The New Normal
In the last article I wrote I mentioned that we were in the throes of some unprecedented geomagnetic activity due to a significant global rebalancing spurred by a magnetic pole shift….or visa versa. I also mentioned that "most likely, these natural events will continue to take place and maybe even increase as the earth sustains her transition into higher consciousness."
Well today, the Pleiadian High Council confirmed that this year and onward there will definitely be an increase in geomagnetic activity…not that this is new news, just a confirmation that what we have been feeling recently around the world is related to the increased levels of light now capable of penetrating the planet thru/due to these various geomagnetic phenomenons: solar winds, solar flares, CME, etc.
The PHC want us to know that this level of intensity is actually the "new normal" that we will all eventually adapt to, and that these energies are here to stay.
This is helpful to understand because just as we are already seeing, in the coming days there will be an increase in volatile weather patterns in addition to human emotional uprisings, protests, revolts, etc., as mood swings border on the extreme due to these magnetic fluctuations. The light of truth is becoming impossible to resist and we will be witnessing this more and more on the global stage, just as it is becoming unbearable to live without the light of truth in our own lives. In other words, once we feel the blissful, transcendent connection to our power Source, we literally can't bear to live without it…this is becoming more and more clear to each of us.
And for those who are up to vibrational snuff and have been actively preparing (purifying) to journey into oneness, I am hearing that these intensifying energies will push us completely into the unity timeline which will enable true neutrality... feelings of peacefulness and objectivity in the way that we relate to the rising global pressures.
The Double Whammy
It's really no secret that I work to humanize the ascension process by grounding the information I receive into relatable earthbound experiences…and while also making a concerted effort to not glaze over the parts that suck... so I will definitely add that you would never have convinced me four days ago that feelings of peacefulness and objectivity could be my reality when (on Friday, 1/28) we endured two, nearly simultaneous, solar eruptions.
Depending on where we reside on the spectrum of consciousness…and therefore the spectrum of sensitivity…these solar storms can REALLY knock us on our human haunches. If you experienced heightened irritability, frustration and unrelenting pressure, hopelessness, unreasonably DEEP fatigue, anxiety, nausea, dizziness/vertigo, sinus sensitivity/pressure, headaches, extreme BLOATING, hunger fits, pain up and down the spinal cord, flu-like soreness/muscle aches all over and manic mood swings coupled with a general burning desire to unzip yourself from your fat-suit this past weekend…then most likely its related to this double whammy solar delight.
Yes, after more than a decade of being pounced on by the Great Central Sun without permission, we are apparently still up for a good ol' fashioned solar ass-whooping.
I mean, really? Who gets to say when this has gone too far, anyway?
The PHC say that the reason those of the warrior brigade (front line lightworkers/starseeds) are still getting knocked over (read: slaughtered) by these energies is simply because..drumroll please...we are not there yet. I literally can't find enough ways to say that we are stillllllllllll completing this grueling transition from old-world polarity-based consciousness to the unified field of collective oneness where we will (eventually) be stabilized thru the completion of biological regeneration.
And while the biological regeneration phase is not quite complete, I am still hearing good things about March. Here's a sneak peek:
For those who are preparing for the biological completion of their light body ascension into christed consciousness, there is a celestial-based, timed release from 3d dimensional polarity programming…a simultaneous entrance into 5th dimensional consciousness. It is written in the stars. -PHC
(Disclaimer: Keep in mind that when the uber-positive unseens sitting peacefully in non-duality say those famously "good things", this almost always translates into one thing for us mere mortals: OUCH! So be sure to release any expectations (if you can possibly have any left), surrender to what is and things will go a lot more smoothly, I assure you.)
Disclaimer aside, I do feel some forward movement beginning with this new moon on 2/2 (in the northeast), so I don't think we will be idly sitting around waiting to be tortured as usual. In fact, you might be feeling this new energy already, it's starting to almost feel like an actual ability to focus our intentions and make mental sense of all those light-packets of new information that we ingested the last two months but could not decode.
From what I can intuit, its almost like a slowly building momentum that will roll us into an even bigger momentum come the equinox. Tho sometimes we need just enough force to smash thru any remaining self-imposed (block) walls that we have built as false protection, so if at any point your inner humpty dumpty falls apart, just remember that often we have to break ourselves open before we can put the pieces back together again…and in the right order.
