one…until we are reaction-less to all past wounds.


Navigating the Sandwich

"You are reclaiming each part of you that was separated or fragmented and now you are able to embody and reflect all of that inner radiance onto your outer world... in every sense of the word." -Pleiadian High Council

The solar eclipse sandwich (lunar in the middle) is providing us with what the Pleiadian High Council refer to as "a fusion of lower body and higher body consciousness"…they also offer me an animated slideshow in my minds eye of our lower chakras (1, 2 & 3) merging with our higher chakras (5, 6, & 7) in the heart center (4) where we gain access to all 13 chakras of the new galactic-human system.

Thru this powerful portal of transformation we are exploring/purging the remaining polarity in our lives so that we can effectively utilize the masculine and feminine forces for the reunification of earth matter with etheric matter, as the Pleiadians mentioned in the last update. This merging of the spiritual and material…the awakening of unity consciousness…is happening through our heart centers as well as the pituitary/pineal glands so if you have been experiencing intense heartburn/nausea (heart opening), pineal/pituitary activation (sacred marriage) symptoms...vertigo, sleepiness, FATIGUE, disorientation, insomnia, deep sleeps, sinus issues, headaches, sore/itchy scalp, watery/red/itchy/burning eyes, changes in eyesight, etc...and/or digestion issues (root clearing/grounding/cellular detoxification), most likely it's related.

They are also sharing that the level of our personal integration of these two bodies will be reflected to us in our outer world, thru our inner-capacity to remain in tact during this passage…in other words, we will know how integrated we are by our ability to forego the remains of any fleeting illusion in lieu of eternal love. Some things that may surface during this transit…especially around the Lunar (emotion) eclipse on 6/15…will be related to deep feelings of unworthiness…either from past wounds of childhood or from the collective experiences of our oversoul:

"We would also like to make it known that the parts of you that feel unworthy will be rising to the surface for release…take not these moments as replications of truth, but as serving contrast, a measurement of how far you have come in the reconnection of your god-self. These moments will be brief, but will reflect to you where you feel unloved, unaccepted, unworthy, unfulfilled, unappreciated, and so on…" -PHC

To utilize this eclipse period in a powerful way would be to embrace and love all of our loveless parts...because if we do, if we can accept and truly love all our uglies, we have the ability to really leave the past behind…to break free from the self-judgement and inner-criticism that keeps us small so that we can live and create with true emotional freedom.

The council also mentioned that some resistance with regard to fears of our power may bubble up to the surface this month. In the past, the expression of our greatness was either abused or detrimental to our collective well-being in some way...and even tho this is no longer a reality, we must first express these repressed fears so that we can heal (love) and release them, which will ultimately enable us to fully embrace our power as co-creators for the second half of this year.

"Now is the time to embody greatness, but first you will need to bring forth, to release those parts of you that feel scorned by it…the parts of you that, in the past, have been burned by your passionate fire, blinded by your inner light." -PHC



Higher Purpose

Right now, things feel pretty eh and everyone around me seems drained.  Even my flowers seem tired.  During these integration periods when our energy is low, its pretty easy to tap into feeling frustrated, irritable, pent-up, annoyed and with a touch of cabin fever…especially here in the north where the increasing sunshine of the coming summer months seems to only illuminate more shadows…when a sunny day is just an obnoxious reminder of how little vitality is available to enjoy it. But I digress.

There is also a stillness in the air, a passionless-ness, especially with regard to our "purpose" or our contribution to this oceanic orb we call earth. Old projects may seem stale and played-out, new ones dull and uninspiring, and tho its all perfect, it's still perplexing because the higher part of us (our future self) feels the pull of readiness…of right time/place to contribute something tangible…but our lower self is still crapped-out on the couch.  In the bigger picture we are just merging with a greater expression of purpose.

The unseens note that a major aspect of this sandwich…and the reason why you may feel so disconnected…is to bring us into alignment with the full extent of our soul's plan, which of course means that we must surrender any remaining ego-desires so that this plan can take hold without our (lower-mind) interference. This doesn't necessarily mean that we will have to throw out or disregard those things that we have been working on/toward, we just need to give everything enough space to fall into its rightful place.

We have to be beat up enough willing to let our ideas around purpose breathe so that it can blossom into its full potential whether that be a purpose that aligns with a career or not.  F L E X I B L E  is the meat to this sandwich…which must be why Maroon 5's Misery lyrics keep playing on repeat in my head: "So scared of breaking it, you won't let it bend."  Speaking of Adam Levine...is anyone else digging "The Voice"? You don't have to answer that.

The PHC is also making it clear that new opportunities are arriving and/or solidifying in the physical dimensions now….most are still swimming in the mental plane in the form of ideas, but are beginning to take hold in group collectives as we are drawn toward each other to co-create. These opportunities are not only the pillars for the new world systems...those new reality structures that solidify the foundation to the planets extreme earth makeover…but they will also serve as portals of abundance that so many of us require to move to the next level.

The key to these opportunities, they say, is in our willingness to recognize them as the gifts that they are, which mostly means letting go of what we thought we would be doing to allow for what we are really here to do. (HINT: these opportunities may be disguised as something that seems too effortless, too simple, too much fun to be of value...so keep your mind and options open!)


Paradigm of Purposeful PLAY

"What we would like for you to realize most thru this spectacular summer event is that your only purpose is to breed joy.  Your mission has always been to first, rise up to meet joy, to embody joy, and finally, to find ways to embrace and engage those things that bring you ultimate joy." -PHC

I realize how cliche those lyrical Pleiadian prose sound, but its important to understand the perspective shift that we must undergo in order to truly utilize the 5D energies and enlightened technologies that are now available for us to play with.

Most of us (starseeds) came to this 3d dimensional earth plane from other worlds, other dimensions, other constellations and galaxies, each with different "jobs" to do for the planet while making our personal and painstaking climb thru the dense dimensions of the lower form world to arrive at our destination vibration. What the PHC want us to realize now is that we are no longer serving the greater plan from this 3D mindset.

We are beginning to operate within an integrated head/heart paradigm which requires a shift in perspective with regard to how we value ourselves. This 5th dimensional way of being asks us to answer a very important question, one that determines our readiness to lead:

Is who you are enough?

(And while I would love to take the credit for that poignant question, it was actually my sister Kim who nailed it in a recent blog article…one that has been ringing in my ears ever since.) We are now moving beyond the frequency shield of 3D which means we are required to leave behind the need to "DO" in order to feel valued. We are entering into the harmonious state of existence where all doing comes from a place of WANT TO and not HAVE TO. A subtle, but profound shift.

As we come to terms with how we truly value ourselves and consciously release the heaviness of obligation and feelings of unworthiness (with the help of the upcoming Lunar eclipse) we will become much lighter and enter more fully into what I like to call the "paradigm of purposeful PLAY"…where our passion, purpose and potential will be a direct reflection of our true LIGHTness of being...because ultimately, if we are not en-joy-ing ourselves, we are not whole-HEARTedly contributing to the new timeline where "work" does not exist.

The value of purpose as something we "DO" is a necessary construct in a separated mindset (duality) because it provides us with the ability to project our worthiness onto an external "thing" in order to know it, to see it, to feel it. In the lower dimensions it is useful to project our perceived value onto the canvas of our lives so that we can recognize it and reabsorb, or integrate it…but now that we are becoming soul-infused, co-creation becomes about PLAY, about expressing our uniqueness in all that we do simply by being who we are and doing everything and only that which brings us joy.

"Are you starting to digest the enormity of this?" -PHC

The unseens reiterate that at the highest level, the purpose of a soul incarnate experience is to realize itself in form and to express its uniqueness through that which elicits joy. Our self-promoted purpose, or new J-O-B is to learn how to effectuate change by living freely & playfully as incarnated masters of light by reclaiming our birthright to simply exist and create. There is no longer any separation between who we are and what we do. Who we are IS what we do now, and as we become a living authentic, empowered expression of self, we simultaneously shift from (3D) human DOings to the (5D) human BEings we were always meant to BE!

I don't know any greater freedom than that.


Keeping Our Flame Lit

"We reiterate that you are only required to follow the inner guide within each of you that is coming forth now to serve you fully. To bring you into an ecstatic state of alignment, an inner harmony that brings heaven to earth." -Pleiadian High Council

Lastly, the unseens are saying that partly due to this potent eclipse passage and partly due to the upcoming solstice, that we are approaching a level of stabilization that results from moving beyond the 3D frequency field and that enables us to keep our inner flame lit at all times. As we do, we will not only begin to attract the light in others but we will have the ability to alter the dynamic of every situation by harmonizing our energy with those around us thru the radiance of pure love. We are becoming the dominant force of light and those days when we felt outnumbered…dominated by darkness…are over.

There is also a coming a shift in our relationships that will be palpable…relationships of all kinds will begin to restructure and align with the new frequencies which means some will simply fall away and others will be more drawn to us, while some just seem to click into place. The unseens say that the switch will be effortless, but noticeable and that no choices need to be made here...the choices will be made for us by resonance and universal law.

"This is a momentous time in history, and you are undergoing radical changes, so be resolute in your determination to see yourself thru. Be at peace with the coming portals, overjoyed with your success, and remain in child-like anticipation of whats to come…eager for the opportunity to step fully into you.

We are the Pleiadian high council and we bring forth this information to remind you of your power to release yourself from bondage during this critical passage, and to assist each of you as true representatives of your galactic heritage. May the radiance of your soul's brilliance shine forth in all your dealings." -PHC


To maintaining childlike anticipation!

Lauren

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208 comments:

  1. !@#^%$ :) Thank you, Lauren! :)

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  2. I felt your message was coming today sister, thankhs!!

