Sunday, May 22, 2011

The Phases of Embodiment


"We understand that the pull to resort to your old ways can sometimes be very strong, and by resisting those lower forces, rather, detaching from them, you are fully actualizing the divine template within you to become the master of worlds that you already are.  For that inner-strength, and for your willingness to exercise it, we are beyond delighted." -Seven Sisters of Pleiades


Crunch Time

With only 9 days left in May and while slowly being sucked into another famed eclipse sandwich (Solar Eclipse on 6/1, Lunar Eclipse on 6/15, followed by another Solar Eclipse on 7/1), we are officially in what I would call, crunch time. There is that familiar manic feeling of "so much to accomplish, so little time/energy" encircling us, in addition to some conflicting feelings arising about where this journey is actually taking us and what the collective cosmic shitstorm has really been about.

In the last couple days, right when the moon entered practical Capricorn, it felt like we prematurely bore a hole through our cozy cocoons and fell flat to the earth.  This was/is a very sobering experience, one that is really grounding out any possible delusions or escapisms we may have bought into along the way as well as providing us with a much-needed backdrop of practical sensibility before we get vacuumed up into that wormhole. 

I, for one, am grateful for the sobriety because it clears some long-standing confusion about whats real…but, that being said, it can also be difficult to grasp the higher-dimensional concepts from this grounded space which can bring up deep layers of self-doubt, leaving us feeling unsure/insecure about not only our next steps, but about the entire journey we took to get here. The unseens say we are just joining worlds...connecting the spiritual realm to the physical one and integrating a more visceral-based understanding of that, which in the interim can feel both real, and surreal at the same time.  In other words, our physical bodies are coming to understand what our minds have known for years.

On one hand, we are about to jump, face first, into completely unknown territory…territory that forces us to remain conscious and utilize our meticulously-honed skills in mastery…but on the other hand, we are being sorely tested in faith of our absolute truth so that we can release any remaining limitations about what we feel is possible.  This process varies for all, but one thing is true for every one of us…where we end up on the other side of all this will be a direct result of how fearless we dare to be right now.

This means that we have literally been dredging up the putrefied (e)goo at the bottom of our human-made containers...scraping down the sides of remaining karmic residue, which also means our uglies have been visiting again and definitely wearing their welcome out.  And not just the usual uglies, but those sticky shadow parts of ourselves that we secretly thought we could get away with ignoring, or that were so deeply embedded that we couldn't even see them until now.  Yes, for just a bit longer, we get to play in the (fun) house of mirrors, clearly seeing the multiple ways in which we are still polarizing ourselves by projecting, reflecting and exposing our remaining loveless parts onto each other. And a good thing too cuz I always look forward to acknowledging yet another part of me that sucks.

Speaking of things that suck... we have had to work really hard these last few weeks to lay down our egoo.  As with any toxic relationship, no matter how icky ugly feels we have a tendency to fight for its survival because the pull to resort to the familiar is so strong, so in'toxic'ating, that we find it nearly impossible to refuse its lure. The hilarious part? That everybody thinks that everybody else's ugly is uglier than theirs...when in duality, the only ugly we can see is our own. There is definitely a movie wanting to be made in there.

The external manifestations of these recent excavations may be showing up in multiple ways, like in the ability to finally clean out and organize that intimidating part of the basement, garage, or attic you've been dreading since prom.  Or maybe in something as simple as filing away your taxes from last year, cleaning out your email cache, sorting thru your itunes library, or finishing up those lingering projects that have been torturing you since the harmonic convergence.  Whatever form it takes...all.menacing. goo.must. go.  And that means all things tied to the goo too.


The Embodiment Stage

In the last energy update, the Seven Sisters of Pleiades mentioned to me that the middle of this month was a massive transition point and now they add that we are in the process of crossing over to a higher dimensional speedway of cosmic intelligence...one that runs parallel to the lower dimensional highway of dross, but (luckily) does not intersect it.

They are calling this next step on our journey the embodiment stage, the phase of ascension that releases us from the old blueprint (perception) of service and transports us to the new/true/original/sacred/divine blueprint of co-creation.  This new-human blueprint is activated in those who have neutralized polarities thru the merging of sacred masculine/feminine forces, expanded their energy centers (chakras) thru the clearing of karmic miasms and...once these templates are embodied by the forerunners...the potential will then be available for all of humanity. 

If its helpful, think of these awakened and activated souls all over the planet as acupuncture needles that pierce the intersecting points of earth's meridians to restore the vital flow of universal chi.  As these beings physically "light-up", they fire these scalar energies into the life, blood and body of this planet, energizing the human collective with the zero-point field of grace. This is not to say that everyone is prepared to accept these energies into their lives and bodies...but that the potential to tune into this grid is now stronger than ever for those who choose it.


Transfiguration

The Seven Sisters reiterate that the second half of this year is very physically focused…that the tender shoots of our new lives are breaking thru the freshly tilled soil that we painstakingly overturned during the month of April, lives that we will grow into the way a seedling grows into a fruit bearing plant….in phases.  More specifically, they mention three distinct phases….  

"The next steps toward the physical expression of divinity include: the release of the pain/fear-body, the realization of the divine body, and the reunification of earth matter with etheric matter..."


We know that in order to unify spirit and matter, we have to first become the purified vessel by which divine energy can flow thru.  Ultimately, we have to raise our physical vibration to match the vibration of our spirit body so that the two can become one vehicle…which means that we must be cleared of all discordance, to the absolute point of non-resistance, so that the divine body (blueprint) can freely manifest in physical form.

What the unseens want for us to understand is that the physical apparatus (the biology suit) that houses the spirit body is actually as malleable and adaptable to change (mutation) as the spiritual body itself, however it is residing in the lower dimensions and is therefore governed by space and time. (Read: slowwwwww)  So even tho Jesus Christ liquified into his plasmic lightbody in three days (???), down here in the trenches...where we will continue to don these fat flesh suits...we have to abide by the laws of physicality.

So, the spirit body…which is a replica of the physical body, but in its complete perfection...consists of etheric matter and is therefore a malleable substance that forms the template for materialization.  What is happening during this passage is that our physical (divine) blueprint of perfection is meeting the human-made (egoo) blueprint and the two are merging into one.

I'm told that this unification, or merging process happens in the space between cells first so that the cells are surrounded with the higher charge/intelligence of our spirit (light) body and eventually our cells begin to take on, or mutate to align with the higher vibrating source.  **This is the law of resonance in action…a process by which a higher vibrating body of energy will automatically cause a lower vibrating body of energy to match or align with its frequency…think: tuning fork.

The cells then undergo what the unseens call a tightening process…they call it a tightening because for a long period of time we needed to inhabit two blueprints simultaneously…the human and the divine blueprint (which, of course explains all that eating for two). Both sets of plans are apparently in place so we can smoothly make the transition from one body to the next and as we do, we lose those extra 30 lbs the space that existed between cells begins to "tighten" up as the templates merge.

This process is actually more of a dissolution in the sense that we are dissolving a version of ourselves that is outworn, while simultaneously morphing into a spiritual adult…where the egoo identity (masculine/matter) and divine identity (feminine/antimatter) merge into sacred union. 


The Phases

The unseens also want to make it clear that this process does not happen overnight (nor would we want it to), but in a series of sequential unfoldments, that repeat themselves and that have already begun.

"The remaining months of this year will enable you to temper a balance between the old world and new, it will be a transition of epic proportion and we assure you that you would not want to rush this process." -Seven Sisters

The first phase that they refer to as "the release of the pain/fear body" is the first step in the emergence process and begins with an internal expansion:

"As the old template is released or dissolved…and this is happening now for the first wave of souls to embody the christed-human template...the spiritual body will first begin to expand within the physical vessel. "

As these energies begin to flood the body and our focus is on the radiance of love, it can literally feel like being plugged into an electrical outlet…you may feel very "charged", like every cell of your body is alive and vibrating…hyper-sensitive, like wearing your nerves on the outside of your body…amped up, dizzy, jumpy, with shortness of breath, fluctuating body temperature/night sweats, irregular heartbeats and/or erratic sleep patterns. These symptoms can be off-putting, especially if they come on suddenly, but know that they are just another delightful part of the process.  If the charge becomes uncomfortable or overwhelming, stretching, walking, breathing and even salt baths can help a great deal.

Likewise, we may also experience these waves of energy as bliss that undulate throughout the central nervous system…these purifying (kundalini) energies are at work to release all remaining density trapped within the body. As well, the body has created new systems based on the intelligence contained within each strand of activated DNA and the energy vortices (chakras) that enliven and govern each center are opening more to sustain these systems. (interesting that the feelings associated with the prophesied "rapture" are: bliss, euphoria,freedom, joy, spiritual ecstasy, etc. hmmmm)

The second phase which they call "the realization of our divine body" is when the soul begins to experience itself in human form...as if for the first time.  The term "reborn" applies here.  This is an integration phase which enables us to ground into/fully occupy our bodies and is required so that our crystallizing template can solidify in form. Thru this period of integration we enable our connection to earth to fortify so that we can stabilize ourselves as we become one with the cosmic heartbeat.

Once the integration period is complete we begin to physically embody the changes set forth by our divine blueprint.  This is the phase where "spirit and matter are working as one"…where we embody the physical essence of our spiritual form. 

During this phase we will also experience what the Seven Sisters call a "quickening". Kind of like the "moment of truth", when a pregnant woman feels the fetus move for the first time...the Sisters also loosely describe this spiritual quickening as "the moment of truth", as in the bestowal of grace...a term they use to identity the process that follows the unification of sacred energies... an inflow of divine vitality into the body.

"Your earthly bodies will begin to take on a new radiance, a new way of being that will phase in and out incrementally.  You will recognize the new energies and then they will seem to fade away as your body adjusts to contain them in a series of in-breaths and out-breaths, and as you enter further and further into divine union with your soul.  Each phase will have an energy, a distinct essence that you will want to experience fully.  Take not these words as an indication of suffering, but as an indication of true liberation." -Seven Sisters

See you in the sandwich...
Lauren

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144 comments:

  1. So grateful for every post. For those of us out here feeling alone, it is truly a blessing. Thank you.

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  2. Absolutely beautiful. I smiled and laughed throughout the entire article. Once again, straight on point as well as extremely revealing.
    I feel ecstatic. Thank you so much. <3

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  3. In summary, eclipse sandwich, fat suit crossed out but still there, and night sweats.

    Thanks, Lauren, love your updates.

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  4. Thank you and love to you all.

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  5. yay things make sense again

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  6. Thanks again Lauren...I think I may have to read it again to fully absorb but it seems as though we are on the right track. I'm hoping for a smooth ride next month (Please, God!).

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  7. Than you Lauren... I litterally felt new exciting energy litterally disappear maybe an hour before I read this... The last few sentences helped me so much. I was completely afraid that I was losing everything I've worked for. Now I'll be alright. And thanks for confirming the lack of sleep as well :)

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  8. Thank you as ever Lauren for sharing the journey, being so clear with your information and the sharing of it. All is resonating perfectly with what I have been given as well... very connected with the journey of the caterpillar/butterfly and all that metamorphosis must entail... what a heroic little creature as are we to follow perfect love into that state to literally be rearranged completely and what a necessary mess. But why? Because within we know...*smiles softly* We know. Bless and hold all of you my fellow caterflies we bring forth the living embodiment of a new transcended way... en mass. We have answered the call of rebirthing this world. A heart full of gratitude and love to each and every one... never alone.

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  9. Maybe with the eclipse is where I get my Triforce power...

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  10. Thank you Lauren:)

    I also felt relief reding the last couple of sentences, these times has been challenging cleansing away all the goooo..Every article and update is extremely welcome to remind me of this process-that it`s for the better:)
    Thank you thank you thank you all:)
    Good to know we are together in this. And may the ride become easier as we adjust:)

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  11. thanks Lauren for both the last 2 updates - they fit what I've been going through on all levels and it all makes sense

    it was good to read about the fizzy, nervy stuff and restless nights as that's been my past few days..

    much love and blessings

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  12. thx sis you rock .. and as usual so in sync ,thank you for your courage to come forth !!
    this experience that is happing in us ,to us , its the real deal ,Its absolutely extraordinary what we are all creating and experiencing , So enjoy the experience of becoming what you were born to BE , this is what we all came here for, hoooyeaaa
    peace greg
    Auk,Chicchan,Ahau

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  13. thanks Lauren, so spot on! Kundalini has been doing some rampant (!!) clearing lately, and now i know why! bless you :-)

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  14. Thank you Lauren, your posts always bring clarity and connection. Here's to Divine vitality and radiance :)

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  15. Thanks so much you make the scariness bearable You a real 

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  16. this has been like the only thing getting me through this phase.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oaN072fB5ho

    Plumb - "Hang On"

    i feel like i'm releasing my fears right now. I feel like i'm releasing repressed fears and pain regarding this process. It was so painful, to feel sacrificed and crucified, martyred for something as I realized that this was not the way and it would do no one any good to stay on the cross. My fear is that I will continue to be sacrificed for "the greater good."