But for now, at least for the next few days, we are still sitting in stillness. (Luckily the new season of Idol is here to placate us for a bit longer: ))
And just to be clear here…stillness is definitely not the same thing as waiting. We are not, nor ever have been, "waiting" for anything but ourselves on this journey. Its not as if we sit around and wait for something outside of ourselves to save us, or to provide us the means to move forward as some may think...its more of a process of patience... of allowing every level of our being (spiritual, mental, emotional, physical) to align with the Source within us so that we may be fully supported to move forward and create effortlessly by leveraging the might of the universe with our divine will alone. The patience part is the mastery…the self-discipline that we have meticulously honed in preparation for the proper application of alchemy.
Remember too that patience with this process is not thru consciousness alone... it is a VERY physical process, a remapping of our human software and hardware and one that requires a tremendous amount of physical energy to sustain….hence the years of hibernation. We have to undergo a transformation that rearranges the fundamental molecular and cellular structure of our body's matter which aligns with and becomes in tune with the molecular structure of the universe.
We can't even begin to imagine the level of biological change that we are undergoing and so the most crucial practice of patience during these challenging times is always thru physical stillness. In other words, if your body is begging you to sleep, there is good reason. Best to heed to the call, otherwise, you will forcibly be knocked down.
Lightbody De-scension
The PHC want to talk to us about what they call our "11th phase lightbody ascension"... a term they use to describe the full integration of the spirit body as a result of the merging of masculine/feminine polarities and the activation of our new-human 5th dimensional circulatory system. I like to think of it more as lightbody de-scension because though we are technically a-scending in consciousness, we are actually de-scending in spirit…meaning we ground our spiritual self more fully into our lives and bodies thru the a-scension process and as a result of clearing our mental, emotional and physical goo.
It is the point on our climb where all levels of the light body have been created and activated and where cellular regeneration has been accomplished. This is also the level of development where we attain mastery and begin, individually and as a collective soul group, to come together to create our visions of heaven on earth.
What they would like for us to understand is that the light body is not very different from our physical body..it's a replica which is the same size (well, hopefully sans bloat ; )), shape and with the same features as the body that we inhabit in the physical dimensions, however, the light body carries the blueprint which contains the map for our physical perfection.
This part of us contains the information and the fuel (life force) required to activate all intersecting spin points, or vortices of energy necessary to attain full ascension. For us to activate these points and attain mastery, we have to pass thru, or graduate from, 11 levels of spiritual initiation…akin to a video game where we can only advance to the next level when we master the prior one.
Apparently, over the next two months, some of us will be preparing our bodies for a multitude of physical changes due to this transition…changes that will span many multidimensional aspects of our lives (i.e. changes in diet, sleep, desires, physical functioning,etc.) and ones that will offer us the ability to transcend our karmic miasms. A miasm, similar to the homeopathic definition, is explained to me as a collection of discordant energy that the body holds as cellular memory imprints of misaligned thought and emotion until it has been resolved (neutralized) and the lower four bodies can move beyond karmic patterning (the repetitive cycles of cause/effect).
As a result of moving beyond this patterning, the physical body is then capable to align fully with the light body template and enables an open transference of energy from the original divine blueprint. This light-encoded information from our divine blueprint then passes to and from the physical body in a sacred flow of geometry through various intersecting energetic transfer points.
As a result of this constant energy transfer, the physical vessel can be fed more fully with the food of Source (prana/Qui/Chi, etc) which sustains the radiance and pure health that many of us have been working for, for so very long. Essentially, the elimination of karmic miasms ensures the proper, unobstructed connection to our blueprint of perfection and by which dis-ease ceases to exist.
They reiterate that the energy (light) body that surrounds our physical body is one of perfect creation and alignment with Source. If over time the physical body is not fed the proper nutrition of light due to energetic blockages (miasms) then the body becomes malnourished and degeneration ensues. With the completion of light body ascension comes the ability to eliminate dis-ease entirely and replace it with the proper sustenance that the physical body was designed and intended to be nourished by.
As you might imagine, this will have many ramifications for your changing world and those who first possess the ability to house a fully created and activated light body will be the frontrunners of a new-human civilization. We will have more to say on this matter in the coming days. -PHC
What to Expect
If there ever was a time to let go and trust in what is unfolding within us and before us, that time is now. There is really no way to wrap our heads around this new territory that we are inhabiting... and we probably wouldn't want to anyway because it would ruin the fun of anticipation and the sheer element of surprise. We can however, wrap our hearts around what's ahead as we have undoubtedly become masters at feeling our way forward.