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  3. Thank you Lauren! Childlike anticipation it is, then :)

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  4. Thanx Lauren for this treaty sandwitch. I am already feel it coming down my spine. I can not wait :) Keep the good work going.

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  5. Lauren, can't tell you how much I value your blog updates. I could have been the first to post a comment again but then I sat back and thought, "don't be soooo 3D!" 3D ego-mind has its place but the days of it running the whole she-bang are over. 5D thinking (with my Heart) tells me that we're all ONE.

    Will post another comment soon.

    Love, LW.

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  6. Thank you so much Lauren for posting this.

    Love and Greetings from Austria, Europe

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  7. "We are becoming the dominant force of light and those days when we felt outnumbered…dominated by darkness…are over."

    *cheer!!!*

    "What we would like for you to realize most thru this spectacular summer event is that your only purpose is to breed joy." -PHC

    *phew*

    And here I thought we'd have to go through the entire eclipse'a'thon before we'd get to hear from you again... very happy for the surprise update! Yay! :D

    (re: Petty Patty (lol) - being a grown up in child-like anticipation must have been tough! You know we love your rants ;) Thank you for all of it :) )

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  8. Just wanted to post something that's just occurred to me:-

    One of the things that we're going to radiate is abundance as well as joy.

    People are shifting from 3D to 5D. There will come a time soon when "critical mass" will be achieved and that abundance will manifest in our collective reality (I'm thinking about new technology that will give everyone free energy).

    Love, LW.

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  9. wow. words cannot express how perfectLY timed this message is. thank you and hugs,
    nicole

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  10. Wow...Just when i feel alone again...you describe exactly what im experiencing.

    I know im not alone and spirit walkers are starting to come into my life slowly...

    Today some deep deep seated feelings of unworthiness came up deeper than ive ever felt before and the energy passed through me quickly leaving me feeling stronger...I feel more in touch with myself by the minute, absolutely transforming before my own eyes.......My fear is getting less by the day though my life is becoming WAY more messy. haha

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  11. Lauren, thank you so much for this timely message. Your passion and the TRUTH of your words were palpable. I love you choice of words and the visual picture you paint. Thanks so much for taking the time to share your insights with us. Wishing you many blessings and much joy!...I'm off to play!!

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  12. Mahalo nui loa Lauren & PHCs! . . . Broke down and cried over this one, as it's been shear torture having to wait sooo long for this time (61 times around the sun). Sensed my job to assist those holding firm to 3D was finally over, so appreciated the affirmation :)))

    Am so excited as I got a stunning preview over the weekend so can hardly wait! . . . as I'm now back to wading thru the din of histamine overload hells pressing in on all sides. . . Time to take a soak in the sea :)))

    With many blessings of love & appreciation,
    Ginger

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  13. Lauren, You are such a gift. Your messages are always a soothing tonic on my restless soul. Thank you, as always. Love & Aloha

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  14. Lauren - You're my favorite rock star!! Thank you SO much for being you.

    Much love,

    Claudia Brazil

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  15. there is more? I will try not to "brace" myself in lieu of this next phase (they seem to intensify every time... (and oh so, unexpectedly they arrive)
    well I get through them but gawd knows i dont know how i do in retrospect...
    Thanks Lauren--
    no really ;) thank you

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  16. Thanks Lauren. I really appreciate your input...It helps me so much to understand what's going on and what is still to come.
    Still in the sandwich...but better now I think.

    Love and light!

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  17. Lauren,

    Thank you, :)

    Beautiful :)

    Namaste

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  18. SO much Love for Sharing with us. The one brought me to tears. We are in this all together. Thank you so for the reminder.
    Lots of Love
    Torsten

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  19. Wonderful as always. And yes am reading this during the commercials from The Voice. Be thankful you have Maroon 5 playing in you head. I have had the Star Trek theme today and now need to watch the old Tribbles episode. Joy, Joy, Joy!

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  20. Lauren, thanks so much for this message.

    "Leaving behind the need to DO in order to feel valued" and moving from "have to" to "want to":

    It feels like this has been my journey of the last 10 years, and it's been so frustrating that it hasn't worked - perhaps now I will finally live the dream I've been dreaming.

    Am beginning to see signs of this, just a few loose ends to tie up and some things to let go of... a whole world to close the door on actually, but the new world is in full view. Is amazing how clearly I can see what is 3D and what is 5D.

    Thanks for validating what I know and providing fuel to my fire
    N.B. I really can't be bothered tying off those loose ends... 'have to' energy not 'want to'... I'd rather clean my toilet!

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  21. Hi Laura,

    I am wearing your post like a glove.

    Best wishes from Brasilia, Brazil!

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  22. TY Lauren for the usual loop.

    I just traveled long distance (28hrs sitting) and my feet are still swollen 2wks running; any clue will bring joy/play.

    Also my appetite has recently amped X 3 and running out of supplies lol.
    love to all fellow travelers.

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  23. Thank you Lauren right on the "spot" as usual, all the symptoms is right as usual.

    love :=)

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  24. Talking of ego-desires:-

    I'd told myself for ages that I didn't want to win the lottery and that's why I'd stopped playing it ... and then a member of my family won a reasonably-sized amount of money and was very kind to give me some of it ... and I went and bought a lottery ticket, telling myself that I was a co-creator of my world and that I would win ... I didn't win....

    The following day I was walking through a shopping mall and noticed a very expensive luxury car ... "linear thinking" was written on one side of it and I laughed ... I laughed because I knew that it was a message from my Higher Self telling me that old psychological habits are hard to break. There's STILL a part of me that thinks in 3D - that thinks of the past, the present and the future. The part of me that worries about my past, present and future. The bigger part of me thinks in 5D and tells me that there is no past, present or future - that from 5D there is only NOW - and that NOW is where we are and it's all we will ever need.

    It's said that the world of Spirit has no understanding of linear time - all Spirit has is NOW. This proves to me that when Lauren writes about the merging of the world of Spirit and Matter she is talking about reality. This is really happening!

    The most recent motif has been 11:11. What's 11:11 all about? It's all about alignment: alignment of Lower Self with Higher Self; alignment of chakras; alignment of Spirit with Matter. I could go on but I've made my point.

    Love, LW.

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  25. As always, you confirm and make sense of symptoms, psychological surfacings, and the way I feel moved to act (or not) in my NOW. Thank you so much for the insight and guidance.

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  26. Bless you Lauren xxxx

    This was so spot on for me - especially after some amazing experiences I've had the past few days.Your whole update resonates with everything I'm finally 'getting' about all this and about myself. This is such a powerful time.

    so much love and thanks

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  27. Dear Lauren,
    The way the information is coming in is more and more synchronized. I have an energy system that has a "moving meditation" within it with affirmations. About ten days ago I was led to change one of the affirmations "I am a crystal clear channel of Light" to " I am Divine Light, abundance is my birthright". Reading your update today, made me laugh: "Our self-promoted purpose, or new J-O-B is to learn how to effectuate change by living freely & playfully as incarnated masters of light by reclaiming our birthright to simply exist and create."
    Along with the gathering of the critical mass, I am noticing more and more of a harmonization and ability of multiple channels to receive and express the same information.
    Thank you for transcribing the message of the unseens so clearly.
    Much love to you,
    Eyona

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  28. Thanks for this post. Synchronicity is everywhere and it's nice to see events unfolding in such a rapid speed.

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  29. As always, Lauren, your posts resonate so strongly are are, without a doubt, Divinely Timed. Thank you SO much for all that you do . . . it is such a relief to know we are not alone!

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  30. Greetings. Namaste. Espavo. Thank you much. One Love.

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  32. Lauren, I've been in a gradually increasing state of discomfort to do with a relationship and your post came just at the right time. Thank you for the reminder to just focus on joy, valuing myself and seeing myself through this time.

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  33. Hi Lauren.
    As an older "first waver", I still have an attachment to certain forms and conventions, one of which is correct spelling. Because of this I have found it really difficult to get past your initial word - "Diffusing" I know you mean DE-FUSING - i.e. deactivating the fuse of a bomb, but what you have written, "diffusing", actually means spreading out over a wide area .... which is something I certainly don't want to do with any of my residual psychological or metaphorical bombs ....of which there are many ... as this rambling diatribe obviously indicates.

    Thank you for pointing out once again an area in which I need to let go. I will now go back and read the rest of your post which will be relevant and timely as always. Love to you.

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  34. Hi Lauren

    Thank you so much for this article - this is so spot on with what's going on with me - nice to read and understand that I'm not alone in this!
    love and blessings x

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  35. thanks for the heads up on the typo Diamond Dove...always appreciate the editing help, especially when it comes with a touch of self-deprecating humor : ))

    oh wait, did I spell that right? ; ))

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  36. Thank you once again for the rays of hope and confirmation. Can't wait for these eclipses! Love to you!!!

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  37. Lauren, you freakin' rock! You and the PHC very clearly articulated what I've been feeling: my higher self def feels the pull of readiness, and my lower self is def crapped out on the couch! :) And with a nod to The Voice and the mention of KAG's blog... I'll say it again - you freakin' rock! Thanks for being your beautiful amazing Self! XOXO - Shauna

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  38. thanks for sharing this wonderful post... =D
    Regards,
    Mr Lonely from www.lonelyreload.com ~ XD

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  39. Thank you Lauren!
    Most excellent reminder. whew, inhale, exhale, hang on to the big wave and ride it...Yikes! Ouch, yuck. ....awwwww...yum....what????? crazeeeeee.no sleep again??? what??? ok I am making it...OH NOOOOO? WHAT?? Not again! oh such gratitude...whew! Its exhausting, exhilarating, scary, fun, and everything in between. What a wild time! your message reflects so perfectly all of the above! Great timing!

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  40. I'm really loving this 'time'.. things are making more and more sense each moment. The revealing is becoming faster as we're able to continuously expand the flow of information that consciously flows within/without.