    My pain is that the universe agrees with my misguided decision to come here under those pretenses.

    I will no longer be doing any such thing. No more blood sacrifices. No more tears. That's not who I am.

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  17. Once again LOVE IT! During that intense energy I was feeling like the energizer bunny, almost a hyper ventilating feeling, extreme coincidences occuring, time sped up and so much joy and happiness! Gratitude for being in that spot spilling out of me!
    My daughter literally SANG basically this message last night before bed. Love hearing how your words and hers overlapped! SO NEAT! :)
    xo
    Jeni Clark~

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  18. thanks very much ,your post help me a lot to understand these last days experiencies...WEIARD. Also felt relief reding the last couple of sentences, these times has been challenging cleansing away all those OLDs emotions,etc....again .

    BLESSING YOU

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  19. Lauren, you are awesome! I am so grateful whenever we hear from you. Thank you for all the light you shed on this journey and the precious perspective and insight you provide for us.
    And I adore your sense of humor!!!
    Much love to you!!!

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  20. Lauren.

    As usual, you are sooo on target! I knew that the changes had begun and the leftover goo had to come out....yuk! Lets hope the next phase is easier than the last ones! Blessings and Love to you dear one, As always, I truly look forward to your updates...smile....smile....smile....! :))

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  21. thank you thank you, for being open and allowing to receive and share and share...
    we luvvvvvvvvvvvvv u!
    xxx

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  22. I think this means I shall remember to call myself "phat" instead of with the "F" ...besides, despite the fact the needle on the scale has gone up this spring, and my hair is disapparating, my sister told me yesterday that she thought I looked thinner!

    Now...to address this horrible back pain.
    Thanks for this post Lauren and a reminder about the eclipse sandwich.
    Seems all is on schedule with my intuition as well as other things I've heard.
    Here we go...

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  23. Thank you Lauren!
    As always, you make me laugh through it all!
    You are a treasure!
    I appreciate you so much!
    Love and peace

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  24. Thanks Lauren,
    Once again Brilliantly timed!
    So I am vibrating at 2 different levels, one is So ecstatic, the other feeling is sick, flu like symptoms and So tired.Just before I saw your email i got a personal message from my beloved guides "Supreme Unification in process, hang in there!" How apt...
    Love and Deep Gratitude to all.

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  25. I have read most of the posts to this blog but one thing I don't understand is that it seems that a lot of the comments are about the physical symptoms of ascension. A lot of the comments are complaints of sickness and physical discomfort. Can anyone get relief through Reiki or other things? I agree that the body shifts are significant and I like to hear the internal and spiritual reasons for them, but I did not know that this is what the blog was about. I am just not clear what we are supposed to do with this knowledge.
    I really want to continue reading the comments, I just don't understand why there is so much suffering (it really seems that way!)

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  26. Spot on, as always. Thank you, Lauren! ;-) )i(

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  27. How you are so spot on just puts me in awe! Thank you for this! I find it incredible that so many of us - though we live different lives - can be feeling and going through the same thing. We really are all connected.

    Thank you Lauren, for sharing!

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  28. Thanks Lauren.

    You do make me belly laugh. It sure is a gift to be able to laugh at ourselves. God knows, we have plenty of material to work with.

    When I opened this link the first thing I noticed was the # of pageviews: 474,483.

    Wow, girl! Even if you halved that # for peeps who double dip you are touching a huge amount of people. And that was after the post was up for only 7hrs (mostly in the middle of the night in US land).

    When I saw that # it made me smile. By being true to yourself (and to us) and staying your path you have taken this initially small group of freaks and weirdos into mainstream type #s.

    Good job, Lauren. And thank you.

    Penny

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  29. Loved it, recognised it, drank it all and swallowing bit per bit now, just like our bodies are...:-)
    Thank you Lauren, love to you and all others reading and experiencing this...
    Anaïs

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  30. Self doubt? Have it in abundance! Not pretty enough, young enough, not lovable enough, etc. etc, blah, blah!! And eating for 2 sometimes and you know you are and just can't stop? Geeez! Was wallowing in egooo yesterday (love that btw) I should have known:D
    Kathy

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  31. Every day is such a new experience different than ever before. I must choose conscious healthy and happy thoughts with gratitude. We can correct the pain residue instantly by questioning it and asking how to correct it. The answers are there individually by aligning ourselves with source and grounding our beings. We can help each other, however its now time to help ourselves first. We have to do it alone and acknowledge the blessings of grace that support us. We must channel our own higher self in the now because everything else is just an old belief which doesn't fit anymore. A belief is a thought that we have over and over again. Somehow we earthlings are attached to past thoughts and experiences. We repeat our thoughts again and again. For me silent meditation works the best as it keeps me present. Mindfulness breathing takes care of the rest. As I love myself, I love all so much more, esp. this beautiful forever giving planet Earth.

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  32. Thank you Lauren!

    So helpful. About the symptoms -physical and "moral"- I relate with each one of them. So, sandwich and keep being neutral in-between... Sigh! (just like Mysterious).

    Thankyou very much and good luck for every one!

    Rín

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  33. I usually dont write for I have been busy observing :) the times have been extremely challenging, and messages constant, as well as my dreams poignant etc... I wont go into that, but I wanted to express thanks Lauren for your part in easing it all. This morning before i saw this I felt the most exquisite and it was indescribable. Lovely. Just as you wrote here today. It is becoming a constant state within me and my visits with the "challenges" are still (Arggggh) but less and less.
    xo
    yours
    J

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  34. My most heartfelt thanx! Having read your last post made me cope with greater understanding the weird changes last couple of weeks. For a few days it felt like someone was doing brain surgery on an energy level. Had to stop the car, lie down on the ground and other funny stough. Plus I lost weight but feel phatter! Yeah, living life on a bridge is a crazy thing, but dam, its my life - and I love it! Love and blesses from aurora sister in norway, wow we have come so far!

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  35. Thank you so much for the update and all the comments!

    Made a short blog post about it
    http://alatvianrita.blogspot.com/2011/05/my-share-for-today-phases-of-embodiment.html

    Namaste!

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  36. Oh, my, Lauren, thanks for keeping us in stitches and laughing all the way. I can feel my phat belly chuckling now. Just thought it was cuz I'm approaching 60. I feel young, wonderful, tingly, cheerful and nearing grace. Thank you for helping us to Keep the Faith. We are so honored to be blessed with this knowing, this experience gifted to us by the Guardians...xox

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  37. Thank you, Lauren! I relate to the first phase symptoms. A week ago I had an episode of headache, nausea, heat followed by chills, and a tremor moving through my body. This lasted about 2 hours, then subsided to a trickle for another few days. In it's height I felt like all my energy centers were wide open...I felt like a live wire and that a waterfall of energy was moving through me, clearing away the old. After sitting in nature/meditation for an hour, I experienced tremendous peace, grace, joy, faith, and trust in the process as it unfolds. It brings me such peace having you explain all this to me so I know I'm not alone. Think I'll go make a donation! :)

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  38. Thank you Lauren!!

    So much goo, so little time ...

    :)

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  39. "goo' may be a bit too gentle of a word I think

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  40. With you on that one, Jana! :)

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  41. Thanks so much Lauren...Feeling in the sandwich right now...Thank you for being here all the way! Your words touch my heart and soul!

    Love and Light!

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  42. YeP!!! Perfect, beautiful!!!

    It literally feels as though tar has been squeezed from my bones the last few days, to the point of tears.

    I had a WOW moment a couple of weeks ago, where I FEEL the unseen "thems" as ME!! OMG! I cried! It was brief, but I was like, so we really did do this to ourselves, and THAT is US "up there!!!" Can't wait to feel that again, but the next time, sometime down the road, sounds sacred and beautiful!!!

    Sometimes the neutrality is great, the clarity!! I'd say the boredom is the worst because there is so much we just don't want to do now that is so 3D. For the first time in my life I like working at a factory and hiking!!!

    I also realized that joy is not what I always thought it was. I am finding all of these things are so subtle, and the more I listen to the subtlety the more of this higher stuff I enjoy, without the need for 3D fun to scream in my face anymore. That is not to say these times can't be wild and amazing, just, well, new!!!!

    Cosmic shit storm!! I LOVE it!!!!!

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  43. Nutty Professor:
    I guess this article on `the science of ascension symptoms` will enlighten your query.
    tom.

    http://scienceofascension.blogspot.com/

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  44. Thank you SO much! I've been doing well physically, it's the mental and emotional that have been buckling. Everything went bonkers all of a sudden!

    Thanks for the return to some semblance of sanity and peace - you're greatly appreciated!!

    Love :)
    - Dawn

    P.S. The full story of it all is here: http://emergentsoul.tumblr.com/ - I would have linked my name here to Tumblr instead of wordpress, but that option wasn't available...

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  45. Hi, I have recently discovered your blog. I am really enjoying your messages. Do you have any insight into how the changes into our light bodies will affect people with Down syndrome? Many have been talking about changes in our DNA, and I can't help but think that we might have some positive breakthroughs for people with DS. My daughter has Down syndrome. I adore her just as she is, but I know that her life would be easier if she didn't have a cognitive delay.

    Do you think our light bodies will be without disabilities? I know you said this would not happen overnight. Do you have a general idea of how long this process will take?

    Thanks for sharing your insights!

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  46. Hi Lauren,

    Thanks for the heads-up about the "eclipse sandwich" - it's always helpful to know about these powerful celestial events.

    If there's one thing that I've realised this year it's the power of the ego-mind - repeating thought patterns become mindsets - which become prisons.

    I feel like I'm at a dead end. There are so many aspects of my life that feel like this.

    I have no passion in my life. There is nothing in this world that truly appeals to me. I even think that if tomorrow I won the lottery and became an instant millionaire I'd shrug my shoulders and say, "so what?".

    I've attempted to start a relationship with a woman that I've casually known for quite a while and have come to realise that she's firmly rooted in 3D reality and is puzzled that I don't want to play 3D-Relationship-Games. There are aspects of my behaviour that intimidate her and make her fearful because she can't understand why I've behaved fearlessly. I'm not interested in pretending to be something that I'm not. I feel compelled to be authentic - another very strong motif since the start of this year.

    I see other people living their lives and I see the things that they are passionate about and I just don't care. I don't share their values. I feel nihilistic. I feel like an engine on tick-over.

    I've got absolutely no idea where I'm heading. I really hope that this phase in my life comes to an end soon because if it doesn't then I'm heading for big trouble. This is scary territory indeed.

    ... but there are signs of hope. I've had revelations about my upgraded chakra system. I've had experiences from these new chakras that have made me question my reality (and sanity!). I've had half a dozen instances of understanding people speaking foreign languages (even though I only know English); reading books instantly just by picking them up (!!!); feeling very dizzy just before major earthquakes. I've had extremely clear clairaudience with my Higher Self and a dryad. I tuned into a Labradourite crystal and felt compelled to draw crop-circle like pictograms - I wonder if they are extra-terrestrial in origin but I'm not certain. My ego-mind is having a hard time understanding and accepting these experiences!

    All I know is that if I didn't have Lauren's blog and the community that's a part of it I'd be having an even harder time at the moment.

    Love, LW.

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  47. I have been having a shuffle of days. Yesterday I decided to just go with what the day would bring me, rather than push any part of it away. I ended up enduring a few decisions that weren't directly made by myself, yet I was well aware that I had choice. Afterwards I began to feel slightly disappointed, yet consciously aware of remaining 'density' clearing out. It felt like a final release of what I suppose is peer pressure/conformity. Today I had woke up around 3am, and I remember thinking something along the lines "I hope this isn't another day of confusion." Or even a day like all the previous days that I can remember up until this point. I decided to stay awake, but mainly just laying in bed thinking. At this moment it's still quite early in the day, but I feel as if I 'get it'. At least, the subjects that I have been having on my mind today. Which have been a culmination of my past, humanity's past, and 'the drop' of consciousness. I feel understanding of the concept, living by example. I'd like to explain it further, but I realize that you all would understand. Which is why I felt so compelled to post this.

    I love you all.