The PHC reminds us that ascension is non-negotiable..(you don't say)…it is a pre-ordained galactic, cosmic and celestial event that is already well underway and one that every living being on this earth signed up for, yet will all experience in our own divine way. They say that to resist this inevitibility is akin to resisting gravity... it exists regardless of our participation. Our participation, however, does make the process less uncomfortable.
Once we have a basic mental understanding of the process, however, we are always encouraged to let go and allow ourselves to be guided with complete faith in what lies ahead for each of us. This time is no different… there is no more planning here, only motivation thru divine inspiration, so we have to ignore any old-paradigm urges to try take control of the uncontrollable.
What shows up for us individually is always the same: the purest, most accurate reflection of our current level of consciousness and state of being.
For those who are aligned with and prepared for the changeover to the new timeline, this will come as no surprise and will create no resistance…it will seem like the next logical step. Those who have cleared enough will experience this next-level transition as a simple vibrational and incremental bump-up, just like every other upgrade. And for those with limitations (fears) left to clear, you will be gifted with a heightened awareness of exactly what those limitations are, as well as a fool-proof way to move beyond them.
As always, what is important to know is that we already know it all.
Peace out,
Lauren
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In the last article I wrote I mentioned that we were in the throes of some unprecedented geomagnetic activity due to a significant global rebalancing spurred by a magnetic pole shift….or visa versa. I also mentioned that "most likely, these natural events will continue to take place and maybe even increase as the earth sustains her transition into higher consciousness."
Well today, the Pleiadian High Council confirmed that this year and onward there will definitely be an increase in geomagnetic activity…not that this is new news, just a confirmation that what we have been feeling recently around the world is related to the increased levels of light now capable of penetrating the planet thru/due to these various geomagnetic phenomenons: solar winds, solar flares, CME, etc.
The PHC want us to know that this level of intensity is actually the "new normal" that we will all eventually adapt to, and that these energies are here to stay.
This is helpful to understand because just as we are already seeing, in the coming days there will be an increase in volatile weather patterns in addition to human emotional uprisings, protests, revolts, etc., as mood swings border on the extreme due to these magnetic fluctuations. The light of truth is becoming impossible to resist and we will be witnessing this more and more on the global stage, just as it is becoming unbearable to live without the light of truth in our own lives. In other words, once we feel the blissful, transcendent connection to our power Source, we literally can't bear to live without it…this is becoming more and more clear to each of us.
And for those who are up to vibrational snuff and have been actively preparing (purifying) to journey into oneness, I am hearing that these intensifying energies will push us completely into the unity timeline which will enable true neutrality... feelings of peacefulness and objectivity in the way that we relate to the rising global pressures.
The Double Whammy
It's really no secret that I work to humanize the ascension process by grounding the information I receive into relatable earthbound experiences…and while also making a concerted effort to not glaze over the parts that suck... so I will definitely add that you would never have convinced me four days ago that feelings of peacefulness and objectivity could be my reality when (on Friday, 1/28) we endured two, nearly simultaneous, solar eruptions.
Depending on where we reside on the spectrum of consciousness…and therefore the spectrum of sensitivity…these solar storms can REALLY knock us on our human haunches. If you experienced heightened irritability, frustration and unrelenting pressure, hopelessness, unreasonably DEEP fatigue, anxiety, nausea, dizziness/vertigo, sinus sensitivity/pressure, headaches, extreme BLOATING, hunger fits, pain up and down the spinal cord, flu-like soreness/muscle aches all over and manic mood swings coupled with a general burning desire to unzip yourself from your fat-suit this past weekend…then most likely its related to this double whammy solar delight.
Yes, after more than a decade of being pounced on by the Great Central Sun without permission, we are apparently still up for a good ol' fashioned solar ass-whooping.
I mean, really? Who gets to say when this has gone too far, anyway?
The PHC say that the reason those of the warrior brigade (front line lightworkers/starseeds) are still getting knocked over (read: slaughtered) by these energies is simply because..drumroll please...we are not there yet. I literally can't find enough ways to say that we are stillllllllllll completing this grueling transition from old-world polarity-based consciousness to the unified field of collective oneness where we will (eventually) be stabilized thru the completion of biological regeneration.