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  41. Ha ha!! Love you, Lauren! Thanks for indulging my anal tendencies and "de-fusing" a potentially "up-myself" situation. Because of the hold-up with the diffusing/defusing issue, I only finished reading your post this morning (Oz time), just before going to an important job interview. This was magic timing because I really needed to have it pointed out precisely then, that it didn't really matter if I got that job or the next one or none at all, because we are now Being and not Doing.....

    Perfect.I understand.

    Thank you. :-)

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  42. Surely she is an amazing gal.

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  43. You know every so often in life we have all been blessed in some way, some never noticing the efforts that they have gone thru for us to have a good life, it is high time we all say thank you. Someone out there loves this big floating ball and we love you, too.

    You have given us the perfect little lady to bring us this news all along, and with her gentle guidance, how can enuf ever be to give her back what she has helped guide us towards. Money is good, but no words, no forms of affection can ever show her truly what she/you have done for each of us.

    Thank Godness/Goodness for reaching out to pick us all out of that mire' pit, for each one of us has the promise to stand on a rock.

    I love you~

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  44. Spot on! perfecto and accurate,..I have been reading your blogs for 8 months and they have been resonating every step of the way. Great channeling hon! xxx Mia

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  45. so apparently im not supposed to get a job. im just supposed to be. i feel lazy....

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  46. I dunno bout anyone else, but I'm having kind of a difficult time reconciling my intense energetic aversion to getting a job with my growing terror of not having ANY money...

    There's a big part of me that still doesn't believe any of this is real. And I really don't want to go through more torture to get to that point. But maybe that's what needs to happen? I dunno... I just feel so betrayed. It's true, I really do feel like I don't deserve abundance. :-(

    Great post Lauren, I liked this one a lot. I've known that worthiness has been my core issue my entire life. Would be great to resolve but I'm not convinced that I can. As I said, a part of me feels like life will always be this way and this is just the way things are. I'll try to release this judgment, it's such a sad viewpoint, but after going through so much pain, failure, and disappointment, I'm not sure I can release them. That is the issue, how do I release these things after they've been with me for so long that I just take them for granted? :-(

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  47. Khai and Ava ... Feel the same about the job thing ...
    And Ava feel exactly the same about the worthiness part of all this... Always seems to be an issue for me .. Little nervous about that part but hoping it will release it for good

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  49. Thank you again for your beautiful messages!!
    With love.

    Orestes

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  50. I guess I'm with Khai, Ava and slg8, because it's so hard to dig yourself out of "I feel like a complete failure" mode when (as you re-merge with the outside world again) people around you do/say things that point out how, according to the 3D world, you *are* a failure, when their reactions imply you aren't doing enough work/ exercise /community involvement /getting your middle-aged act together (according to them).
    And so while it's a giant blessing to have the support of this online, faceless community, it often seems a tall order to be required to cheer yourself on, without a daily 3D coach, to banish the cynicism and "I'll believe it when I see it" perspective that seems to have evolved only because that dangling carrot has been dangling far too long.
    I suppose we are the strongest souls in the otherworld, if we are expected to find our way through this...(fill in word of your choice)...alone... in our caves with nobody but Lauren cluing us in to what is happening.
    But in my gut I know that everything about this post is true, so I will trust the PHC and absorb Lauren's perfect explanation so I can be aware of the opportunities to change things. Thank you.

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  51. Great comment Cheryl ... Right there with ya

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  53. Much gratitude for all that you -- and your wonderful unseen guides have expressed,
    Lauren! You make enduring the challenging aspects of this June's energy dynamics all the more worthwhile by painting the big picture of where we're headed and the comfort, joy and fun that lie in wait for us to experience.

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  54. i fucked up what i was trying to say earlier. i MEANT that I'm trying to do something for a living that isnt in demand. so its like im not in demand. im not needed. so i wonder why the fuck am i even here...

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  55. Khai, you are almost there.

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  56. Khai, not knowing me, but knowing that I have been on a similar journey at the same time as you, ask yourself this. I realize you are younger right? If I had this opportunity at that age, whew it would have knocked my socks off and gave me epiphanies unreal. I am double your age, and hopefully you want to hear this because it is coming from my very being, i was wondering so strongly before all this came on asking 'Is this it?! Is this all life is?!' Then I realized, no it sure wasn't. I am happy for you that you asked the question early on or that you are here for the young man you are, cause I have sure roughed it out, toughed it out, and still like a turtle kept peeping my head to look out the muddy water.

    Your time is come, our time is come. Do yourself a favor, watch something funny, for pete's sake Jim Carrey was on tonite on Jay Leno and I never have watched one episode of Leno before and had stopped watching t.v. pretty much...when i saw Carrey, my heart flopped and joy, laughter, and giddy gal came back like I was finally coming back to life after surely being dead. Whatever it is do it, no matter if its watching The Little Rascals on utube do it, but stay away from profanity, profane viewing, etc. Stay holy thru this transit and you can tell me later, you love me.
    Love yourself and give yourself a hand in the matter.

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  57. The job thing has been bothering me a lot lately as well. I don't do much at all because all of the things that people are doing cost money. I don't like money, and can obviously go without it. It's one lonely fucking path though.. haha. I know it doesn't have to be, but other's don't understand the point. They may feel that I'm holding them back from doing something that involves money or freeloading. I don't like this 'what meets the eye' judgement, especially since speaking my point of view is crazy talk.

    Everyone seems so perfectly brainwashed that society works for itself in providing utopia for whoever the fuck controls it. It seems ridiculously obvious and quite contradicting. Seeing this obviousness within everything results in me feeling like a slave while maintaining a job. Then it almost feels like what is the point? That's the question that has pondered me for years. Either everyone is so blinded and the topdog's are immature idiots, or I am so kept in the dark beyond realization of what's really going on.

    It seems so possible to have heaven on earth where everyone is happy/joyful, and where we evolve at off the chart rates even more by doing it the right way. Yet, we are all caught in this dark web's illusion that only exists because we allow it too. There needs to be a day of the year where all people turn on their brains and think about inventive ways to better the world. These ways wouldn't even be new, they'd be divine. Money creates the structure, but beyond the structure remains equality.

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  58. I totally understand, Nico. I was on chatroulette.com and I met a girl my age, just 19, from northern california. she vibed similarly and she said she works at costco, but she hates her job. she's employed and being a good girl in society, but she vibes that same loser energy that i feel. i think it's the energy of being told that you're worthless. what are we saying to people when the only jobs they can get are things they hate that are so humiliating that someone else could do with love or a machine could just do it automatically.

    so i dont think it would make any difference if we were employed. we'd still feel this way.

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  59. I agree, we would feel the same way regardless. A feeling of incompleteness because mostly everything seems wrong. The average working man's comment would be somewhere along the lines of, "You just need to enjoy life for what it is". As they continue in ignorance to themselves and all else by not acknowledging that this world has the capability of being it's own perfection. The fact that by now we could have machines doing everything for us and how we don't need to harm any living entity for food also makes it seem stupid.

    Then the question comes about again, what is really going on? The only plausible outcome from my perspective (that doesn't coincide with the 'we will be saved' outcome) is that a well informed organization has knowledge of what is truly going on. Knowledge of a catastrophe that will happen according to a cycle that happens every so many years. With this knowledge they are recruiting obedient slave-like people to assure that everything goes to their plan. The majority of our food is genetically modified and brings up many other questions. Where are all of the real crops going? Why are they in such a rush to test GMO? Obviously they are planning on saving a large amount of crops for a specific event that is very close ahead. A catastrophe that will last so long that they are planning on running out of this large amount of food they have saved up. So they are preparing to be able to make their own perfected food under such conditions, with us currently as the test subjects.

    I apologize for going off topic on this one. I know that has nothing to do with what Lauren's blog is about. It's just the big picture point of view that I see. It doesn't matter to them that a certain few of us acknowledge all of this. They are able to spare enough time due to all of the skeptics within society caught on to the illusion.

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  60. hey Ava, et all...thought it may be helpful to point out that conflicting energies exist to bring us to a new level (paradigm) of thought…and this eclipse portal is providing us with the support to that.

    ..."I'm having kind of a difficult time reconciling my intense energetic aversion to getting a job with my growing terror of not having ANY money"...

    This shrinking space between two opposing forces is where our greatest opportunities always reside...the pressure cooker of any paradox pushes us to birth the greater visions, ideas, and the perspective shift needed to break free, to expand into more of our potential.

    Many of you know that I was in a similar financial bind just a couple years ago...in foreclosure, breaking my partners heart with my inability to "work a job" to save our home while wondering at the same time how I would even feed myself, so I get it…but in retrospect I can clearly see now that had I not had the pressure of needing to survive I wouldn't have had the drive to push myself out of my conundrum and into my "life purpose".

    The need to sustain myself literally became the creative fire that I lit under my own ass…and it pushed me further than I would have gone with complacency. I mean seriously…under any other circumstance I just could not see myself publicly talking about my conversations with ET's. And when I finally conceded to using my gifts for the good of all, and focused solely on developing it, everything else worked itself out…as if by magic. Literally, mountains moved to see me thru, and the same or better will happen for each of you.

    It's a dangerous misconception in some new age circles that our lives shift without our participation…working within the integrated head/heart paradigm does require patience but it does not mean that we are in any way passive. Co-creation is a sacred collaborative dance between our feminine and masculine forces, a relationship that we must hone and maintain as tho we are two people in one working together toward the same goal, but with very different abilities/responsibilities.

    An integrated/empowered being uses both divine forces to be and do, to receive and create…in an intentional harmonious exchange. Our feminine energy (right brain) feeds us with the information/creative visions that are contained within our divine blueprint in order to fulfill our soul's plan to live joyfully & abundantly...and our masculine energy (left brain) helps us to assimilate and apply the information into the physical world thru inspired action. The two energies MUST work together to create, but the masculine plays the supporting role in 5D.