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  48. Dear LW and "all others"
    I understand how you feel, and it will pass--so easy to say though huh? I often wonder how i made it these past several years! but I have and am better for it. Like a hundred lives in a few years is the best way i cab describe it. Constant transforming...
    I am now back in school because my business closed and finding work never happened no matter what. Anyway one of my classes is an ethics class (oh the Irony :) yesterday the teacher and students were proclaiming hate towards another Org/Group I commented about how this is the problem all over the planet, that one group hates another group and is the cause of all problems, all war. What followed was a verbal attack by the students and the Teacher. I felt this fully and it hurt ( this has happened before but now i see it as a way out, as a way to stand firm in heart and let it be) but it was tough to take. My hopes were school would be absent of this conforming mass superior agenda--but its not. It is hard to stand alone and not doubt ourselves. i am learning that the most right now and this is why i experienced this in the classroom. Also these people are also people that have helped me to gain more strength of my true self. So I am becoming more and more appreciative no matter what "happens"
    I thank you Lauren --I see a bright future and i know that now i must experience whatever comes and see the "bigger picture" everyone matters we are all so very "equal" so i focus on thanking in my heart everyone especially those that appear to attack. I know what is more true because of it.
    wanted to share,
    xo

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  49. Thank you for being such a clear channel,
    being light hearted and humorous about the matter and always being SPOT on with what we needed to hear.

    <3

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  50. Thanks for the post.
    Some kind of difuce as always , but feels good to read it.
    And to the norwegian angels here.....: Hei hei..
    Håper det går bra med dere, og at vi kan komme seirende ut av det her:)
    I hope to be of use to this world in the near future.
    Peace!!
    Helge.

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  51. LW
    youre not alone...feeling the same...(except all that stuff at the end of your post, have no experiences like that)
    lacking passion and have no clue where im headed either and about at rocl bottom...anxiety is back as bad as ever... wish i just could be normal sometimes!

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  52. @nuttyprofessor I have over the years gotten reiki, energy healing, and done yoga almost every day and I can tell you it helps so much! It eases the transformation. Think of it this way, if you were a werewolf (i know i just can tthink of much else atm) and your body magically grew into this other body quickly the affect that would have and how it would hurt. Just think of how much a cut hurts. Your changing the very cells of your body and releasing toxins and old energy and your ego. There is such a thing as a healing cirsis - very common when doing energy work. You release toxins and transform and it hurts. I have leveled out and feel amazing, and I think the yoga and all the conscious work I have done on myself, which has been relentless has really helped ease me through the process. Not to say it hasnt sucked at times because it certainly has..

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  53. Now this explains why all this week I've felt like my body was not responding to my "commands" at all. I literally felt trapped in it and it was scary and depressing. Then suddenly I go from barely start feeling alert around 10-11am, to jump out of bed before 6am -which that is what I usually do- and having this warm feeling of joy and inner peace as if somehow I knew ALL IS WELL when in fact I have so many worries to dwell in...LOL. It sounds and looks crazy but I just feel like I have nothing to worry about even if I try. I am really enjoying this bliss for as long as it last or until the next stage catch me again by surprise. Thank God for coffee anyways....:-)

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  54. Take not these words as an indication of suffering, but as an indication of true liberation."

    This "liberation" feels quite uncomfortable ;-)

    Crunch Time. yes Lauren it feels like this ;-)

    ok...release release release....surrender.....release pain body...

    I just went through mentally my whole body, every toe legs, knees, organs, shoulders, back,.... head, nose ;-) snif... and said, I release the pain and fear out of my little toe, I release the pain and fear out of the second little toe ;-) and so on.... it felt that it eases this a little bit and I felt some aaahh!! releases...it feels as it supports my body in releasing,....releasing and surrender,...

    at the moment a strong rain and thunderstorm is going on in Vienna, some hail is maybe coming too. wash, wash,.... that I look shiny afterwards,...

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  55. Thank you, Lauren - Your `reports´ are always in for a good laugh, and yet also a heartwarming punch! The merging-story automatically made me think of J. Henson´s Dark Cristal, when the lower skeksis merge in the end, with their higher counter-part, the mystics! Let`s move on then and don`t look back! With love, too!

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  56. everyone (almost) says this is right on but maybe it just keeps people stuck--yes it is fun and full of insights--but people keep looking to someone else (lauren) to tell them the next step.
    We are all going through a lot but is it not time to just do it now? be okay and focus your own mind and heart now? I find for two years these articles and not just Lauren's keep people like a "gerbil on a wheel" I may get my ass kicked here for this. But it is so clear--why am i here right now? to say this I guess
    Focus on your own life and what is in it, make your own choices, this is it and this is your life. Maybe I am the only one who sees this ow--but thats okay too I do!!! xo

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  57. Futurenow...Not sure anyone is really living by this we just get some relief or validation sometimes about how we've been feeling or about what's bee going on... I guess some or I may look for guidance or want to know what to expect but ialsk think we all know nothing is in stone and things can change at any mOment... But I get what you're saying a little

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  58. Never thought it would feel so right to lose my mind.. which by doing so, I found my mind that has been lost the entire time? lol

    I don't think I am living by what it is that Lauren posts, or at least in a sense of 'following'. I see a process, where she is able to explain what has happened in detail. I love the assurance since this process can be overwhelming at times.

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  60. Thanks Lauren....have been following right along with you, INCLUDING the extra weight!! And I too am more than ready to have that old spiritual body overtake the physical one!

    I just experienced 4 weeks of a strange virus that had me totally shut down. On the day it went away, yes I can pinpoint the time it left, I had just finished a horrible depression that was accompanied by a panic attack, which I've never had in my life. After that, I saw my body being turned inside out and stripped of all ego. What a wrenching experience! Reading your post gave me greater clarification as to what all was happening and why. Awoke the next day after doing some self-healing (which had not phased the symptoms up to then) and felt great. Since have gotten some energy back and feeling somewhat back to normal, whatever our new "normal" is.
    Thanks for keeping us in the loop. Becky

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  61. this (true) story about a 17 year old boy who went to prison on a pending court case and was then gang raped has been brought to my attention.

    after a lot of crying and heartbreak, i'm sitting here unable to temper my pain with any kind of wisdom or comfort. i dont know what to do and i feel all of human suffering at once and it just hurts a lot and i cant fix it and i just really want to. i want to wrap my arms around everyone who is suffering and just vibrate them away. but i cant.

    i dont know what to do. ive been up all night, just heartbroken with violent and graphic descriptions of this stuff running through my head.

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  62. @FutureNow, i definitely understand where you're coming from, and after the whole harold camping aNOTcalypse/rapture thing, i was very insecure about my life choices. however, i am not basing anything merely on what lauren says, but on what i personally channel, and what i personally feel.

    yes the future is now, but so is reality. the reality of the situation is that the future isnt now for everyone, and thats where i want it to be.

    i cant keep having my heartbroken every time something horrible happens to someone, and i refuse to cut off the organs that allow me to perceive the feelings of others. im not going to mutilate myself and im not going to subject myself to anymore pain. from my perspective, there is only one way out of this, and that is to intervene directly and cast our own light and love outwardly. this is the process that is very much becoming a reality now, the same process i have dedicated my life to since the day i was born.

    even in the stars, in the heavens far away, the cries of human suffering can be heard like a toxin that moves across my heart and moves me to tears.

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  63. I haven't resonated with these last two updates. I've felt disconnected from any higher energies for about 3 weeks now, I feel totally numb again. No movement, nothing. Aren't we meant to be processing things at light speed now, it seemed that way about a month ago. Have I been left behind? How can I release my old emotional wounds if I can't even feel them? I can't feel anything.

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  64. Thanks for yet another great post! I laughed out loud when I read "The second phase which they call 'the realization of our divine body' is when the soul begins to experience itself in human form...as if for the first time. The term 'reborn' applies here." The other day, my 3 year old crystal child came running into my office, dancing around merrily, shouting over and over again 'I AM Human! I AM Human!'. It was as though she was realizing it for the first time, and now I have more of a clue as to why.

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  66. so back to reality. and by reality, i dont mean our individual bubbles where we've been sequestered, but rather the shared co-creation of interwoven networks of realities we call our planet. you know that thing thats hard like a rock and real like a brick in the face?

    its come to my attention that there is a lot of suffering on this planet that i simply cannot ignore, detach from, or apply any other new age escapist tactic. as a fan of "dealing with things" head on, ive come to the conclusion that neither am i leaving this planet, nor am i allowing this things to continue while i breathe terran air.

    im putting my diamond-hard foot down. this is the end of all the suffering that i have gone through witnessing the ones i love be abused and subjected to unspeakable horrors. i will neither numb myself, detach, forget about, nor will i allow anymore of this to continue.

    this is where i turn into a giant dick. and maybe it breaks some stupid galactic rule about not interfering or letting people have their free will. and in the spirit of free will, i will be exercising mine in any way i can to do anything i wish whenever i want and wherever i want. that includes ending this bullshit.

    and that is why i am here, not in some bubble of nirvana in space, and not in some disconnected/delusional dream in a secluded part of the planet. for those of you who have decided it was stupid to come here and you'd rather stay in your dream worlds, go ahead. i wont stop you. it's less crap to deal with anyways. if anyone feels the same way as i do and wants to tackle this head on, feel free to become aware of that in the core of your being. i enjoy not being alone.

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  67. What are you proposing that we do? We are currently trying as far as I know, and have been trying various ways for a long time now. It has come to my attention recently that I am this 'giant dick' you speak of, by trying to bring particular things to peoples attention. Trying to have people think for themselves and allow no one to walk over them. By rejecting the 'system' completely I am appearing to be some worthless asshole. Which is a self image that I have sacrificed, and will continue to do so.

    Each day though I find myself drifting further and further from the majority's point of view. Each day it is becoming more tough to bare feeling like such a loner in physical reality. I refuse to revert back and to support money, material items, conformity, pollution, and the thousands of other issues. My perception is different, and I know that those things will not please me. Although, I too stand on this edge and I am not sure how much longer I can take this. It is so lonely. I will not give up, but if in a year or two, this is how it still is.. I won't be here, and I won't be there.

    I truly do love you all.

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  68. how could you bring peace to others when you know none yourselves?

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  69. It is normal to feel rejection towards things of old when integrating a higer version/energy...it is merely old energy leaving/being pushed out...

    no need to read too much into it...

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  70. Or...reverting to the language of old (a language you may actually resonate with):

    you are so busy feeling sorry for yourselves and (logically) everyone around you...you're wallowing in your own goo like pigs in shit...you can't even see beyond it...

    you even squeal like pigs being dragged to the slaughter-house each time a challenge arises...

    you're attempting to project all of your crap and darkness onto others by throwing around the very shit you love to wallow in so much (the typical way of the old polarized world)...

    If that makes people dicks...then you definitly are one...a major one even...or maybe it pleases you to know your penis size? :)

    If this world depended on your sorry asses for peaceful change...then she would definitely be totally fucked...

    If I didn't love you so much, I would be disgusted by you sissies...

    Sometimes acting like a total asshole can be so nice...:))

    having ascended does not mean being a Saint...sometimes cursing is in order...and very liberating...:)

    here's to all you motherfuckers...

    cheers
    LOL

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  71. That was jolly good fun :))

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  72. Wow Ilse... I think you might be a legitimate psychopath.

    Oh wait, be sure to delete those posts too! Make sure you conceal the evidence!

    You see, even you realize on some level how completely full of shit you are, or you wouldn't come back and immediately delete your own posts...

    Yikes. I just feel bad for anybody who actually takes what you have to say seriously.

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  73. Ilse, what's the point in that? Why do you even bother to spend your time posting? You obviously do not understand what we're talking about. As well as do not understand this entire blog itself, or so it seems. Perhaps, your posts are sincerely directed towards yourself in the case that you're are projecting your inward feelings outward. We, here, are very accepting people though. It is okay. We ACCEPT you. Yes, I am sure you can twist my words up some more with another reply or two. Yes, you can make up an excuse as to of why you find it 'joyful' to express ignorance. You do not need to prove yourself anymore. We, I, love you regardless. It's unconditional love, and you can't change or take that from me. Hopefully we have grew past by now, so with that said.. Moving on.

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  74. My motivations and I will always remain an enigma to you...

    Man...this really was jolly good fun, visiting the ways of old...must do it again sometime :)

    Gotta dash,
    Cheerio...

    Little chicken shits :))

    LOL

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  75. An as they entered hell, the sign said "lighten up"

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  76. we're like "X" THIS, nico. *does finger crossing sign*

    all i'm asking is that we all think about who we really love, why we've come here, and make a choice about who and what we'd die for. take a stand.

    you're not worthless, nico. and i feel the same way you do.

    change is coming now. i can feel it in my blood and the feeling is of pure power and sheer will to make the change myself. i feel as if i've accessed a diamond hard consciousness inside of me that is pure and limitless love.

    i'm not saying to do anything out of the ordinary, rather im saying that its time to connect to our divine selves and realize exactly who we are and what we will stand for.

    <3 u nico, stay strong.

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  77. Just wanted to make sure this couldnt be deleted. i think it's very enlightening.

    "Ilse said...