And while the biological regeneration phase is not quite complete, I am still hearing good things about March. Here's a sneak peek:
For those who are preparing for the biological completion of their light body ascension into christed consciousness, there is a celestial-based, timed release from 3d dimensional polarity programming…a simultaneous entrance into 5th dimensional consciousness. It is written in the stars. -PHC
(Disclaimer: Keep in mind that when the uber-positive unseens sitting peacefully in non-duality say those famously "good things", this almost always translates into one thing for us mere mortals: OUCH! So be sure to release any expectations (if you can possibly have any left), surrender to what is and things will go a lot more smoothly, I assure you.)
Disclaimer aside, I do feel some forward movement beginning with this new moon on 2/2 (in the northeast), so I don't think we will be idly sitting around waiting to be tortured as usual. In fact, you might be feeling this new energy already, it's starting to almost feel like an actual ability to focus our intentions and make mental sense of all those light-packets of new information that we ingested the last two months but could not decode.
From what I can intuit, its almost like a slowly building momentum that will roll us into an even bigger momentum come the equinox. Tho sometimes we need just enough force to smash thru any remaining self-imposed (block) walls that we have built as false protection, so if at any point your inner humpty dumpty falls apart, just remember that often we have to break ourselves open before we can put the pieces back together again…and in the right order.
But for now, at least for the next few days, we are still sitting in stillness. (Luckily the new season of Idol is here to placate us for a bit longer: ))
And just to be clear here…stillness is definitely not the same thing as waiting. We are not, nor ever have been, "waiting" for anything but ourselves on this journey. Its not as if we sit around and wait for something outside of ourselves to save us, or to provide us the means to move forward as some may think...its more of a process of patience... of allowing every level of our being (spiritual, mental, emotional, physical) to align with the Source within us so that we may be fully supported to move forward and create effortlessly by leveraging the might of the universe with our divine will alone. The patience part is the mastery…the self-discipline that we have meticulously honed in preparation for the proper application of alchemy.
Remember too that patience with this process is not thru consciousness alone... it is a VERY physical process, a remapping of our human software and hardware and one that requires a tremendous amount of physical energy to sustain….hence the years of hibernation. We have to undergo a transformation that rearranges the fundamental molecular and cellular structure of our body's matter which aligns with and becomes in tune with the molecular structure of the universe.
We can't even begin to imagine the level of biological change that we are undergoing and so the most crucial practice of patience during these challenging times is always thru physical stillness. In other words, if your body is begging you to sleep, there is good reason. Best to heed to the call, otherwise, you will forcibly be knocked down.
Lightbody De-scension
The PHC want to talk to us about what they call our "11th phase lightbody ascension"... a term they use to describe the full integration of the spirit body as a result of the merging of masculine/feminine polarities and the activation of our new-human 5th dimensional circulatory system. I like to think of it more as lightbody de-scension because though we are technically a-scending in consciousness, we are actually de-scending in spirit…meaning we ground our spiritual self more fully into our lives and bodies thru the a-scension process and as a result of clearing our mental, emotional and physical goo.
It is the point on our climb where all levels of the light body have been created and activated and where cellular regeneration has been accomplished. This is also the level of development where we attain mastery and begin, individually and as a collective soul group, to come together to create our visions of heaven on earth.
What they would like for us to understand is that the light body is not very different from our physical body..it's a replica which is the same size (well, hopefully sans bloat ; )), shape and with the same features as the body that we inhabit in the physical dimensions, however, the light body carries the blueprint which contains the map for our physical perfection.
This part of us contains the information and the fuel (life force) required to activate all intersecting spin points, or vortices of energy necessary to attain full ascension. For us to activate these points and attain mastery, we have to pass thru, or graduate from, 11 levels of spiritual initiation…akin to a video game where we can only advance to the next level when we master the prior one.
Apparently, over the next two months, some of us will be preparing our bodies for a multitude of physical changes due to this transition…changes that will span many multidimensional aspects of our lives (i.e. changes in diet, sleep, desires, physical functioning,etc.) and ones that will offer us the ability to transcend our karmic miasms. A miasm, similar to the homeopathic definition, is explained to me as a collection of discordant energy that the body holds as cellular memory imprints of misaligned thought and emotion until it has been resolved (neutralized) and the lower four bodies can move beyond karmic patterning (the repetitive cycles of cause/effect).
As a result of moving beyond this patterning, the physical body is then capable to align fully with the light body template and enables an open transference of energy from the original divine blueprint. This light-encoded information from our divine blueprint then passes to and from the physical body in a sacred flow of geometry through various intersecting energetic transfer points.