    So think about this (and I am using you Ava, but really speaking to anyone who is interested)…. in your attempt to reconcile two options that you don't want (a JOB, and NO MONEY), you are not only reinforcing those unwanted things, but keeping yourself trapped in a restricted paradigm of limiting thought while also blocking yourself from the many millions of options/ideas/creative visions that will remain just out of your reach until you switch your focus from the horrors of what is >>> to what you are here to share, and how you want go about (co)creating that.

    Ultimately, the 2 most powerful questions we can ask ourselves thru this shift are: "what am I here to contribute" and "how can I create/express that in the physical world?" If you are unsure, let my boy Freddie lead the way for you:

    "The place God calls you to is the place where your deep gladness and the world's deep hunger meet." - Frederick Buechner

    hope this is helpful
    : ))

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  61. This is Merlin aka "Bryan" posting because I wanted to post something here before I depart on my adventure which will include no internet access (Khai if I get $50 I'll send some to you LOL)

    Anyways my partner and I made a decision and CHOSE to leave this place on June 10th. We CHOSE this date to stop perpetuating the cycle of getting housing and money for food from others. In other words to go from VICTIM mentality to empowering ourselves by making CHOICES and taking back our power!

    Now we've had tons of magic in our hologram within the last 8 months. A couple days ago we had butterflies swarming around us and about 3 landed on my head and just sat there for at least 15 minutes...We've had tons of magic including the computer appearing out of thin air in a room in our house and other amazing things which I could write a book about.

    Anyways I'm posting in here to thank Lauren for her articles and for her latest! Anyways Mordred and I are gonna be driven into nature today somewhere remote where we're just gonna sit and wait for our magic. We're that confident that we feel COMPLETELY FEARLESS AND COMPLETELY AT PEACE AND I FEEL CHILDLIKE ANTICIPATION at what's to come.

    I thank everyone in here who has posted. It has all helped me deal with "old aspects of myself" or has helped me in receiving messages from some of you messengers. I rarely get "old aspects of myself" anymore but now I just embrace them and recognize myself in each person that represent that "old aspect of myself" and I love them all!

    Anyways today I'm not sure what will happen. We are going somewhere in the woods with just the clothing on our backs where we will sit/lay... I'm trusting my Expanded Self (which is myself) to love and support me through this interesting period.

    I feel intense love for all of you and want to thank you all for your postings here!

    Merlin

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  62. Holy Shit!

    We just sat to eat something because we leave here in a couple hours and my partner asked "Do you feel it?" and I said "YES!" it's overwhelming...the "head STuff" we have is so massive and like we're on drugs and the hologram is "flickering" is the best way I can describe it and I want to cry from the JOY I'm feeling..this is so undescribeable and the feeling of JOY is so intense and my hands seem like so far away...hahahahaha

    Funny also on the road we walked on near our house we saw a dead rabbit which I knew represented the death of the old ideas about what I want and on the end of our walk we saw the Hawk which symbolizes a "higher vision"

    I swear I'm gonna just "POP" out of this illusion right now...hahahahaha

    LOL

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  63. Hey Lauren,

    Thank you for addressing that point, and I do feel there's a lot of truth to what you are saying here. I was able to manifest myself a new and better living situation a month and a half ago and I am so much better being here with these new people and different energies than I was at home. I also seem to get enough little odd jobs to "keep going" financially but I keep hoping for some kind of breakthrough that will push me out of these horrible compression feelings.

    If I understand you correctly, what these feelings are indicating is that I really need to start following my heart so to speak and do what I love. I think my biggest problem has been that early on I was in so much pain/hated myself so much for not getting "what I wanted" in life and for being treated horribly by others that I spent decades trying to be what they wanted me to be and taking on all kinds of responsibilities and roles that had nothing to do with my "real self" at all but were sort of a presentation self I did in order to fit in and feel accepted.

    I went so deep with this that these past few years have felt like a series of me having to release major, major attachments and I am now coming into a clearer space but still working on untangling some of these last few energetic knots. I am not of the mind that just ignoring something will make it go away, and I don't believe in just spouting off affirmations and that sort of thing, but I hope you're right that when we end up between a rock and a hard place, it forces and evolution and (hopefully) eventual resolution... this has truly been the case with many areas of my life to date but I'm still reeling in some core work of self-acceptance and "allowing" people to disapprove of me, criticize me, even hate me, but to still make the choices that are right for me and keep putting myself out there... the fear of rejection has been the worst.

    But yes, I've been feeling drawn towards jewelry making lately? Totally new to me... and a few other little creative endeavors. I love to write but have been too afraid to speak my real truth but I've always had the feeling that this would be my "life's work," I have just been too afraid of rejection up to this point. It seems like kind of an oxymoron: learning to accept rejection. Hehe.

    For me there is still a lot of work to do on self-acceptance and I feel like I have a big role to play in bringing forth some potentially... taboo, controversial, and "highly charged" information here, but I guess that is the same type of thing you were grappling with a few years ago (although now there are tons of channels all over the place!). And you have experienced both approval and criticism when following your path... that is a great reminder and thanks for sharing it. I don't know why I get so nervous and anxious about being myself. I was telling this to someone last night, I feel like I am COMPLETELY neurotic and even just everyday things give me huge panic attacks! I will hope it's just more energy releasing... not a lot of fun though!

    Anyway sorry if this was a bit convoluted - thanks for sharing your thoughts.

    P.S. I am approaching my Saturn Return this fall (have been in it for years of course!) which I think might have a lot to do with this - I'm curious, was that similar timing for you? Pretty exhausting to have it coincide with all of this crazy "bigger picture" stuff going on, whose brilliant idea was it for me to incarnate when I did? Probably mine... :-P

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  64. I am glad i came back to read the replies--I too am dealing with those similar fears. No money, no inspiration etc... Yet I do feel inspired to do "some-things" but then i never do it because of fear and lack of worthiness (I realized this when I saw what many of you wrote and then Laurens reply to those comments about what inspires us)
    In order to survive (not end up sleeping in my car--lucky that was left though) i went back to college, I got loans, at least there was an option. I thought i would love it I study so much anyway (what i want to learn that is!) anyway school is a mind F*%k of meaningless concepts and terms they force you to memorize and you never need --not in the way i want to live anyway.
    It is hard because I already know what is going on in me and around me. I do not need "to figure it out" Yet i sure would love to not be the only one IN IT! I desire others who know and feel it too...
    And I truly hope to have the courage to use my gifts, I know what some of them are, but i am not sure how to use them now. Plus I fear more ostracizing will come if i do "put it out there" yet I am not sure LOL how to PUT IT OUT there.
    So I am a hermit for the most part. But i know it is not for-ever.. I try to remember how much i have grown from all this. Well i sure hope I dont have to write it in the future-- ah for it to be real in this physical life would be so much more fun!
    xo

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  65. ok so now student loan people are sending me bills and i dont have a job or money. hmmmm what to do...

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  66. i have the courage to use my gifts, i just dont have all the resources i need. ive been trying to manifest them but its just not happening at the moment though i'm told over and over again to keep focus because its coming in a few months. but still. SHIT. its been forever.

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  67. I thought I should post at least one more time. Maybe what I post makes a difference to someone.

    Friday was interesting to say the least but I won't get into details because they're unimportant.

    Suffice it to say it's very clear to me at this point in time to be brief in my communications in the future.

    It's also very clear to me that my approach from now on will be to clear ALL thoughts and beliefs from my mind and to be present and not to react to the hologram around me and to stop conceptualizing.

    I realized the beliefs or “claims of knowingness” people in my hologram are reflecting just reflect my own thoughts and beliefs about things. But where do my thoughts/beliefs come from really? I don't really know....

    It's uncanny how this hologram so reflects my thoughts and beliefs and it's incredible the “magic” that is presented to me.

    But how my thoughts and beliefs (wherever they come from) are put together to give me my hologram is another story??

    The Program Controller (or as most of you call “Higher Self”) seems to give you things that reflect your thoughts and beliefs but there is no “set formula” for what you get.

    It's also clear to me that whatever I want seems irrelevant and that there does seem to be some sort of “set scripting” or “set storyline”...

    Anyways as far as I'm concerned I'll never know for sure anything so it's pointless to assume I know anything and to stop assuming people in my hologram know anything either.

    What people have are their beliefs but really where do they come from? Where do your thoughts come from?

    Seems clear to be in the future that I need to 1) clear all thoughts and beliefs from my mind 24/7 2) not react to my hologram AT ALL 3) STOP completely with conceptualizing or philosophizing or contemplating how this hologram operates because I'll never know

    I don't claim to know and NOT ONE PERSON out there can know...all they have are their beliefs but who is correct really?

    I'm no longer interested in hearing or discussing how this hologram operates because it's pointless because NOT ONE PERSON knows the answer. In fact not one person knows whether their beliefs are the “truth”. In fact not one person can even say where their thoughts come from in the first place.

    In the future I will be much more brief in communications and I will be much less arrogant claiming to think I have any answers. BELIEFS ARE NOT NECESSARY THE “TRUTH”. And really where does this “channeling” information come from.

    In fact all I have are my perceptions, programming and experiences as a guide but if I'm being fed stuff by some-thing or some-one do those things really matter?

    IT SEEMS ALL THOUGHTS/BELIEFS ARE A TRAP AND THE KEY IS TO TOSS THEM ALL. NOT ONE PERSON KNOWS WHAT THE "TRUTH" REALLY IS.

    Not one person can even answer "where do my thoughts come from?".

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  68. Somebody owes me $10 for a bet I clearly won.