    Or...reverting to the language of old (a language you may actually resonate with):

    you are so busy feeling sorry for yourselves and (logically) everyone around you...you're wallowing in your own goo like pigs in shit...you can't even see beyond it...

    you even squeal like pigs being dragged to the slaughter-house each time a challenge arises...

    you're attempting to project all of your crap and darkness onto others by throwing around the very shit you love to wallow in so much (the typical way of the old polarized world)...

    If that makes people dicks...then you definitly are one...a major one even...or maybe it pleases you to know your penis size? :)

    If this world depended on your sorry asses for peaceful change...then she would definitely be totally fucked...

    If I didn't love you so much, I would be disgusted by you sissies...

    Sometimes acting like a total asshole can be so nice...:))

    having ascended does not mean being a Saint...sometimes cursing is in order...and very liberating...:)

    here's to all you motherfuckers...

    cheers

    LOL

    May 31, 2011 8:34 AM"

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  78. @Ilse, it's nice to see you as you really are for once. I only wish it was as you think you are.

    And I don't even wanna hear any bullshit about how I see you that way because of my own perceptual filters. I didn't twist your arm and make you type all that. Nobody did. I actually thought you were a nice, but midguided and delusional individual. What you actually are is just plain vicious. And that's pretty much been the underlying attitude I and others have always detected. You only say you love us because you want to reinforce a positively polarized persona to yourself.

    But enough about you. Contrary to your belief, the world does not revolve around Ilse.

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  79. heeeeeeey! alliteration!

    P.S. I thought you said that darkness cannot exist without light. If consciousness is light, then is becoming conscious of pain and suffering hidden by darkness truly "wallowing" or is it in fact, in reality, "healing"?

    I know the answer, but I feel it's important to those you aim to hurt to reinforce their strength. I personally don't derive joy from tearing down others.

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  80. Hi Everyone!

    This is Bryan who used to post here. I used other names such as "George" and "Merlin".

    I just wanted to help out here because I'm seeing things here and I need to speak up.

    First off I want to say Lauren provides something here for free and I must say I enjoy reading her stuff.

    Second, I'm the first to admit I've played all roles...the asshole, the perpetrator, the victim, the disempowered, the abuser, the finger-pointer, the narcissist, the beggar...You name it I've played every role. I don't judge the "old Bryan" and I don't judge the "new Bryan". All are just different aspects of the "ONE".

    Having said that we're in a "House of Mirrors" and everyone and everything around ME is an opportunity for ME to SEE MYSELF in the mirror. It boggles my mind how everyone and everything in my surroundings reflects ME and my beliefs, thoughts, actions etc.etc. I had my "head up my arse" for a long long time. I was good at pointing the finger at everyone else. I've so enjoyed "going down rabbit holes" and giving my power away and playing victim...conspiracies or the-powers-that-were bullshit and the like...all just complete and utter bullshit.

    I love everyone who posts here. Richard, Ilse, Ava, Khai and many more. I don't give a shit whether someone bitches or someone is an arrogant cow...They're all just reflecting as(s)pects of myself and I need to just love them as I would the "old Bryan". They are just ME with a different appearance.

    Can you believe all these years I've denied that I created my reality? I've repeatedly "stuck my head up my arse" or gone down "rabbit holes" to forget who I am because it was too painful to remember REALLY who and what I am!!

    Face it folks..I CREATE MY HOLOGRAM/REALITY FOR 100%! THERE IS NO QUESTION ABOUT IT!! It has taken me 46 years to REAL EYES it and FINALLY after getting knocked over the head about 1 million times I finally get it!

    This is never about anyone else but ME ME ME. If I have a problem with Ilse then I have a problem within myself. If I have a problem with Khai then I have a problem with myself. If I have a problem in my life it's because I'm CHOOSING IT AND CREATING IT! PEOPLE AROUND ME ARE SHOWING ME MY BELIEFS, THOUGHTS, ACTIONS ETC.ETC. I see it clearly and I can use them as a mirror so that I can consciously change or toss beliefs/thoughts. Everyone around ME is a reflection of my thoughts and beliefs...EVERYONE!!

    It's all about choice really! I have free rent and food in a beautiful house here in FRanklin, Tennessee and I told the guy my partner and I are leaving June 10th. I have no money currently and no place to go but I'm CHOOSING to leave because I can create the financial resources and my new beautiful place and I'm gonna trust myself for once. Enough being a victim and enough of "blowing around in the wind"..I'M CHOOSING MY PATH!! and I'M ANTICIPATING SOMETHING WONDERFUL!! ENOUGH OF BLAMING MY SYMPTOMS ALSO!! I COULD HAVE HAD MONEY FOR THE LAST 6 YEARS HAD I REAL EYES'D LONG AGO THAT I CREATE EVERYONE & EVERYTHING IN MY HOLOGRAM!

    You know how good it feels to take responsibility for my own choices now!! Finally I realize I HOLD ALL THE POWER BECAUSE I CAN CHOOSE!! Kewl, eh? It feels empowering to make choices!!

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  81. Wow. Bryan. Well put. Bless you.

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  82. THanks shatabhisha!!

    Well you know I've hurt alot of people going through this process because I was blaming them and playing victim. I did things that were not in my character because I wasn't choosing and not REAL EYES'ING the POWER which I AM!

    Now I live moment to moment! I empty my mind and what beliefs/thoughts I have are positive and the others go down the "river in my mind". I don't react to anything outside of myself or feed the illusion. Break patterns and disgard ALL beliefs except those that serve me. I AM THE POWER. I CREATE THE PATTERNS.

    Now that I observe carefully my surroundings and the people in my life I see how every belief, thought etc. I have or had is reflected in those people and things. It is only when I change or discard beliefs that my hologram changes.

    The more I don't buy into the illusion the more the characters around me are coming with nonsensical qualities. I recently met someone who was a born-again christian and very homosexual at the same time. It was surreal to see someone, on the one hand, talking about sex and kisses, and, on the other hand, praising "the lord". It was strange to say the least. THis guy even reflected my previous choices that reflected my having been a miser and cheap-ass. This guy had so many of my former and current qualities/beliefs/thoughts he ended up this weird mix of traits. UNTIL I STOPPED GIVING HIM ENERGY AND STOPPED JUDGING HIM OR REACTING TO HIM he persisted in my hologram.

    If people find that Ilse is not to their liking or someone else then don't give them energy or POWER. By judging and giving POWER to someone you're basically giving your power away and make the illusion stronger. It's as simple as that. Try it and be amazed.

    I can see characters in my illusion one day say "I like cheese" and the next day their scripting will change completely to saying "I don't like cheese. In other words as I change the scripting of my surroundings and the people change. It's surreal but I've become a "magician" as a result. I've created a computer out of thin air in the past and I think of skunks and see skunks. I recently told myself when running "I see the light" and I saw light bugs or fireflys in a field for the first time since my childhood.

    I want to tell people the "magic" is all around you. You've just got to observe your hologram and see how everyone and everything around you is YOU with a different appearance. To change your hologram you need to change/discard thoughts/beliefs etc.

    Honestly if you have issues with anyone they are a blessing in disguise...I feel such joy right now sharing this stuff because like I said I've had my "head up my arse" for a long long time.

    There is "magic" all around you people....

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  83. yay....good for you.

    so i think i'm gonna go ahead and do me regardless of what anyone else says. i'm kinda sick of people assuming they are in a position to guide anyone when the real truth has always been that we are to guide ourselves from our hearts. love is the guidance, not the ego of the consciousness known as

    love is what brought us here in the first place. it's really important that if you spend your life training for a marathon, to not drop the ball right before you finish.

    for me, love is connecting to all the dark vibrations in the world and dragging them into paradise where i will be going. literally. im going to hawaii. and there i'm going to heal. because thats what i want to do.

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  84. Usually when I'm reacting to something or someone it's because I've got an issue I need to deal with.

    So if I find someone arrogant maybe it's because I'm arrogant myself?

    You know I know not one person appears in my hologram unless it is for a reason. They are a messenger giving me a message.

    Ilse is only a messenger giving you a message. What you choose to do with it is your choice...

    I just know in my world if I'm reacting to someone I try and find out why I'm reacting? What is going on inside that created this person in my life? The emotions are a key to something not quite right inside...Why am I creating this person and what are my emotions telling me about myself?

    It's a much better world now that I don't react with emotion...

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  85. bry..i really do get what youre saying BUT, big BUT there ;).... this could be be me in big huge denial.. but what youre saying is for examply if someone was sayor doing sometihng "bad" to me/towards me.... i am really he bad person? i just need to see this from a certain perspective to wrap my head around it... maybe i just cant find the words right now... ill have to think
    my issue is i feel like my buttons been pushed by someone but i dont really feel like its an issue i may have... and again back to my feeling about having "no emotions"? i thought that was a part of being in the body to experience feeling, emotions etc? i dont know???

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  86. This is an example..Okay let's say you choose the biological family before you come here right? Just as an idea. Before you came here you decided as slg8 you're gonna play this "game" we call "playing human" and so you entered (as a "soul") the body of baby slg8. Baby slg8 has a biological family where the biological mother is beaten up by the biological father. Not only that she's emotional abused...right? So you grow up in this biological family and from day 1 you get your programming from your family..let's say your parents first teach you the "sky is blue"..well that's a form of programming. Anyways you are constantly getting "imprinted" and "programmed" by your bio-family but also your peers, TV, books, the school etc.etc. You begin forming your perceptions of the world. You have "lowered your soul from your Expanded Self (which is you) into your Character/Persona slg8". Now imagine as your Expanded Self you feel things (feelings not same as emotions) and have a bigger picture of this whole "movie" and you created it all at once. You "place yourself" in the Character/Persona slg8 to experience your EGOic character role which is EGOIC IDENTIFICATION which is your sense of who you are. EGO = EMOTIONS, BELIEFS, THOUGHTS, PERCEPTIONS amongst many other things. So imagine as the character you witness your father beating your mother everyday and that your father beats you also...right? It becomes the norm for you right? So your perception is that it's the norm and you develop emotions around it. The TRAUMA of the events surrounding BEATINGS leaves an imprint and we'll call that a "NEGATIVE EMOTIONAL CHARGE". So guess what? Once you develop that "negative emotional charge" you'll SEEK OUT that "NEC" because it's FAMILIAR and you'll seek people to repeat the ORIGINAL EVENT & repeat the EMOTIONS over and over again. Kind of like it's your PROGRAMMING and familiar and you want to repeat it. THE EMOTIONS ARE NOT YOUR NATURAL STATE as the Expanded Self but part of your EGOIC character role. Anyways UNTIL YOU PROCESS AND RELEASE THE ORIGINAL "NEGATIVE EMOTIONAL CHARGE" YOU WILL ENDLESSLY REPEAT THAT PATTERN BECAUSE THE PATTERN IS SEEKING RESOLUTION. It's a pattern that you are CHOOSING to repeat. Once you break the pattern by processing and releasing the "original negative emotional charge" you will no longer be controlled by your emotions.

    I want to repeat to you your natural state as an infinite being is FEELING and not EMOTING or emotions. The emotions are OF THE CHARACTER ROLE/PERSONA or OF THE EGO. You are "playing a character role in a movie of your own creation". The emotions are ONLY of the character role and NOT your natural state.

    So anyways what happens with the abused slg8 is she will be programmed and develop certain THOUGHTS and PERCEPTIONS of the world and she'll repeat the PATTERNS she developed in childhood. She'll seek out relationships to repeat "NEGATIVE EMOTIONAL CHARGES" from original events in childhood. She'll seek out what is familiar!


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  87. (CONTINUED PREVIOUS POST)
    In other words as a "soul" you came in a body and were PROGRAMMED a certain way and you took on an EGOIC character role which includes EMOTIONS. Your thoughts and perceptions of the world are a form of programming you began receiving the minute you were born. As an adult you repeat the PATTERNS you learned. The patterns entail your thoughts, beliefs etc.etc. So as an adult you seek out guys who abuse you (in my EXAMPLE only) because that is what you know. You repeat the patterns from childhood over and over again. You're emotional because that FITS YOUR CHARACTER ROLE in this "movie". It isn't who you are. You are an infinite being that FEELS but feelings aren't emotions. EMOTIONS ARE FROM EGO which is NOT your natural FEELING state. EGO = CHARACTER ROLE in this "movie" you created

    So with your programming you enter adult life and UNCONSCIOUSLY repeat the patterns you learned over and over again. If you were the "black sheep" in the family you'll constantly work(for example) in office environments where you become the black sheep again. It's familiar and until the "original negative emotional charge" is processed and released you will REPEAT the pattern over and over again. To yourself your perceptions of the world seem REAL and ACCURATE but they're NOT...they've been PROGRAMMED in you.