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  69. Khai the student loan people have been after me fir a while... I was on deferment(sp?) but I think that runs out but if you have no job???
    Bry last night as I've heard a million times the key to manifesting is to let it go... Easy on paper but hard for the mind I think

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  70. Khai,

    Not one person in here can afford "a pot to piss in" let alone $10 LOL

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  71. SLG8,

    Yeah yeah all these experts on the "Key to manifesting is blah blah blah". It must be "all is in divine order"...Sorry but I'll take my $1 million in the higher realms. At least I can eat and afford to have a roof over my head and maybe buy some new clothes..

    Seems "the blob" that is pooping out the scenes in what we love to call our existences has no concern with what we get whether we let go or are screaming our heads off. When I let go and was VERY TRUSTING and positive I ended up homeless... Kind of kills the trust...

    Suddenly when people get money they becomes "experts" at manifesting...doesn't matter how they got it...

    The whole "subprime mortgage" business where people got loans when they shouldn't have basically funded the whole new age movement and so called "new age gurus" like the sweat lodge guy who told people to stay in the tent as they died. Now that the free money is gone from the home equity loans we have many "new agers" in trouble.

    There are even people who claim they're in phase 3 of Bob Scheinfeld's "Busting Loose books" because they're self-employed doing web design or selling books like Bob

    People's minds will confirm whatever they believe. I'm proof of that! I was a jackass to trust anything!

    The key is to dump ALL BELIEFS because they're A TRAP!

    Trust me there are no "experts" out there. It appears "The Blob" is just pooping out scenes "willy nilly" and we're the victims of what we get. Some people just got lucky and most just got shafted...

    You know for 6 years I've tried everything and I've believed in so many "theories" by so called "experts" and the result is usually the same..NO MONEY. And face facts in this illusion NO MONEY = NO FUN!

    Shit happens?

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  72. I hear ya... I'm frustrated to a point too ... It's your thoughts create your reality... Well it's hard to think good things when you hope and dream and nothing happens... If you're supper to think what you want the universe to give you why do you have to let it go to get it to come... Just seems all over the place... My mind is always thinking if good things it wishes to have happenbut the real world stuff then makes you feel like crap and you think crappy thoughts... So I don't know... I'm trying to just be... Hoping things will get better... Not get too crazy about this cuz I'm just not sure what to do at this point... I need to figure out what I'm here to contribute as Lauren said... I just get nervous ... An I being lazy ... Am I participating even if I don't feel like I am? Does it not matter? Blaaaaaaa

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  73. I know SLG8,

    And I was preaching in here like a jackass about thoughts and beliefs create reality for 100% because I was desperately hoping by being positive and trusting (seriously I was completely trusting) I would get something I wanted which = money for housing/food. Instead I ended up in the local park with major lower back pain.

    I ain't buying the bullshit anymore. No more beliefs for me and no more listening to "self appointed gurus" who think they know something when they don't.

    It seems people always become experts when they have $$$ and their minds will always convince themselves of their beliefs...

    ALL BELIEFS = TRAP

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  74. Well at first you had made some good points and things that made sense that you said to me... But your last few posts... And I mean this is the nicest way... Were over the top... And I got the feeling you were just really trying to believe, trust and manifest... And I'd have liked nothing more than for it to work out the way you wanted it to ... We want to hear the good things that happen so we have hope... So it was disappointing to me to hear this didn't work for you... Because I felt bad for you and because it just meant it didn't work... it sucks... Sorry... Well we can all benefit from any belief that is about thinking positively I guess but I think sometimes we get too caught up and hopeful about some of this stuff that seems sort of out of a movie or something... Like I think am I just like a person that reads the bible and goes to church on Sunday's that prays to an invisible God? It gives them something to believe in... How do we know it's true that someone didn't just make it all up? just like all this... Are we hoping for something that might not happen? Just things I think about when I'm really down.... But something in me still says there is something more... And alot of things Lauren writes about make sense and often go along with a lot of things in this groups lives.. We have to keep the faith somehow I guess... I want something more... I want to believe it's there... That it's coming

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  75. Thanks for saying SLG8..

    Honestly not one person knows anything. I'm leery of these so called "experts".

    BELIEFS are a TRAP I think. They're pointless because who is correct in the end? Who has the "truth"? People's minds will convince themselves of WHATEVER because delusion is the name of the game (look at me)..People want to believe in happy endings or happy tales...People are programmed from birth that "the sky is blue". Same with these "new age" concepts. It's programming = BE(LIE)FS People read about something and take it on as belief and "parrot" the belief. They believe they KNOW the "truth" but really they don't know. I can't tell you where my thoughts come from? How would I know that?

    Yeah of course Lauren's stuff makes sense but who is feeding her this "knowledge". And of course we have symptoms but who is giving us these symptoms. I mean really can we even trust our perceptions because aren't they based on our programming in the first place.

    You know someone called me nuts for my beliefs and yet they believe in Leprachauns. That just shows you how warped the human mind is and how it just tricks and deceives.

    I don't do faith anymore. It's like hope. Hope is a "carrot that is loaded with arsenic".

    I'm going with TOSSING ALL BELIEFS, EMPTYING MY MIND, NOT REACTING TO MY HOLOGRAM AND BEING PRESENT.

    For the rest I'm gonna say to people "I don't know" or "Could be?" (shrugs shoulders)

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  76. I googled 'toss all beliefs' and only 1 link appeared.

    http://www.chenghsin.com/book-of-not-knowing.html

    'The Book of not-Knowing' LOL

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  77. To Khai, slg8 and others to whom this applies:
    I don't know what student loan companies you deal with, and no need to tell, but I was just able to extend my deferment by submitting proof of govt. assistance.
    Funny, last year their system was not set up for me to be eligible for this deferment, even though I was on assistance back then. I noticed they have changed their system in the past 6 months and this time it was easier for me to apply, and I got BETTER results (i.e. a longer deferment extension).

    So that was a major blessing. Even though every fiber of me wants to be OFF govt assistance and I resisted signing up for it in the first place, since I'd rather stand on my own two feet, it's actually helping me in other indirect ways. So I am just saying look into economic hardship deferments with the loan companies.

    Also, I agree with the affirmation/positive talk frustration. Seems like there are such inconsistent results for us, it's challenging. A perfect example is I recently did my 2nd craft show ever (Note to Ava: I'm doing the jewelry thing) and I was totally visualizing coming home with a few hundred dollars revenue, because the whole thing felt "right" and I was so excited for 2 weeks beforehand.

    Then the weekend came, and the lady I was sharing the table with told me---admitted---she was going around telling people she "didn't expect to sell any (of her things)"...and what do you think happened?

    Everyone was ogling over HER things, I had to bail out due to severe lower back issues, and I walked out with $10 in sales and she walked out with $110 in sales. So I figured I must have been there to help HER soul plan, and whatever is going on with mine is still a mystery.
    The end.

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  78. Thanks Cheryl for proving my point! LOL

    First it's my beliefs until it isn't.

    Then it's my 'soul plan' when my beliefs aren't working.

    See the mind playing tricks.

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  79. The emotional nihilism that I wrote about in the comments of Lauren's last update has passed (thank God)! That was some very nasty black sticky stuff indeed. I very much hope that it's been completely purged from my emotional body. I'm not even sure if that black stuff was personal. I think that I could have been transmuting collective human emotions - this links into the new transpersonal chakra system that I'm now operating with. This transmutational process is the essence of spiritual alchemy.

    I keep thinking back to the Japanese disasters and the equanimity of those amazing Japanese folk - truly a very important life lesson for all of us.

    It's vital that I act with integrity, authenticity, and equanimity in my life. We are going to witness huge changes our collective future and it's vital that we become living examples of these axioms.

    I must admit to feeling a little apprehensive about what the coming Lunar eclipse will bring but whole-heartedly agree with Lauren when she states we have to view these experiences from a higher, neutral perspective. I know within my heart that whatever happens will happen for my ultimate good.

    The power of the mind is phenomenal - we can look at our experiences through pessimistic, optimistic or neutral perceptual filters. Those who are balanced (heart/mind, male/female-aspects, left/right-brain) have a greater chance of applying those neutral filters.

    Something monumentally significant has happened to me over the last couple of years. There was a time when that emotional nihilism would have overwhelmed me completely. My outer life would have reflected my inner emotional instability with a brutal totality; but not any longer. I felt that "anchor" throughout my darkest nihilistic moments - this was the lesson that I had to learn.

    Love, LW.

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  80. hey Ava...great question:

    " I am approaching my Saturn Return this fall which I think might have a lot to do with this - I'm curious, was that similar timing for you?"

    The answer is a resounding YES.

    Tho I experienced a pretty horrifying spontaneous Kundalini activation in 1999, technically it was during my Saturn return that I started to consciously put all the pieces together. The first saturn return is historically a major turning point in life because this is generally when we are beginning to apply ourselves in the world, to become "of use" to the global system by learning how to embrace our potential & apply it.

    This was exactly the time period in my life when I realized I was not at all aligned with my true "purpose" & it was like I activated some kind of relentless coding that would not let me rest until I figured out what that purpose was. It consumed me to the point I felt I needed to release my "safety net" (sell my restaurant & real estate investments) to sit in isolation for the next 6 years while I revisited all of my limitations…which, like so many others, included deep, primordial fears around lack.

    Its a double whammy, no doubt, because the ascension process is galactically driven & saturn return is planetary…so there are two major forces at work simultaneously pushing us to embrace our greater potential…tho technically, most starseeds have been in what feels like a saturn return their whole lives…blocked by a world they don't feel they belong in. But this changes once we are reconnected to our core self/ purpose, & when we can finally can stop meandering aimlessly around the earth.

    So yes, my saturn return was a great support for me to figure it all out, to get clear about what I really want to be, do & have, but mostly to find a way to apply it in the world so that I could sustain myselfa without having to split up my time/energy between a j-o-b & my "real purpose". Bringing the two together is a layered process & we are definitely rewarded along the way (kinda like a breadcrumb trail to say YES, you are ON PATH), but patience & trust were supremely important…as well as self-love, because I had to literally love myself thru a million embarrassing screw-ups before I really let go & let my higher self lead.

    The law of attraction & all the hype around those laws often leaves out a vital piece to the puzzle, which is that: in 5th dimensional consciousness, true abundance REQUIRES clarity about our god-consciousness…aka, understanding who we are & what we came here to contribute.

    In order to manifest without accumulating karma, we are required to align our spiritual & material self which is why our higher self will not allow us to manifest our deepest desires w/out that alignment. There is literally & energetically a vibrational grid-lock in place that won't permit us to utilize these powerful energies until we are fully reconnected & operating from our core.

    The bottom line is that we are designed to live abundantly in all ways, but it is our job to get ourselves there. When we begin to apply our divine purpose we are supported ad infinitum because it means we have figured out how to work within the laws of physicality but with a higher-dimensional mindset…which is key. I think a lot of young starseeds get confused here because they are already activated at the higher levels (memories from home) but don't really understand that we are still required to live in the physical world & abide by the physical laws. & for good reason too…cuz its DENSE as hell down here & the outside world can feel overwhelming & harsh without the protection of our soul-family to sustain us…but its not only possible to do this, its essential. Granted, we need to do this on our own terms, but we are definitely responsible for learning how to function in the material world without shutting down our mutant powers...lol

    hope that is in some way useful
    : ))

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  81. i think i am eligible for a deferment, i just have to go file for one. im gonna do that. they can go fuck themselves.

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  82. So if we can't get ourselves into alignment then we're screwed!? Why can't I do it!? Lol
    Yes khai you can def get a deferment if you have no job I got it when I was on unemployment and I am going to see how much longer I can defer... I've been avoiding it... :/

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  83. What a brilliant reply to Ava's "Saturn return" question!

    How about this for a glimpse of co-creation?

    I had an amazing number prompt a couple of days ago while I was working. I was thinking about the "critical mass" theory regarding consciousness and its link to our reality - specifically I was thinking about human beings (who have moved from the personal 7 chakra system to the 13 chakra transpersonal system) radiating thoughts and feelings of abundance and this manifesting as something like new free energy technology in our reality. Just as I finished this thought I got an 11:11 prompt! This was a clear message from my Higher Self that this idea is going to be implemented in reality!

    Love, LW.

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  84. Hey everyone,

    Just found an interesting article that some may find interesting. If anyone reads it, please let me know your thoughts...
    Like most of you, I'm very wary of anyone who claims to have a perfect "formula", or "law", or "secret" for how to live my life.

    http://celestialhealing.blogspot.com/2011/06/oprah-james-ray-and-cult-of-victim.html

    Oh, and Khai - I so feel your pain regarding student loan payments. I've used so many different deferments & forbearances over the past 6 years (especially because the other side keeps doing their "wait, wait, wait" b.s.) I've maxed out my economic hardship deferment so now I currently have to keep reapplying for an Unemployment Hardship deferment. Hang in there (I know it bites). No matter what you choose, it'll work out well for you.

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  85. OMG Cheryl -

    Thank you for posting your story about the craft show. Geezus, I have been in your shoes so many times. I've had many similar situations. Life is such a figgin' paradox sometimes. What is the saying, "Man plans & God laughs." It's a twisted proverb, but it does come to mind in these situations (for me at least).

    Props to you for doing the show - especially when there is so much wacko energy in the Universe right now.

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  86. Bryan,

    Back again, I see. Here is some of what you don't get.

    Beliefs are one thing. We can discuss different theories and argue merits back and forth.

    On the other hand, some of us KNOW some very solid, consistent truths about this reality. We know these, not just from feeling it deep inside, but from living it for year after year, with consistent, reliable results. Whether you believe these truths or not is irrelevant.

    But more importantly, there are many of us who KNOW integrity of action when we see it. This isn't a belief. This is about observing people and being able to identify when someone consistently acts with integrity, compassion, humility, discernment and clarity. Someone who acts this way, time and time again, can be trusted. What they share can be trusted.

    In all honesty, Bryan... as someone who has interacted with you time and time again publicly and privately... you are not this kind of person. The most important thing you can do is to learn how to be this type of individual.

    A good first step, which you state you are ready to take, is to jettison the misguided belief system you've had for some time. After that, try focusing primarily on living with integrity and respect. You might be surprised what happens next.

    Richard

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  87. LOL

    I'm definitely gonna start tossing the beliefs and I'm starting with the "new age" downloads.

    Thanks Richard! You are a great messenger and you confirm exactly what I thought LOL.

    You are a gem in disguise Richard! You were the clue I'm looking for! LOL

    Damn it's true what I thought...it's so obvious LOL

    Take care folks!!

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  88. Sc383
    Read that article... Lots of thoughts... Makes you question things... Another something to confuse the shit out of me lol

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  89. Anyone planning on getting a job? I can't stop thinking about how its necessary, but it seems like the wrong thing to do.. really confused.

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  90. Yeah I'm there with you. I suddenly feel like I don't know what the fuck I'm doing and I don't know what to do next. I'm really scared at the moment.

    I don't think I'll be able to find work. I never get any call backs, NONE. I am way more qualified than some of these people but I guess I'm not hirable.

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  91. Yeah... Or something needs to happen to be able to support myself... But yeah I also feel the same Nico... And nothing looks appealing or interesting... :/

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  92. I love you both. I don't have much to say since lately I'm feeling very confused about life decisions. We all seem to share a vast amount of similarities though, and I wonder what other common grounds that we share.

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  94. I'm with you guys about the job thing.

    I started my own business a year and a half ago because I could not stand to be "out there" anymore.

    I did all the right things: I took time to figure out who I wanted to be and the lifestyle I wanted to have.

    I created a business with 2 partners who were like-minded (but not spiritual). We created a new idea and have been pursuing it ever since.

    But the energies have been sooo unstable these last 2 years that progress has been really slow.

    At this point it looks like it could take another year before we start to get any money coming in. And that's if everything goes well.

    At this point I have run out of money. Although I am more happy and peaceful in myself than I have ever been, and have used this time to work on my attachments to money and 3d things associated with it I find myself drawing a blank on how to proceed.

    I am no longer afraid to go back "out there." I think I would survive in the job world. But it goes against everything that I have been working toward. It goes against who I want to be and who I am becoming. It just seems wrong.

    I really don"t get it. Maybe we all have to get through this eclipse sandwich to see clearly.

    I don't think it is any coincidence that so many of us are experiencing this same dichotomy.

    But really.

    WTF?

    Penny

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  95. Thank you Lauren! I am so tired of struggling and fighting. It will be so nice to just live my life in joy and just BE, and fulfill my purpose that way, without struggling or fighting. Those days are gone. I am glad these changes are taking place, even though there are times when I get worried or scared about the future, but it's a necessary change and one that I have been waiting for, for a long time and many lifetimes...

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  96. FYI, every doubting Thomas read this post. Edgar Cayce and another guy nailed it and I get it, you will too.

    Although the link is gone, this is pretty much how it goes. At one point each of us are different levels of souls, some called at a much more significant stage to guide younger souls, with this responsibility comes a job. I believe this is many of us are approaching, as Richard said a life with integrity... might I add a life of transparency, nothing hidden, no deceit, recognizing deceit & staying away from it, but helping others to recognize those actions will not serve them is the key along with all the much of wisdom.

    Keep to the path of truth, I just know something is in the making for each one of us. Like all of you, I have a few dollars that is really no dollars, a family to raise, a mortgage, everything and no spouse, no one to help, but ahhhh I have the universe and that is what i count on. I send out love to every being and want the best life avenue for everyone, we must all learn to encourage one another daily, and know come the summer solstice, I believe major breakthroughs will show themselves. Have faith that is all that is required along with true lasting virtues.

    Love, me

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  97. thanks Rae...funny i listened to this radio show today online and i looked at the upcoming guests and there was a "doubting thomas" topic next to this guest speakers name, but the info link on the topic/talk was "on vacation" until July I guess...
    i agree with all this.. i need to work on some forgiveness, and i know i will def get there...

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  98. Slg8,
    Awesome, you go girl/boy not sure which one. This is where I believe that last push of faith is required. We all probably know the path we took was something else as many quit not too far long in, but I say this is what makes us stronger even though appearances seem otherwise. It is the catalyst for change within our very core of values, to wring out the last bit of sweat and push us onto greatness.

    The trial will always come and go as Cayce says, for we have all seen that haven't we?.

    All it is for is to be sure we are in align and snap back into grasp of where we need to be so that we are true teachers and do not fall privy to falling back where we had to dig ourselves out of.

    Stay in christ-like consciousness as this is our way of life now....Dunno if you guys know this but in the bible, Paul thought he could go back to his old self but learned quickly he could not. He was past that point of return, as we are. The old way did not work, we know that, this works, it is peaceful, a knowing, lovable, virtuous, and good. What more can we ask for?

    All else will be delivered unto each of us as long as we stay aligned, that my dears is God's promise.

    Peace~

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  99. Oh wayyyyy to much, i just said this to ya'll and opened my email and look what I got, talk about confirmation:

    Look to the Horizon - Day #177

    Remember the good times; cherish the memories, but live each day moving forward. Focus your thoughts on what is before you and how you are going to get there.

    "I often tell people that there are three stages you need to think about: You can't go back. You can't stay here. You must go forward," says Dr. Ray Pritchard. "There may be some good things in the past that you wish you could go back to, but in the end you have to let those go."