    How do I get CONSCIOUS perhaps you're asking? The key is to process and release the EMOTIONS surrounding the "original event or original negative emotional charge" so you can break the pattern. For example..abused as child = abused as adult (repeating pattern). Break pattern by processing/releasing original "charge"!

    You also get CONSCIOUS by NOT REACTING. By observing everyone and everything in your surroundings and REAL EYES'ing that they are YOU with a different appearance.

    Once you shut down the emotions you become CONSCIOUS of what is going on. YOu begin seeing how everyone and everything around you is reflecting YOUR BELIEFS/THOUGHTS & PROGRAMMING YOU RECEIVED IN CHILDHOOD! Your surroundings as an adult are a MIRROR of your childhood programming

    The people and things around you are a MIRROR for you in "this movie you created" and they're MESSENGERS GIVING YOU MESSAGES. They're showing you your programming. They're showing you your thoughts, beliefs, perceptions, emotions etc.etc.

    So if you want to change your world you need to change what is INSIDE YOU. CHANGE INSIDE = CHANGE OUTSIDE.

    That's why in this "movie we are in" you'll get different perceptions of an event. Because people's programming is different...So let's say I use the word "c&&t"...depending on perceptions some women would consider the use of the word abusive in the usa but in the netherlands women would laugh or wouldn't take the word seriously. Why? DIFFERENT PROGRAMMING.

    So you wanna change your world you need to 1) process and release the "negative emotional charges" from childhood and 2) break patterns and 3) become a CONSCIOUS observer and REAL EYE'S your surroundings reflect your insides. People around you are MESSENGERS giving you MESSAGES!!

    Here is a good link to explain the difference between emotions (your "character role in this movie") versus feelings (natural state of your Expanded Self which is YOU):
    http://members.shaw.ca/burtharding/feelings.html

    Hope I helped slg8 and sorry Lauren I don't mean to monopolize your blog...

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  88. Very well said, Khai. "X" (:

    I'd just like for others to notice what they seem oblivious too. At least by attempting to grant them the opportunity to see what I see. I do it indirectly sometimes due to the fact that most easily reject it.

    I too feel the extreme change that we're all experiencing. Although on our darkest days, those that are left, it can blind me to feel overwhelmingly stuck. The following day my perception changes all over again. What a ride!

    I don't attempt to rant about these challenges, but to express the feelings that I am going through. Whether they be good or bad, I realize that we're all coinciding together. I love seeing the similarities in other's posts, so I feel the urge to express it all.

    I love you too, Khai, and very much appreciate your support. We will get through this together. That goes to everyone else as well!

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  89. I do realize the 'enigma' behind Ilse's post. I just felt that we were already passed the game of illusion. Also, I thought we were more understanding and accepting of each other by this point. I don't want to feel as if I should second guess posting about my feelings to each other. In fact, I believe them to be extremely important during these times. It hasn't upset me, and I precluded it to be good intention. I just didn't feel it to be necessary at this point.

    I too have played 'all' roles, as I assume all of us have. So, with that said, please don't assume to be a step ahead. Yes, the old us would smack people hard just to get the point across. Even if it meant tainting our own name. I'm done with the illusions though, and fully ready for all of the revealing.

    I have noticed lately how much each of us are contradicting each other in ways, and that goes to the outside world as well. There are too many misinterpretations within these languages barriers. I know we all mean well, but it would be much better if we could completely understand each side.

    Peace & Love to you all.(including you Ilse)

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  90. pre-concluded* lol sorry

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  91. Ilse, Your post on this blog was no accident.

    I am to join my sons world full blown, and that means swearing even more, because that is his world. Young people live in the new world and they don't have much to say.

    New energy language: Fuck you.

    Mommy says to junior: 'where have you been?' While he is thinking: 'fuck you' But mummy with all her wounds doesn't know he responded out of love, only he couldn't say it out loud.

    Kids are tired of pleasing mamma god and papa god.

    While the old generation is still trying to figure out their wounds the world keeps moving and it belongs to the young who don't carry any baggage.

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  92. thanks Bry
    i get what your saying for the most part...i have to read up on the feelings vs. emotion stuff i guess... that is a tough concept...and i am going to try the not react thing... thank you....

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  93. Sure slg8! Thanks for being so open and listening. That shows how exceptional you are!

    I wish I had been more receptive over the years. I had people telling me "Bryan you're creating shit because you're giving out shit" but I preferred the smell of my arsehole lol

    It is a tough concept but remember it this way. When you react you're giving control or power over to someone else. You're giving your power away. I real eyes now I HOLD THE POWER so to react to someone else is insanity because I created them in the first place. They are ME with a different appearance.

    You'd be amazed at what I can see now. People change when I change. It's as though they're character reading a movie script and they change their lines as I change my thoughts, beliefs and attitude.

    By judging someone or something in your hologram you give it POWER and you maintain that thing or person in your hologram. Once you don't react or give it power there is no energy focused anymore in that direction so the pattern goes away.

    Yeah it's difficult to wrap your head around it but at some point you'll see it clearly. The emotions CLOUD PERCEPTION.

    The best thing I can advise people on is 1) stay in the moment (empty thoughts/mind) 2) toss beliefs or only have beliefs that are NOT limiting 3) don't react because that is giving your power away. 4) get to know yourself and process/release past kaka that is infecting your life...

    I HAVE THE POWER AND I CREATE THE PATTERNS. The same applies to you slg8!

    It's funny slg8 that I was so UNCONSCIOUS before and caught up in emotions that I "couldn't see the forest for the trees". Now since I've quieted my mind and I'm not emotional I can see clearly "through the fog". I can see the scripting so obviously it's laughable. In fact it appears as if everyone in this "movie" are bad actors and that there are many flaws in the film.

    It's kind of like Truman Show with Jim Carey. He becomes an OBSERVER and AWARE and CONSCIOUS and starts noticing the strange behaviour in the people and his surroundings. Once you start noticing it "snowballs" and you'll see how YOU are creating everyone and everything in your illusion.

    YOU HOLD THE POWER SLG8!!

    I don't mean to sound preachy I'm just very enthusiastic NOW!!

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  94. like your post Nico...mostly the part of thinking we understand and accept each other at this point... second guessing your posts, and the step ahead part...

    just my 2 cents...i dont much think this is about language... and do young people really carry no baggage? not so sure about that... could be wrong, but just a thought

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  95. Bry
    im def open to hearing any and all perspectives... i have ahrd time with thinking or knowing i get shit cuz i give out shit in some sitiuations, because i know i havent given it or didnt deserve what i got in some situations, and no i dont think im in denial or whatever, i dont feel like i have an issue with admitting my faults, or apologizing if need be if you get my point... so maybe thats more on the pattern side, and then some other stuff is mirror stuff... i dont know, ill keep trying to get it all to click... thats all im lookin for is the tools and info to figure myself out...its not an easy concept to get, i mean how many times have i heard you create it, you manifest it, you attract what to you what you think or vibrate or whatever, cuz why would i want to attract anything bad?! ugh! lol..and im certainly not in the business of being mean on purpose to anyone, i try to be fair, open minded and a decent person....

    i dont really like the idea of no emotion, no reaction, but maybe it is the only way to not let things get to you, but it still brings me back to just being numb? and if thats really what this is suppose to be? just doesnt make tons of sense... but i will give it a try...

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  96. Hey slg8,

    Think of it this way.

    Your natural state slg8 is just the same as a baby smiling in a crib with sparkling eyes. It is a FEELING state of TRUE JOY. That's why babies are so perfect because they start out closest to our natural state which is closer to our Expanded State (Higher Self)

    Emotions, on the other hand, are unconcious and a result of our programming..our thoughts, beliefs, past experiences etc.etc. (EGO/sense of who you are/character role/persona) So after the programming we develop EMOTIONS because of thoughts/beliefs/patterns we've adopted. The emotions are a result of the programming/patterns/thoughts/beliefs. We feel them throughout our body and THEY ARE NOT our natural state. Our natural state is PURE FEELING.

    To get to the point of CONSCIOUSLY CREATING one must process and release the "negative emotional charges" from the past. They create LIMITING PATTERNS which result in EMOTIONS which are not your natural state.

    If you choose to read the Burt Harding link above and my posts again and if I can suggest that you read the following books:
    1) The Presence Process by Michael Brown (will help process/release negative emotional charges)
    2) Busting Loose from the Money Game by Robert Scheinfeld (explains this hologram)
    2) Seth books by Jane Roberts.(how you create your reality for 100%)

    I can guarantee to you that everyone and everything in my illusion is my creation. They reflect my thoughts, beliefs, experiences etc.etc. To change my outer world I must change my inner world.

    OKAY I'VE SAID ENOUGH NOW!! GETTING SICK OF HEARING MYSELF YAPPING LOL

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  97. I am going to go with my heart on this one, because these perceptual discussions are beginning to cause confusion. Besides, guess what? It's June 1st! aka Moon 12 day 3. Eclipse time. Also, this being a very important month of manifestation apparently.

    Thank you Slg8 (:

    <3

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  98. hey people...

    I was just jankin' your chain, playin' with ya...and as usual: you full on took the bate...

    snap, snap, snap, said the little vipers...when will you finally learn...LOL

    I was just having fun...stirring into an ants nest...watching them all go nuts..just a little test...

    you kids have no sense of humor, you take everything so darn seriously...as if it all actually means anything...lighten up! :))

    It was very humorous...you guys really are a funny bunch...very entertaining (love you for it ;))...

    you could never recognize my true colors, they remain a mystery to you...as you don't even know your own...

    I am many colors...and know, enjoy & love every one of them...

    Khai dearest, very considerate of you to save my words for future generations...you attach way more importance to them than I ever could...But really love, holding on to things is very unhealthy...didn't you know?

    y'all wouldn't recognize love if it daringly farted you in the face, or lovingly bit you in the ass (woo, kinda kinky too ;))...

    but don't worry...you will...some day...

    having ascended does not mean one cannot enjoy some good cursing from time to time...and creating a nice stirr...especially when the effect is so very predictable...and hilarious...

    thanks guys, you gave me a really good laugh...I had tears of laughter running down my face...that's the new energy for ya... :))

    goodbye...
    for now anyway...
    ...suckers ;))

    LOL

    P.S Christine, right on girl!

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  99. And...credit where credit's due...

    it's fun to see it caused at least some of you to THINK...

    (re-acting is easy, taming your initial responses much harder...one must first become aware of them, as one cannot change what one does not acknowledge)

    Energy moved
    Mission accomplished
    :)

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  100. Thanks Lauren!!
    Definitely some interesting times..
    Love to you all..
    Nicole

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  101. Ilse, lol

    If you think that you were so far ahead, perhaps go back an read what I had said after your 'chain jankin'.

    As I said, very unnecessary.

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  102. Bry, again, you express it so well and make some excellent suggestions. Btw, the symbolism for the June 1st solar eclipse has to do with leaving the ghosts of our past behind, or "virgin minds for virgin fields," i.e. venturing forth from a clean slate, so your timing was perfect.

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  103. Thanks again shatabhisha for your kind words!!!

    Thanks for mentioning the symbolism for the June 1st solar eclipse lol. No surprise that it mentions "leaving the ghosts of our past behind" or "virgin minds for virgin fields" or "venturing forth from a clean slate"

    You know what I believe is going on. I just happened to have merged with the "ONE MIND". Yes I can go "up and down the thread" from my character role/person "Bryan" up to my "higher part" but now I've merged more with my "higher part" or Expanded Self which IS the "ONE MIND" which is why this hologram is changing as I change. What is actually going on is I'm "above the clouds" as Bob Scheinfeld says and I can view the storyline in its entirety as it's being created. It's surreal!! I've had many "magical" experiences like creating a computer out of thin air in our living quarters in Florida when we lived there...but what I actually was doing was viewing through "the eyes of the ONE MIND" as I (since I'm the ES or "ONE mind") created the computer. My DESIRES NOW SEEM TO BE MERGING MORE WITH THE DESIRES OF THE "ONE MIND". Anyways that's why I think of a skunk and one appears. Or I say "I see the light" and light bugs appear in a field...It's because I've merged with the "ONE MIND" more and can see the storyline before it's creating..kind of like I'm co-creating with the "ONE MIND" if that makes sense...it's kewl

    Anyways thanks for mentioning that. You'll laugh because the guy we live with is living in the past. He has no life really and listens to songs and music from the 50s,60s,70s and still mourns for his partner who died 7 years ago. I told my partner I will never look into the past again because people only do that when they don't have a life in the present LOL. People who live in the past are boring also..LOL...I was living in the past myself. Funny the "clean slate" comment also because I've been explaining to everyone how as a baby we are closer to our natural state as babies and how we're programmed from the "clean slate" LOL. That's when we go from our FEELING natural state to the EMOTIONAL drama state after we've been programmed...