    Quotation for the Day

    “I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.” - Margaret Mitchell

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  100. Another ahaaa, another email, you guys this is beautiful:

    Daily Health Quote

    Hidden away in the inner nature of the real man is the law of his life, and someday he will discover it and consciously make use of it. He will heal himself, make himself happy and prosperous, and live in an entirely different world. For he will have discovered that life is from within and not from without.

    - Ralph Waldo Emerson

    Thank you Ralph, you are the man! Muah!!!!
    You see guys, the great leaders, encompassed what we did, reach in, its all within.

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  101. One more thing, i listen to this station online just about every day on my computer or in my car, it serves me well, and has served this process:

    http://www.klove.com/music/radio-stations/

    Click the icon, listen online to the top right. These guys singing have all got to the point we are going, and they are such beautiful people, God I love them.

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  102. “I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.” - Margaret Mitchell

    Rae what a great quote....thank you for sharing :)
    oh and the you cant go back but you cant stay here, like that one too, have heard that before, in a song or something....

    Stacy(female ;)

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  103. I like this text.

    http://www.esoterium.de/modules.php?op=modload&name=XForum&file=viewthread&tid=2466

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  104. Hey Lauren,

    Thanks and yes, that was great... I think I experienced a "Kundalini awakening" as you say in early 2007... I wasn't even 25 yet, but honestly I feel like I've been having my Saturn Return since then! It has SUCKED.

    The double whammy is ridiculous. I'm starting to grasp more of what you mean though, of the planetary vs celestial levels. It's like I'm trying to do two full-time jobs at the same time, basically... :-P

    Right now I'm being plunged into the worthlessness vibes you described. Mostly I feel this sense of despair that I have been trying SO HARD my entire life to do the "right" thing - my only definition of the "right" thing is the thing that will make me feel good. Obviously I have not found that yet, so instead all I feel is this insane frustration that I've "screwed up," I've "failed," it's hopeless, I'm never going to get there - and I don't even know where "there" is, I just know that I'll recognize it when I find it because it won't feel so damn horrible!

    And then I have this lurking suspicion that the entire POINT of this exercise was for me to "feel bad" and transmute all of those feelings, in which case it really doesn't matter WHAT I've done just as long as I've stayed here and felt what I needed to feel as it arose. Which really kind of sucks, in a way, because it means all of the "doing" was pointless. But hey, wasn't that the theme of your post?

    And if I can accept the sad, depressing fact that all of the "doing" was pointless and that all of my self-disciplined efforts were for "nothing" (for the most part), well maybe I can get to the other side of this energy, which is that I don't have to "do" anything because nothing I "do" really "MATTERS" anyway?!?!

    I think I am onto something here. I hate that it's taken so damn long and been so excrutiatingly painful getting here though, and that it's STILL not over yet and I still don't know when/if it will be over. And I'm so down on myself that honestly there's a part of me that believes I don't even deserve peace, happiness, ease, abundance... I'm trying really hard to release this self-hatred. I am not even sure where it came from!

    I guess it came from hating the way I was feeling. I'm trying instead to accept the way I'm feeling, because if emotion is energy then acceptance is the way to get it moving and flowing again, even if what I'm trying to accept "feels bad."

    Oy, what a total mindfuck!!!

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  105. RE: rae--Emerson is my favorite writer, love him--
    and...
    Does anyone understand excruciating headaches? (my whole face and upper teeth hurt) I need to study but cannot. Usually i can breathe and heal myself. Not this time, (alone most times so i am not doing too much)
    anyone experience this? I am having a hard time with this--thanks

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  106. My God, Ava!

    That surely is a mindfuck. But you make sense and you seem to have a handle on it, meaning you are on the inside of it, in that quiet, still place that is your core.

    You don't need to analyze it anymore - you know. I suggest you focus on that quiet, still place that is your core. See all that "mindfuck" as being on the outside of your core. It is not you. Then pull back your energy/attention from the "mindfuck" and feed your core with it. As you do so you let your essence transmute the "mindfuck" stuff into your core energy.

    You are naturally built to do this, so sit back in your core and enjoy the "show."

    I think this may help you at this time.

    Remember: Whatever we give attention to flourishes.

    Penny

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  107. last night i was watching that Sarah Fergusson series on OWN and Susie Orman was on and she said a few really great things... wish i could quote but I didnt DVR it, but it was something like, youre always trying to figure it out, instead of it just being what it is, instead just dont care anymore... and then something else about just loving yourself... and i will rewatch and get it word for word, it just really all made sense... i think we could be making it too difficult for ourselves?? Ava I feel and have gone through and are going through pretty much the same exact feelings and thoughts you are... i dont know where in my life i got such bad self worth/confidence/ esteem... i really would like to figure out why and all that, i analyze the shit out of everything.... but maybe its just time to decide to like myself more and forget about the rest... there isnt any reason why i shouldnt love myself or any reason why i wouldnt be worthy... lets just decide to do it and screw what the reasons why are? i dont know... one side says to figure it out, one says why bother bringing out just to feel that bad stuff... just recognize and let it go....easier said than done though... we'll difure it out....

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  108. I decided to look up "integrity" in my dictionary and this was what I read:-

    1 the quality of being honest and having strong moral principles; moral uprightness : he is known to be a man of integrity.

    2 the state of being whole and undivided : upholding territorial integrity and national sovereignty.
    • the condition of being unified, unimpaired, or sound in construction : the structural integrity of the novel.
    • internal consistency or lack of corruption in electronic data : [as adj. ] integrity checking.

    "sovereignty ... the condition of being unified ... lack of corruption ..." I like this word! :-)

    I also liked the other words Richard listed in his advice to Bryan:- compassion, humility, discernment and clarity. Authenticity and equanimity are also words I try to live by.

    I must say that it's essential that we use discernment when reading the comments of people on this blog. Ask yourself this question: what's the vibe from that person's writing? Does their writing turn your conscious focus towards the light or the dark? There are sly people who try to hide their darkness in words of light but if one exercises discernment....

    @Rae:-

    Your light is very much appreciated! :-) So glad you posted about that "doubting thomas" syndrome - only those who have true faith will be called upon to lead. Very interesting to read your words about some being called to guide younger souls and with this comes a job - because I'd had the same intuition a couple of weeks ago!

    I feel that the coming lunar and solar eclipses (along with the summer solstice) will present me with the opportunities to purge the last of the "black stuff" so that unity consciousness can manifest (union of Lower and Higher selves). My life will change for the better for myself (and others) if I'm successful.

    I'm so with you about "not being able to go back" - many months ago I had a crystal clear message from Spirit that I'd crossed that line and that there was no going back.

    I had an amazing experience with Christ energy many months ago while I was at work (I posted about it in the comments section of Lauren's blog) and it's only recently that I consciously realised what had happened: my Higher Heart chakra (Christ Consciousness) was being activated!

    That email confirmation was from your Higher Self. What does this say about you? I think it's a self evident truth of alignment ... and what happens to me just after I think this? I see 21:21 on the clock!

    Love, LW.

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  109. i have posted a few times here and never got a reply or acknowledgment. it is like i am invisible here, and this has been an off and on occurrence these these past few years. Hmmm Funny as soon as i posted my headache went away shortly after. well this will probably not be seen either, so nothing to say I guess, but smile cause it is telling me something by "not telling me something"... I appear to be writing only to myself here ;)
    aw well time to move on... again...
    bye

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  110. futurenow...im sorry...i was going to make a comment about the headaches, because i have had a few instances where i had some head pain but they werent like headaches... so i figured it wasnt the same, i read your posts... and your post before that, i thought was more of a reply to something others were saying...that you were going through what alot of us are going through... it happens to all of us, so many posts, some get replied to, some dont... :/

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  111. @FutureNow:

    I'm replying because I've been known to have the invisibility cloak problem too so I get your sensitivity about it. You aren't/weren't invisible. I silently concurred with your posts...although not the headache part (the jaw/teeth maybe sometimes in the past).

    I have a theory (and this is to slg8 and many others of us) that we're all so exceptionally intelligent and compassionate--too much for our own good, with all our overthinking, overanalyzing, overhelping. Maybe that would be lessened if we didn't have so much time on our hands, being hermits and all.
    But think about it.
    No English teacher would have work to do if (s)he came here to correct our work (compositions)! hee hee

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  112. Cheryl "silently concurred" ... Perfect way to put it... Couldn't find the words before... And spot on with the too much time on our hands! Lol... At least for me anyway... And also about the writing... Never was good at it...And I hate typos or the autocorrect on my iPod goes wrong....O wellllllll ...i figure my point gets taken anyway :)

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  113. Future now,

    I surely get you, and realize this if you look back at my posts, too, there are people I addressed posts to who just walk over what i said, you know they read it, but just keep talking back and forth with the same ones rolling over the same non-healing issues. I say try to open your heart (the ones that roll over us) and try something new, perhaps it will help, all in all, that is what we are here to do, help others heal.

    The headaches I used to get and the jaw pain was something else over a year ago, but that subsided. Are you meditating and drawing away from all negative encounters? Are you watching what you eat? Its impt. to stay on the down-lo for the caffiene, especially the coffee, etc. drinks. I did notice something that i should make clear to you about headaches...i got a few smack like something hit me in the 3rd eye bam! awhile back when i was talking to a deceitful person, that i knew was behaving badly, sort of myself saying 'wake up, don't repeat this stuff, nuf, already' So watch your activity as your christ-like conscious is or should be in full gear. The curse words, the flying words, uh uh won't work here either, the nasty pics, uh uh, nada, won't do. Really, that stage of life is over, so yesterday, you know. Those things will actually make us sick, or set back to say the least.

    Much love to you on your end, you are not invisible, just never griping, so you are under the radar, so to speak.

    Muah, Rae

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  114. LW:

    You express your gratitude so well, thank you for taking your time. The integrity is right on along with the soverignty. If we all think about the process and how much we believe we have been alone, we have not, we have all had a wonderful coach, Lauren, and many others ourselves to aid and discuss with. Really who else gets to be this fortunate? Can you imagine if you went thru these symptoms and had no explanations, oh gawd! That would definitely have defined us all as schizos. But with the loving support and the knowledge of internet, we are surely taken care of.

    Ava,

    In time, everything is in time, like the unseens say this is not a process you would want to rush.

    Please, i love you already and don't know you, don't latch onto those negative energies, tell them they are not welcome that you are a beautiful loving person who her time has just not come yet, but it is pending. You must uplift your thoughts and vibrations. Exercise will kick in those endorphins for sure, that is what is pulling me thru the process or else the crying madness would be here again. Read uplifting material, one thing that i picked up over a year ago was a book by Joel Osteen 'Its Your Time', fated, thank goodness it fell into my hands. I would pick it up and put it down, but most of it has been read. I know i am not a down person to stay in such a mode of thinking with this process, so i said no more! I am taking full responsibility of my past knowing full well all the many things i did, were not fulfilling that is why i left them. This was always meant to be, don't you see?.

    I wish i could give you a hug and say Ava, its over, you are no longer that person drifting aimlessly thru life, the life coming up for you is the best life you have ever lived yet, if you allow it to take place. You set your destiny with the outlook you envision. So envision what you truly want, the rest is history, lol it really is.

    Muah, hugs and hope, Rae

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  115. A Full Moon!!! AND an Eclipse!!! I am so EXCITED!!!!

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  116. Wow I just slept 24 hours straight with only one 15 second interruption when my dad woke me up in the evening to interrogate me about an insidious deed that i did not actually do and therefore did not care about.

    Weird. I wasn't on meds or anything. i usually wake up when i sleep during the day, but i slept all day yesterday and all night. I woke up today not knowing what day it was. Apparently it's 11 in the morning now.

    This occurred right after I finished a new song which I love, and right after I woke up, I had the pleasure of detaching some more energy that I really enjoy not carrying now.

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  117. I feel like something was just drastically altered in my life. I feel like I know what it is, like it really happened and I was aware of it, but I just forgot.

    I have no idea what it is.

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  118. @FutureNow:-

    I'm sorry that I didn't reply or even acknowledge you in your posts (that goes for anyone else who feels the same). Sometimes I can get so wrapped up in myself and my own little world that I forget about others ... but in saying that I didn't have any advice to give you regarding the headaches; but it would have been nice of me to acknowledge your pain.

    @Mys.Terious:-

    Thanks for the reminder about the full moon eclipse! It was only thanks to you that I've buried my crystals in the Earth tonight. I would forget my head if it wasn't screwed on! :-)

    Love, LW.

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  119. @FutureNow.

    You might want to check out some of Lauren's earlier posts. They talk about ascension symtoms, one of which is headaches.

    You'll also find that there are many comments about headaches.

    I for one was a huge sufferer from mind bending headaches for many years but they have lessened for me over the last few months and are not as intense when they do occur.

    Here is a link to a long piece on ascension symptoms.

    http://oneflynangel.com/bodychanges.html

    Penny

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  120. how about is anyone noticing a difference in their hearing?

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  121. wow. great article. I am a lifelong contactee who just recently felt pretty stuck (it doesn't happen often - but man when it does, ouch) in between the 3d and 5d world and your article was perfectly fitting. THANK YOU!

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  122. slg8,

    Hearing is good on this end.

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  123. Hey Everyone,

    I've heard that a lot before, that people are giving me love/support/advice and I don't notice or acknowledge them adequately for it...

    I've been trying to look at this more and understand it. It's certainly not something I'm doing intentionally or in a malicious sense. Mostly it's that I'm feeling so overwhelmed/overloaded at times like these with the stuff that's coming UP in me for release that I have absolutely no way of receiving anything new. You may want to ask yourselves why you are giving love/support with strings attached to it, wanting recognition? I love validation but I will be the first to say that I don't "need" advice. Advice has the undercurrent also of, "you're not where you should be, you're not doing it right, if you were doing it my way you'd be more successful." I know that's not what you think you're doing here, but there can be that undercurrent at times. Also it's when you're in an emotional space like that, even if it's painful, the LAST thing you want to hear from someone is reasoning on why you "shouldn't be feeling" the way you do. Again it may be an unhealthy space, but it's where I am right now and I can't just "snap out of it." That's why I vibe to people who are in the same space as I am... alternately, I might get triggered by someone who is very vehement/angry with me for being there and that will cause a different sort of reaction. I think it's the "pain body" Lauren was talking about.

    Again when I open myself up on here, I'm not looking for advice from anyone. I'm doing it as a means of trying to accept myself, actually. I've tried every number of "solutions" and they didn't work. It's me trying to love my "dark places" instead and also undercurrently giving other people permission to do so, if they want to...

    I didn't really realize this before but I've been pondering some of your comments for a while now. Rae I do think it's wonderful what you said to me, and I appreciate it. I have a lot of love for all of you guys too even if I don't come out and say it. I just feel it's really important to focus on the task at hand. Honestly anytime someone comes on here and exposes themselves in a very raw and vulnerable way, I find it almost impossible not to love them for that. I don't know what it is, I am just drawn to it. But no, I don't really care to be told that I should try this or try that because I'm pretty happy with my approach, even if the energies/emotions I'm working with at any given time are not "happy" ones.

    This has been evolving over time and will still evolve. I give so much credit to anyone who is working on this process with their heart and really digging deep. I think I tend to be more "emotionally-polarized" than some of the folks on here and I think that's okay, everyone is who they are and that's fine, it's just some things work for certain people and not for others...

    And again yeah, mostly I'm just feeling so overwhelmed and so "behind" that I'm racing to catch up in every area of my life, but mostly the urge to do nothing wins out every time. :-P

    I feel like some of you might think I'm an asshole or overly self-involved for admitting this. You may be right. Again, I think it's okay and I think I can live with it. :-) Xo's

    Ava

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  124. Is anyone else experiencing more physical pain than usual? I do have degenerative joint disease (arthritis), but it's hurting more than usual. Could it be the full moon/eclipse? (I also know there's a big mental/psychological component to pain, esp. back pain, but....)

    Best wishes and love to all.

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  125. @FutureNow

    Headaches are a huge thing and I've had them since I was a toddler. Not just regular headaches, excruciatingly painful migraines to where I can't function. It's just part of some third eye stuff going on. I've got chronic sinusitis so that doesn't really help...

    @slg8

    I had a weird experience where, when I had my headphones on to listen to music, I thought I heard people talking, which is impossible because the songs were my own and none had live recordings yet. It was all digital. I also thought I saw someone moving around in my doorway. It didn't scare me this time, but I couldn't see it too well.

    @Ava

    A lot of people are assholes, but I personally don't consider you to be one of them.

    Speaking of assholes...HAHA just kidding

    *omits poop joke*

    You know how I feel about the rest of what you said. :)

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  126. Ugh.

    Second part of eclipse sandwhich being served up tonight.

    Last night I had this feeling that it was like we were birthing a new race, a Christ, and that we should celebrate like it's Christmas. And then I had a thought that this trio of eclipses is very much the three wise men traveling from the east that we hear about.

    I wonder what gifts they'll bring.

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  127. I'm still caught up within this motionless feeling, and feel as if I need to be doing something with my life other than sitting around waiting. I keep thinking about getting a job, but it also seems unreal. Not happy at all and have no idea what's going on..

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  128. To anyone in need of a morale boost:

    In digging a little deeper into the meaning of this summer's three eclipses, I realized there is an interesting symmetry and a coherent progression among the three of them that may give hope to some who are discouraged about their current lack of "progress..."

    The first of the three eclipses, the solar eclipse of June 1st that is already behind us, occurred near the tail end of a so-called "saros" series of eclipses lasting more than one thousand years, thus hinting of something that has nearly fulfilled its purpose and is now drawing to an end. The degree symbol for that eclipse relates to liberation from the ghosts of the past or liquidation of the past.

    The other piece of bread in the triple eclipse sandwich and the second of the two solar eclipses, i.e., the one that will occur on July 1st, is the very first one initiating another saros series of eclipses that will last for hundreds of years or more. So of course this hints of something new or fresh. Further reinforcing this is the symbol for that degree of the zodiac - a diamond in the first stages of the cutting process.

    Putting the two together, it would seem that something old is coming to an end and something new is wanting to be born in its place.

    Then of course today is the doozy of them all, the total lunar eclipse in the middle of the sandwich, which is potent enough according to many astrologers to stand in for both the ham and the cheese...

    Low and behold, the degree symbol for this one evokes practising a new skill set in view of the future fulfilment of some potential as yet unrealized.

    So the sandwich is about, in order of the eclipses: 1) leaving behind the past; 2) getting ready to fulfil some potential task for which we are not quite ready; and 3) making a fresh start.

    Someone I heard online today quoted Bob Dylan as saying (or singing) about being "busy being born," which seems apt at this juncture.

    Perhaps some will find this startling astro-synchronicity comforting or inspiring... xo

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  129. So my throat is full of pressure, I haven't been hungry in 2 days, my third eye is buzzing, my body is being hit like a ton of bricks with waves of euphoric vibrating thats hitting all my nerves like waves, over and over.

    Sort of feel very dreamy right now, also experienced a few small electrical explosions of energy in my lower belly. it was painful. felt like someone had their arm up my ass and was fishing around for organs to steal....minus the pain of having an arm up my ass.

    i noticed a lot of physical symptoms as the eclipse rolled in. its only gonna get worse from here. i almost destroyed the headphone jack into my laptop. as a musician, i would flip shit without my music. like.. destroy buildings and shit. idk what i'd do. music is the only thing that keeps me happy.

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