    You know it's getting more weird even. Yesterday I was predicting things before they were happening and it was happening minute to minute as I predicted it minute to minute...my mind was going right along with the storyline maker which is the "ONE MIND"...

    Also interesting in my hologram "when I saw the light" and REAL EYES'd that I create everything and everyone around me I started seeing all these animals here that I never have seen. Most of them symbolize REBIRTH, IMMORTALITY or NEW BEGINNINGS!!! LOL I had bunny rabbits for quite a few weeks even when I was running at 4am. One day there were 5 of them separate along the sidewalk where I run (where you wouldn't expect them) just staring at me. My partner and I have something with the number 13 in our hologram. Guess what appeared in Tennessee this year in May and comes ONLY every 13 years - CICADAS!! LOL and they symbolize rebirth and Immortality. We also had turkeys many times which symbolize ABUNDANCE. We had 2 vultures appear...we've had many birds especially cardinals and blue birds. Now we're getting lots of moths and butterflies..lol. I'm sure I'm forgetting to mention more animals and symbolism...We live in a city and didn't see these animals when we first got here...
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    PEOPLE NEED TO REAL EYES BY OBSERVING THEIR SURROUNDINGS THAT EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING IS YOU WITH A DIFFERENT APPEARANCE.

    PAY ATTENTION TO YOUR HOLOGRAM AND YOU WILL SEE SIGNS AND SYMBOLISM THAT REFLECT YOU YOU YOU

    I can't stress how much this whole experience is about myself and my reflecting the world around me. I am LORD AND MASTER OF MY REALITY!

    Thanks again shatabhisha!!! You seem to be in the "ONE MIND" with me just "reading the script next to me" LOL

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  105. How exactly would I create by observing? If by observing you mean being thoughtless, and simply just aware. I'd like to try this out..

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  106. Hey Nico,

    What I do (naturally now) is 1) quiet my mind by emptying it - 2) throw any limiting beliefs/thoughts into "river in my mind" (picture yourself throwing LIMITING beliefs/thoughts into "river"). in other words don't hang onto limiting thoughts/beliefs 3) don't react to your hologram or surroundings or anyone or anything...just try and figure out how you created it/them 4) TRULY GET TO KNOW YOURSELF by being completely honest with yourself 5) live in the NOW - your mind/ego will always want to mentally "masturbate" by thinking about past/future all the time ("mind chatter") 6) process/release "negative emotional charges" from your past (Michael Brown book Presence Process will help with that)-remember emotions are NOT your natural state

    What I mean to say is EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING around you Nico reflects YOUR thoughts, beliefs, emotions, experiences etc.etc. IT IS ONLY WHEN YOU SILENCE THE CHATTER "UPSTAIRS" AND GET RID OF PAST EMOTIONAL KAKA that you CONSCIOUSLY will see how you're creating everyone and everything around you.

    You know I used to be one of those people who was UNCONSCIOUS because I was caught up in my thoughts in my head and I was very emotional. I was REACTING to what was outside me not REAL EYES'ing I was creating what was around me through my limiting UNCONSCIOUS thoughts, beliefs based on experiences that happened long ago which resulted in OLD EMOTIONAL CHARGES that were unresolved.

    Once you can QUIET THE MIND and CALM THE INSIDES (no more emotions) is when you will become CONSCIOUS of how you are creating absolutely everyone and everything in your surroundings.

    It's kind of like observing in this post the commentaries and you can see that really Ilse is playing a game with herself in the end. What she is doing is really FOOLING herself into believing something else but she is just really fooling herself.

    But you see now how people are NOT reacting anymore to Ilse because they now REAL EYES as OBSERVERS of their worlds that by giving her power they just make her appear more than she really is. Ilse is sooooooo an old aspect of myself...I used to do the same games...I was just fooling myself...

    You created your hologram Nico all at once because YOU really are your HIGHER SELF. As the HIGHER SELF you placed yourself in the "character/persona" called Nico to play the role of Nico. You are reliving the "movie" scene by scene even though as your "Higher Self" you created the "movie" all at once.

    But since past, present and future happen all at the same time Nico you have the ability to change the "movie" script constantly. You have the POWER and YOU create the patterns. Want to change your world. Quiet your mind and your emotions and observe how everyone and everything reflect you. Then you see what you want to change. Then you get rid of limiting thoughts/beliefs and keep the beliefs that work for you such as you create your reality for 100%

    So from now on everyday 1) slow yourself down - go slow 2) emptying your mind by throwing thoughts by picturing a "river in your mind" and picture yourself throwing those thoughts/beliefs in there 3) don't react to anything because you give it power. 4) LIVE IN THE NOW

    BECOME A MASTER OBSERVER. Watch every little detail around you and look for things that are coincidences or symbolic or things with numbers...see similarities between your thoughts/beliefs and the things around you...even animals you see represent something...you'll see certain numbers repeating in your hologram also.

    Remember when you have "racing thoughts/mind chatter/mental masturbation" and you're emotional you CANNOT BE CONSCIOUS and PRESENT to SEE that everyone and everything around you is YOU with a different appearance.

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  107. I keep hoping someone besides Ilse or Bryan or one of their worshippers will comment something substantial (Slg8, why are you still doubting the way you feel? I love you girl but why are you still getting sucked into this stuff? I really want to tell you to stop being so insecure and stop doubting yourself but I have no idea how to get it across at this point!) but no, no, that doesn't seem to be happening, just more of the same emotionally detached spacy superiority complex nonsense!

    Right now I am royally PISSED OFF at the universe and sick of feeling so goddamn uncomfortable 24/7 for the last 4.5 years and I just want it to STOP already. I hate being here right now, I hate God for putting me through this, I hate myself for signing up for this BS, I hate the carrot-on-a-string channelings, I hate how it NEVER CHANGES and NEVER GETS BETTER and most of all I HATE you self-appointed gurus who come in here with your love-and-light bullcrap that has NO REAL LOVE IN IT WHATSOEVER! I feel like telling you to go to hell but oh wait, I'm already there! So come join me then!!!! >:O

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  108. ava, i have stuff to say but i dont need people telling me im lookin for attention or whatever judgemental bullshit they are saying to me... and i 500% agree with no "real love in it"... i took alot of good from what Bry is saying... but i am taken back by a few things other people say so i dont know, i try to be nice to everyone here, i might ignore some or make sideways comments.... i came here to learn and find support and help, and i do get alot of good feedback, 1 sour apple spoils the bunch i guess... so im not sure ill be postin much anymore... we'll see....

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  109. ava...but just to comment on your last paragraph.. apparently we just havent figured it out yet, because from what it sounds like we are doing this all to ourselves, its our own fault and until we "get it/figure it out" then we are going to keep going through this... because we or i should say "i" dont listen bla bla bla....so i guess i should be saying FU to myself....whatever... and now ill try and switch to observe....

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  110. Bry; I have enjoyed your amusing description of your personal trajectory and appreciate your clear and detailed exposition of what has worked for you. Another bit of sweet synchronicity is that the lunar node is currently transiting slowly through a zodiacal degree (where it will remain throughout this triple eclipse period) for which the imagery is that of a bluebird perched on the gate of a cottage, hinting that good fortune is about to bless our lives. Thank you again for sharing and may all our lives be blessed in these special times.

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  111. Alright, thanks Bry. I am going to start trying it out, and I'll let you know how well I'm able to do it. I've already started picturing the river, and watching conflicts float away as if they were only temporary thoughts. The only thing that has bothered me lately would be the feeling of 'waiting'. I know all I must do is, be. It can be difficult though while simultaneously feeling lonely. I'll throw lonely in the river.

    Love

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  112. Ava,
    I remember going to Stanley Park in Vancouver and they had signs up "Don't feed the wild animals!". Well guess what happened one summer? Tourists were feeding the raccoons and many of them got bitten and needed tetanus shots. My point being I recognize myself in you and see your anger. I kept people away from me for the last 6 years because of my anger playing the victim.

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  113. Slg8,

    Thanks for being so kind (" i took alot of good from what Bry is saying...")

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  114. Hi Shatabhisha!

    I almost started crying with JOY when I read what you wrote!! You are such a sweety!! You know how much I love birds and how many blue birds I saw recently LOL....I love what you wrote and you've got such impeccable timing!! I'm so glad to have you here!! WOW is all I can say!! If you were close by I would give you a big hug and kiss!



    (shatabhisha said...
    "Bry; I have enjoyed your amusing description of your personal trajectory and appreciate your clear and detailed exposition of what has worked for you. Another bit of sweet synchronicity is that the lunar node is currently transiting slowly through a zodiacal degree (where it will remain throughout this triple eclipse period) for which the imagery is that of a bluebird perched on the gate of a cottage, hinting that good fortune is about to bless our lives. Thank you again for sharing and may all our lives be blessed in these special times.")

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  115. Hey Nico,

    You are so like ME because I've also been struggling with BEing lately versus WAITING which has been my favorite word up until recently (waiting). I know it's tough but what I now try to do is enjoy what I have in the moment which is nature. I go for walks and look for my nature friends like the different birds that greet me everyday.

    You know when I would go running at 4am the birds were really load and they would play a game with me on the sidewalk...They'd dive down in front of me as I ran and I'd talk to them and they'd sing back to me.

    For the past 6 years the times when I wake up are the times I'm most vulnerable..I've created the symptoms to be debilitating just when I wake up so I'm more prone to being negative and bitching at those times. My partner and I have huge "head stuff" which makes everything around us look fake. It has gotten so massive that at times we get so dizzy that we almost tip over. 2 days ago was major change and for the first time we really felt APART from what was around us but, also, at the same time, A PART of everything around us lol. It was as though we were walking yet were insulated (like in a bubble) to everything around us. It is surreal.

    So those times I'm vulnerable after waking up I sing this song out loud to fight it! Lauren is correct - It's time to stop "wearing our symptoms as some sort of medal of honour". Anyways here is the part of that song:
    "Oh what a beautiful morning,
    Oh what a beautiful day,
    I've got a wonderful feeling,
    Everything's going my way."
    http://www.scoutsongs.com/lyrics/beautifulmorning.html

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  116. like, 70% of the last 20 comments were made in the grip of sheer stupidity.

    it's sooooooo irritating. too bad Dr. Kevorkian is dead now...

    :(

    technically(in reality), the universe is always expanding, so if you ever feel like you've got it all figured it, you really havent because its always becoming more complex.

    my point is that things are becoming way more dogmatic than they should, with everyone thinking that they know everything and that they're more advanced and that they're better than everyone else with their superior philosophy.

    and that's just not the way. its not the way i was born to be and i sincerely doubt its the way anyone was born to be.

    in the vein of saying dumb things, i'm going to add my own, poorly received 2 cents.

    Nico is a hottie.

    That is all.

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  117. Hey Bry,

    Ha, funny you say that.. because mornings can be a bitch to me as well. Its the part of the day I feel most at tune with myself, yet irritated by everything outside of thy self. At times I just stay in bed for a bit thinking to avoid expressing myself in lower frequencies.

    I do love nature, and enjoy being a part of it. Unfortunately though I live in a shady part of the city where it isn't really worth walking around much. Not having the money to relocate, or the resources to live the way I'd prefer is the biggest mind fuck of this all to me. I don't require much because I'm a minimalist, but I do need freedom and happiness to fully express myself. Freedom is the gift I appreciate most from creator, and each day it's a struggle to hold onto the tiny bit I have left.

    I realize that nothing can officially take that from me due to it all being an illusion. Everyone else stuck within the illusion though is preventing me from enjoying my vision. To me, we all must be aware and safe for me to be at rest. It seems so simple.. if only I could allow people to visualize and comprehend my mind. We are all the same, yet there are these barriers blocking me from sharing this truth. If soon it's possible for me to pour images and comprehension to the mind's of others, then the world will change over night. It's the Divine plan, not mine, but ours.

    Still with all this self-realization, remarkable awareness, and absolution.. I still must ask myself, who am I? On the scale I'm able to be 9 as I am also able to be -9. It's about being balanced on 0 though. It isn't doubt playing it's own symphony in my mind, but what am I not seeing? Either I am this righteous warrior, in the name of peace, or I am Lucifer in disguise put here to taste this darkness I've created. Perhaps, I am nothing at all and all as nothing.

    You all have been here with me, so tell me.. am I alone on this one?

    Khai, we're all equal, and everyone has the ability to achieve their highest potential.

    I'm being told to no longer save this world, but that is never what was meant to happen. I will change this world, so that it save's itself. Where as I is we in the form of me for now.

    Don't buy the illusion when you have all you need as is. This is not me talking vertically, nor in a moment held horizontally.

    love

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  118. Just had some revolutionary thoughts about perception.. co-creation

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  119. Hey Nico,

    Yeah mornings are quite the bitch so I'm contantly singing positive songs because I'm not "going there" anymore...There is no question in my mind that I create everyone and everything around me and I'm not going back to play victim EVER again! I need to get over the symptoms also and not buy into that illusion either so I'm learning to get over myself in the process and stop moaning like a big baby lol.

    Yeah I understand what you're saying...I love nature also and I work with what I currently have..So I focus on the butterflies, moths, rabbits, cicadas, dogs, cats, flowers, trees, hills, storms with lightening, tornadoes etc.etc. I really try to appreciate what I've created around me. I watch movies and try to appreciate them also ALWAYS reminding myself this hologram is my creation.

    This is the way I see it Nico and maybe it will work for you. I'm "YOU" with a different appearance. Your surroundings are "YOU" with a different appearance. It's part of "YOU" that needs to be appreciated (I believe) before you can let go of it..Your surroundings and the people in your life are reflecting your thoughts/beliefs or parts of yourself. What I've learned to do is try and appreciate everyone and everything in my hologram. If I don't want something now I will say NO to it because I've taken my POWER back and made a choice. That's why I told the guy here I'm leaving on June 10th because I HOLD THE POWER and I AM MAKING A CHOICE = NO more living with others and getting food money from them. I'm appreciating that I created it but now I'm going a step further and saying Yes or No. Choice = Power. The more I judge a situation that is the "glue" that holds that illusion in place.

    It was like the guy from Alabama who visited the guy we live with. He was a "praise the lord" person and very sexual, openly gay and an alcholic. It was the weirdest creation of mine but I could see it clearly. This guy had things I've had issues with in the past but also parts of me from before or currently. He even loved shopping at Aldi and the $1 store and was going on about healthy foods like I used to. He was a perfect mirror for me...I could have reacted because I initially couldn't stand the guy but then I REAL EYES'd he was reflecting my thoughts and beliefs and I ended up loving him for being the "hidden gem" that got my "head out of my arsehole"..I really still wanted to play victim up until a little while ago..I kept wanting to blame others and I kept wanting to NOT take responsibility for everything I was creating.

    Trust me you can get everything you want and you can surround yourself with people you'd like. The key is to love what you have already created including the area you live. By NOT REACTING or JUDGING the area you live you'd be surprised what will happen. Once you consciously change how you view the area it will change that area you live in. I'm not shitting you..it's the truth and I've seen it with my own eyes.

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    I finally have REAL EYES'd also that not one person around me is to blame for my situation...only myself. They are always reflecting what is going on with me me me...When I played victim and the blame game I created that sort of "reality"...You know what's funny. Now that I know I AM THE POWER I rarely see police anymore. It may sound strange but even the weather and the topography of where you live reflects your inner world. People will change around you as you change. I'm not shitting you..I've seen it with my own eyes. If you change your beliefs/thoughts about things Nico you could have a person one day say "I like cheeese" and the next day saying "I hate cheese". It's surreal. What I see is as I change my thoughts and beliefs the "characters"/people around me change their lines kind of like they're reading a "movie script". You have to be CONSCIOUS OBSERVER to notice it..I'm not shitting you at all...

    IMagine it this way. We are ONE CONSCIOUSNESS or ONE MIND that is dreaming this illusion. And as the ONE MIND we've split ourselves off into different versions or aspects or characters of that ONE MIND. REally we are all just this one entity but we've split off in personas like Nico or Bryan and we'll bring into our holograms those people who closely match our thoughts, beliefs etc.etc.

    I can promise you that I can see it for 100% that my thoughts/beliefs create everyone and everything around me. Once YOU Nico become CONSCIOUS of that it will change your world for 100%

    People don't REAL EYES their power so they blame it on karma or divine plan or others or their symptoms and when they play victim they'll create a shitty hologram...once you recognize your power I believe you'll create a hologram that more matches your desires..inside world = outside world

    You are not the Nico character you think you are...trust me I don't feel like Bryan anymore and I can barely hang onto past images anymore and it seems as though my past is someone else's..I AM WAY GRANDER THAN THIS PUNY HUMAN CHARACTER..

    We are all a projection of the ONE MIND or ONE CONSCIOUSNESS. Basically we are parts of the whole yet THE ONE at the same time. We exist yet don't exist at the same time. We're something yet nothing at the same time.

    Just take care of your own beliefs & thoughts and the rest will take care of itself. You need to know yourself very well to see yourself in others and your surroundings. Be honest and get to know yourself really well

    I don't know if I answered your question...I wasn't sure really what you were looking for..if you have questions I'll be happy to help just please be specific...

    Hope I helped..

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  121. @Nico, as always, I caution you to look into your own heart for answers, rather than to accept another's perception of truth at face value. Every individual is precious and highly valued as a unique creation, therefore truth will resonate slightly differently for every individual. It is wonderful and very healthy to exchange ideas with others, but recognize it as just that, an exchange of ideas. Always test what you have learned by looking into your heart, looking at who and what you love, who you are, and see how these ideas vibrate with that. Only your own truth will stand the test of love.

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  122. Bryan,

    You would do well to listen to what Khai has to say. When he chooses to simply express truth (as he knows it to be so), his perspective is quite a bit closer to reality than yours.

    I know you are certain that the words you share reflect reality, but believing those words to be truth, doesn't make them so. Parts of what you say are accurate; part is just gibberish. I won't go into more depth with you on this, because I've learned from many interactions with you that you're really not interested in truly considering other opinions.

    I'll say this much: when you get to the point that you can support yourself even at a minimal level, and have demonstrated some ability to create minimal self-sufficiency and abundance, that would be an appropriate time to start considering you have a basic understanding of how this 3D reality actually works. Until then, you'd probably be better served asking Khai for advice.

    Richard

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  123. Alright let our hearts expand, think it!

    1. How about having a major water/theme park in every major city and minor cities around U.S. that are open pretty much all year long with certain time frames for free enjoyment? No matter rich or poor, equality is the key. Lets have a fun world.

    2. How about schools with only subjects that pertain to the actual life skill that a child wants to pursue?

    3. How about an Astrology school that is just as profiled as a regular school with a focus on numerology and life's lessons?

    4. How about classes of ethics and morality based within every school with spirituality integrated?

    How about just thinking at large with our big beautiful hearts of gold at all the things we could do with the right mindset of Christed consciousness realizing what only can work is what works for the greater good. Nothing else will do it, all else will fall to the wayside...people want to honor their lives as a gift...and the great thinkers are the ones who serve noble causes with lasting results.

    Ask yourself, what am I thinking? Am I constantly thinking of myself or am I thinking of the larger picture? Think as Christ would, and yep you know that it will be promoted because it has for over 2000 years, we have to serve a unified effort to change our world and express our truths as we see the time for a change is set right before us. We are equal and one in the same.

    Your past is over, done, gone...we are new. You have nothing left to fight over or for, your fight is over, you have climbed out of the pit and you are walking on new ground.

    This is quite a very different mindset to where we were for soooo long, but meditate on the fact that all is new and to use careful consideration when choosing your words...stay balanced in your responses and emotions, stay at peace with your beautiful new world. Discipline, disciple yourself.

    Read motivational quotes, readings, etc. Become the encourager that you were all along, but realize you know are steering the ship and how you want this to come out is entirely left up to you, discipline your day, laugh at the silly things, and embrace the long awaited sigh of relief. Work at it, honor your words, maintain bliss, and enjoy this ride as it is definitely a mind-blower for me, how bout' you?

    Love at large:)
    Rae-Rae

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  124. Hmmm,

    When I think of where did I go? Really I was this person eons ago. I was/am strong, resilent, new, gracefully becoming anew, smiling as if I knew this all already, not a worry in the world, as all is well and will take care of itself. I know one thing for sure, I am better here than where I was, right? I know it, I sense it, I see it, I am it. Everything around me is as of I think it. Slowly all gravitating towards goodness because that is all I am choosing to reflect. Take time to live our life, think it, love it, live it. Shrug off everything else, because as we do it isn't even coming our way anymore. Wow, what a ride! Who is holding my hand? Did I do this by some unknowing of myself at one time or another? Whatever may be, it is surely divine.

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  125. TRANSITION OF EPIC PROPORTION,,,, we better all get this straight now, they said it, it is true... a few months telling the tall tale of our lives...new birds fly out of nest, remember guys this is happening on June 21, summer solstice...then onto October...

    love your neighbor as you would love yourself, forgive any moment that comes across from the past, it is over, don't bring that with us. If we have to take it slowwwwwwwwww, re-think your day, mid way if need be and shy away from too much discussion, keepn' the peace. Our lives are up to us, we are really responsible for the outcome, our genuine nature shines through.

    What will you show to yourself? I like to think that the world is peaceful, loving, generous, helpful, etc. It is a place where some words of yesterday no longer exist as if we never knew them. We are infants, laughing and becoming children ready to play. With blank slates, please keep them blank, look at life as though you are taken care of, everything is provided for, you are fed, clothed, rewarded for good behavior and taught as we learn how to behave. Innocence speaks volumes yet, we have all this information carrying over from the wisdom that serves us well.

    Share in positivity, this is our playground. How do you want to play? Play nice. Muah!

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  126. That's a really good point I hadn't actually considered, RD.

    My goal isn't to step on anyone's toes or "be right" all the time. I view everything as a process that continues to unfold. I would feel very depressed and bored if there weren't always new things to learn. Hence the feminine perspective: that vast, void, unexplored, unconscious part that offers up new goodies in reality whenever we tire of the old as we are now. And boy, are her goodies nice ;)

    Haha.

    I was thinking. What I really want is for us all to just come out in the open, explore, bond. I'm really tired of hearing people tout their philosophies and perceived superiority. No one ever got anywhere constructive by claiming to have a superior link to the divine. In truth, we are no different in divinity than those that perceive us to be different from. And in truth, it is their perception that we are different from them that creates all of this. They do have power and they do use it just as we are about to fully use ours.

    I'm really excited to see what unfolds next and I hope we can stop squabbling like children and instead see what we have to bring to the table to strengthen our bonds and to support each other's happiness through healthy interdependence.

    I just want to find god, myself, feel love, and truly be myself. I have a feeling that I'm not so different in that respect.

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  127. Hey Richard,

    Creating a computer out of thin air as I did and all the things I've created in Florida and since living here in Franklin have shown me all I need to know. Money is as simple as a blade of grass to create because it's all illusion lol.

    But you see Richard since I went without the money for 6 years I've detached from it which is why I'm in such a wonderful place today. I played victim which is why I didn't have any money...lol

    The difference between myself now and that old aspect of myself which you represent Richard is that I could sit naked in a field now and feel peace and Total Joy. I've never felt so much peace and love (best word I have) for everyone and everything around me.

    I think the most magical day was the day I was running and I told myself "the fog has lifted" and I ran through a fog bank that lifted. I then told myself "I see the light" and for the first time since childhood I saw light bugs flying in a field.

    You see Richard it isn't about the money and it never has been. It's about the "magical" world I've created where people can see everything they desire. But if you're caught up in the money Richard you'll miss the magic.

    That is what this journey has about for me Richard. REAL EYE'Sing I AM THE POWER and I CONTROL THE PATTERNS. Robert Scheinfeld has it almost completely correct for 100% except he is wrong on one count. I'm in the "Driver's Seat" and I always have been. I didn't have money because I was playing VICTIM and playing the role of POWERLESS lol

    It's so surreal observing all these "characters" in this "movie" I've created. The "old versions/aspects of myself" always visit me before I move on. You Richard are an old aspect of myself.

    I could never figure out why I've lost all these people in my life. I know now. They no longer fit where I'm going. They need to fit the "new me" with my new beliefs/thoughts. You see I keep seeing butterflies lately. They symbolize lots of things and yesterday when I was cooking ricotta stuffed shells I saw one perched on the window in the kitchen. That butterfly symbolizes me as do the cicadas...lol It's almost time for me to spread my wings and fly!

    Richard you can never take away the magic I've experienced. It has brought back my enthusiasm. I'm a new-born baby with that sparkle in my eyes.

    Time to get back to basics Richard. I create my reality for 100%. My beliefs & thoughts create everyone and everything in my hologram. I KNOW because my experience is exactly like Bob Scheinfeld's experience and that's why his book came..because he represented a new aspect of myself on my journey.

    What I REAL EYES'd is that I've created aspects of myself along the way Richard. People or "characters" that represent my thoughts/beliefs/feelings/experiences AT A CERTAIN TIME. Richard you are someone I met when I was in victim mentality or powerlessness. You were brought into my life at that time for a reason. But you no longer fit in my world because I'VE CHANGED INTO THE BUTTERFLY!! You fit at that time in my victim world...lol

    Time to say goodbye to you Richard! I wish you well on your journey...

    I wish to say I really enjoyed posting here.

    Shatabhisha I would enjoy communicating further with you should you desire or should anyone else desire further contact. I have an old gmail account I don't mind putting on here in case you're interested: speakerbryan@gmail.com

    It's just like Bob said. Some aspects of myself (people/characters) will change with me but most will remain old aspects reflecting my old thoughts/beliefs...it's time for me also to move on and stop reading Lauren's articles because nothing outside guides me. I create my world or project it from inside outwards. I HOLD ALL THE POWER

    Blessings to everyone...

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  128. There was a woman (another gem) who for years told me "Bryan you create your reality for 100%..you give out shit which is why you create shit!" and I didn't listen to her. I remember reading the Seth Books by Jane Roberts in the mid-1990s and it all made sense to me. Seth said "There are no exceptions..you either create your reality for 100% or not at all"..

    I took that attitude and quit my good paying government job in San Diego and went backpacking around Europe where I met my partner on a beach. People told me at the time it was impossible to get a tewerkstellingsvergunning (work permit) in The Netherlands but I said "I can do anything I want to" because I had that belief at that time. So I got my work permit and lived over a decade in Europe because I believed I could do anything.

    Funny how I got away from the belief "I create my reality for 100%" and I went in victim consciousness and powerlessness.

    What's funny is also how the "new age" community has changed with me and it turned into a community full of people looking for answers outside of themselves or blaming their lives on karma or divine will or symptoms or some other nonsense. People looking to others as gurus because those "gurus" claimed "expertise at having been on their spiritual journey for 20 years"..lol

    Most of the postings in here symbolize that victim thinking or powerless attitude I used to have. It's OLD like the clothing I have in my old bags. "It has worn out its' welcome!" lol

    Guess what happened on a macro level in the hologram folks?! Kevorkian died and what did Kevorkian symbolize? "Dr. Death" and assisted suicide. WEll that is such victim powerless mentality isn't it?! I used to go on and on about how I was gonna kill myself because of my victim mentality also. Kevorkian symbolizes victim mentality and the death of that mentality. lol. It symbolizes my TAKING BACK MY POWER AND REAL EYE'Sing that I AM THE KEY TO MY WORLD...

    I've tossed all beliefs for the most part now except only a couple which are working for me. And the one simple belief that used to be the GOLDEN RULE FOR THE NEW AGE COMMUNITY OF OLD: I CREATE MY REALITY FOR 100%. MY THOUGHTS AND BELIEFS CREATE MY REALITY. THAT STILL HOLDS PEOPLE. JUST LIKE READING AND WRITING IT'S TIME TO GET BACK TO BASICS.

    Seth is correct. You either create your reality for 100% or you don't! It's as simple as that! I'm not a victim. I'm the POWER AND CREATE MY REALITY FOR 100%!

    You know that person who claims "expertise" because they've been on their "spiritual quest" for 20 years. Those people show up in your hologram when you're playing victim or being powerless. LOL. Funny thing is those people don't show up in my world anymore...WHY? BECAUSE I AM THE POWER!

    This was my last post on here....Time to fly away little butterfly...

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  129. Bryan... this is the same pattern I've seen with you for a long, long time. When any of your beliefs are challenged, you first use demeaning language to judge the other person, then you leave the scene while claiming you know it all anyway. This is not the way a truly evolved person acts.

    Here is the centerpiece of your belief system (using your words): "And the one simple belief that used to be the GOLDEN RULE FOR THE NEW AGE COMMUNITY OF OLD: I CREATE MY REALITY FOR 100%. MY THOUGHTS AND BELIEFS CREATE MY REALITY. Seth is correct. You either create your reality for 100% or you don't! It's as simple as that! I'm not a victim. I'm the POWER AND CREATE MY REALITY FOR 100%!"

    What you don't understand about this, but which your reality has shown you is true over and over again, is that we do actually create our reality 100%, but NOT on this 3D level of existence! Our higher self creates our reality at the 5D level and beyond. Here at 3D, we experience that creation and grow through that experience. The only control we have here in 3D is how we respond to that which our higher self has created... and this level of response-ability is more than enough to learn to work with. It is your (3D Bryan's) ego who wishes to take credit for creating here, but that doesn't make it so.

    Fact is, for every positive experience Bryan thinks he created here in 3D, he created 100 negative experiences he hasn't cared for (poverty, homelessness, abuse, etc.). Would anyone really do that if they had any power to control at this 3D level? Of course not.

    From the level of our higher selves, we know exactly what we need to experience. Folks...do you all realize just how totally magnificent you actually are? Do you realize how much of your magnificence has been squeezed into this incredibly dense, compact 3D existence? Most of us have simply forgotten who we really are.
    Putting all else aside, I focus on three thoughts only:

    1. To remember to love myself, all the time, NO MATTER WHAT.

    2. To remember to trust my higher self, all the time, no matter what seems to be happening to me here in 3D. To KNOW I created my experience, but at a much higher level, for reasons I often cannot know... but which I must trust.

    3. 3D Richard has control of how he responds to that which is unfolding. I can guarantee NO particular outcome will result from this, other than a sense of contentment from knowing I responded in the highest and most loving way possible.

    As Rae said, something incredible lies just ahead. More will be revealed by our higher selves before long.

    Richard

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  130. Oh yeah...forgot to say..

    RAE!!!!

    GREAT POSTS!!!

    TIME TO HAVE FUN!!! LOL

    Sorry for another post but I'm posting on another website where I already have close to 13,000 views and almost 850 responses and someone posted the video by the group Imagination - Just An Illusion LOL

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=21VbKgOM0gg

    Cheerio folks!!

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  131. Oh Richard,

    I saw your post after I just posted LOL

    IT'S WHATEVER YOU BELIEVE IT IS RICHARD!

    I don't believe what you believe anymore Richard...my world is changing as a result. I'm not a victim of anything or anyone including my "higher self"

    3D, 9D, 20D...it's ALL BELIEFS and I SEE WHATEVER I BELIEVE OR THINK lol

    I AM MY HIGHER SELF RICHARD! I ALWAYS HAVE BEEN!! There is nothing outside myself that has POWER...only I HOLD THE POWER.

    Good luck my friend. I'm happy to say you are no longer welcome in my world.

    And on that note I've come here enough and need to shut my mouth...I won't be back here anymore...

    (waving goodbye...)

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  132. Rae, Bry;

    I've enjoyed reading and re-reading what you each have written. It's interesting how you both write of leaving the past behind and working from a clean slate.

    This is certainly reflected in the current astrology, which also corroborates Rae's suggestion that things will become more transparent in late September or early October. That is when Saturn finally clears its shadow after its annual retrogade period which is ending right now. This year's Saturn cycle is about reaping the consquences of actions taken and not taken, and about taking responsibility for creating our own reality, so that fits too.

    And Bry, I was thinking last night, in pondering your comments here, "I wish he'd post an e-mail address," so yes, I'll be in touch. I'm eager to exchange with others about positive transformations and experiences and am looking for web sites/blogs where that is the main emphasis. These are exciting times. All the best to Lauren and readers. xo

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  133. I was definitely spouting off a bit the other day. It's been a rough week at points. Mostly I am just fed up with things in general. But starting to see some hopeful changes.

    Slg8 - I think people like you and me have blamed ourselves for such a long time and thought "I must be doing something wrong." I really think we need to stop apologizing for how we are (sensitive, empathic, willing to look at ourselves in a critical light, etc etc) and start simply LOVING ourselves and accepting ourselves for how we are and stop apologizing to these jerkoffs who just want to shove their opinions down our throats and who rage at us if we don't agree with them. I'm encountering this in multiple areas of my life and I'm figuring out how to deal with it. Confronting them directly doesn't seem to work so I guess it is about disengaging. I will never be able to convince these people of my truth because they get off on proving me "wrong." They get power by convincing me that my views are inferior or incorrect.

    I just don't care about that stuff anymore. I'm feeling the way Khai is - why can't we just observe and explore and accept ourselves as SUBJECTIVE entities having different personal experiences without trying to find this forced "objective" agreed-upon reality that doesn't even actually exist? Bryan's and Ilse's experiences are completely valid, but why is there a need to try to draw conclusions about "how the universe works" from those and then impose those self-created conclusions upon other people as if they are "God's truth"? That is what I find unnecessary.

    Slg8, your truth is just as valid as anyone else's and you never need to apologize for it. Right now I am adopting the approach of "just because someone else doesn't like what I have to say, doesn't make me wrong." I spent most of this lifetime trying to keep other people "happy." I am going to make myself happy now. I hope you join me soon. :-)

    And Khai - fucking rock on my dear! Brilliant stuff coming out of you lately, even Richard agrees. ;-)

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  134. I'll now be taking bets that bryan is going to come back at some point in the future. Betting starts at $50. Come on, y'all. I need some money.

    What I'd like to know is if Bryan holds all the power over us as the most superior form of consciousness, then why does he keep manifesting us?

    Why does Bryan manifest people who think he's off his rocker? Does some part of Bryan think that he's lost his mind and so he's manifested us puny human forms to mirror back his glorious self doubt?

    Inquiring minds want to know...

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  135. DUH Khai, obviously it's *our* fault for not validating Bryan's views and reflecting him back the way he wants to see himself. WE are the fuckups here who can't do our jobs right! We are inept at affirming him. We really should just pull our heads out of our asses and RECOGNIZE how fucking brilliant and amazing he is and how lucky we are to have him here "guiding the way" for us and sharing his knowledge - if we only adapted it, surely we too could be as enlightened and awesome. Get with the program already! :-P Being yourself and speaking your truth and revealing your doubts and insecurities is for the unenlightened and it shows you are the devil, and may God help you if you don't jump on the bandwagon!

    It's really all kind of depressing, when you think about it...

    I'll admit it. I'm insecure. I'm insecure as hell. I don't know if I'm doing the right thing. I question myself. I feel inept. I feel like I can't handle this. I feel like I'm doing something "wrong." I put my foot in my mouth. I say shit I feel guilty and ashamed of later. I'm confused as hell and scared of everything going on and the fact I don't understand it.

    And I'm finally starting to love myself, and this part of me. I can love all of these aspects of me and be there for them and give them light and acceptance and it's okay if other people don't like it. It doesn't mean I'm wrong. It doesn't mean I need to hide. It just means they aren't ready for accepting those parts of themselves yet, but maybe they will someday. And maybe my doing so will start a trend, who knows...

    Love to the misfits! Love to the inept and the confused. Love to the ones willing to admit it. Love to the insecure. Love to the sad, the angry, the heartbroken. Love to those feeling broken by the process and frustrated as hell. Love to the ashamed and the hurt. Love to myself if there are those out there reading this and thinking "what the fuck is wrong with that loser?" or if they come on and insult me. Love to the pain of feeling rejected. Love to the so-called losers.

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  136. Mind & Heart Integration :D

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  137. OK I'm almost done with Phase 1 and I can feel myself bleeding into Phase 2.

    It's crazy. I feel like someone dunked me in water and then stuck me into an electrical socket.

    Also, I just lost my wallet and I'm giving up my broken car back to my parents who will fix it and use it to replace the car they just lost. So I basically just lost my identity and my mode of transportation. yaaaaayyy or something. I dont even know how to feel about it. I'm more concerned with what's next.

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  138. Wow! I love reading your blog - it has helped me feel more comfortable about what has been happening to me.

    I had a major case of overwhelming euphoria and blissfulness in March that lasted several weeks. By the time April rolled around I could barely work for I was so infatuated with my connection to all that is. All thoughts and understandings were radiating from my heart - everything was coming from so much love.

    Then, suddenly, I found myself waking in the night with painful jolts of "lightning" in my spine. I stated seeing people's auras. As I walked around I could see a waterfall of bright white light pouring into my crown and third eye chakras.

    One day, I realized I was no longer in control of my experiences and I started feeling a little freaked out...that day I was overwhelmed by nausea to the point that I had to make myself throw up - and it helped! It was a wonderful release that marked the beginning of my grounding expedition - I knew the tools I just hadn't been using them enough! Next I did some grounding meditations, I ate root vegetables for lunch and dinner, I took hot baths with mustard/salts, I did soothing yoga, I watched a TV drama and cried (crying felt really good!), I called a good friend and told her about my "crazy" experiences...all of these things brought me back to a welcome feeling of "normal."

    It took a few days, but soon I was feeling really good again and somewhat in control of myself - whatever that means.

    What is really interesting is that I went to my massage therapist a few days later to work out a crick in my neck/shoulder that had been plaguing me for weeks. As she worked on my shoulder she stopped for a second and said, "I don't want to freak you out but I can feel electricity running up my hand and arms from your shoulder!" Wow! Wow! Wow! Someone else could acknowledge and feel the electricity!

    Anyhow, thanks again! I really appreciate the feeling of connecting with you and others through this site.

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