As a result of this constant energy transfer, the physical vessel can be fed more fully with the food of Source (prana/Qui/Chi, etc) which sustains the radiance and pure health that many of us have been working for, for so very long. Essentially, the elimination of karmic miasms ensures the proper, unobstructed connection to our blueprint of perfection and by which dis-ease ceases to exist.
They reiterate that the energy (light) body that surrounds our physical body is one of perfect creation and alignment with Source. If over time the physical body is not fed the proper nutrition of light due to energetic blockages (miasms) then the body becomes malnourished and degeneration ensues. With the completion of light body ascension comes the ability to eliminate dis-ease entirely and replace it with the proper sustenance that the physical body was designed and intended to be nourished by.
As you might imagine, this will have many ramifications for your changing world and those who first possess the ability to house a fully created and activated light body will be the frontrunners of a new-human civilization. We will have more to say on this matter in the coming days. -PHC
What to Expect
If there ever was a time to let go and trust in what is unfolding within us and before us, that time is now. There is really no way to wrap our heads around this new territory that we are inhabiting... and we probably wouldn't want to anyway because it would ruin the fun of anticipation and the sheer element of surprise. We can however, wrap our hearts around what's ahead as we have undoubtedly become masters at feeling our way forward.
The PHC reminds us that ascension is non-negotiable..(you don't say)…it is a pre-ordained galactic, cosmic and celestial event that is already well underway and one that every living being on this earth signed up for, yet will all experience in our own divine way. They say that to resist this inevitibility is akin to resisting gravity... it exists regardless of our participation. Our participation, however, does make the process less uncomfortable.
Once we have a basic mental understanding of the process, however, we are always encouraged to let go and allow ourselves to be guided with complete faith in what lies ahead for each of us. This time is no different… there is no more planning here, only motivation thru divine inspiration, so we have to ignore any old-paradigm urges to try take control of the uncontrollable.
What shows up for us individually is always the same: the purest, most accurate reflection of our current level of consciousness and state of being.
For those who are aligned with and prepared for the changeover to the new timeline, this will come as no surprise and will create no resistance…it will seem like the next logical step. Those who have cleared enough will experience this next-level transition as a simple vibrational and incremental bump-up, just like every other upgrade. And for those with limitations (fears) left to clear, you will be gifted with a heightened awareness of exactly what those limitations are, as well as a fool-proof way to move beyond them.
As always, what is important to know is that we already know it all.
Peace out,
Lauren
ThinkWithYourHeart.net
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beautiful. Love the explanation of last friday night's double solar flares. I was in total meltdown mode begging to be beamed up...done, done done! Thank you for letting me know that I was not alone in that. Glad that March offers something..I have been feeling March for a time and do believe that Feb offers some movement at least! Thank God.
ReplyDeleteAs always, I enjoy your updates Lauren. thank you
Amazingly accurate. Mahalo for making this process so much simpler to understand. Your timing is impeccable.
ReplyDeleteThank you Laura! Very clear and
ReplyDeletetimely once again! You have such
a wonderful way of telling us all the
great and not so great events that
we are experiencing now. I love
reading your posts!
Much Love,
Devi
Loren, a huge thanks for what you do. I will say that while I believe I had already figured much of this out (not much choice really), I'm going to have to have a chat with my 'soul' who decided this would be 'fun'. Knowing me, before I came here, I said 'Bring it on', but man, living the reality is just a wee bit rough (can you say understatement!!!) I am beginning to hate looking 'forward' to some future date or event that will make it all better - now would work:) You keep me sane, you really do!
ReplyDeleteoh holy hell was this weekend a shitfest.
ReplyDeletethanks for the update. it came just in time. DX
x_x
i'm totally fucked right now and being told to let go of hiding and being a shut in at my dad's. they keep telling me to get a fucking job and participate in the world. even a tarot reading i got told me this.
i'm so fucking scared of getting trapped and drowning though. it's like that panic i get when i first go underwater while scuba diving. you just dont feel like you're strapped into the gear and you get scared that you're gonna drown 80 feet down.
Wow, no one can spell your name right apparently! Hehehe I kid, I kid...
ReplyDeleteCan't believe you posted again so soon, I feel BLESSED... Funny I barely noticed the solar flares last Friday because the symptoms you mentioned occur with me on pretty much a day-to-day basis, one thing I did notice though is that I felt somewhat thin on Friday (been working out, plus my PMS had just ended, hooray!) and then on Saturday I was bloated like a huge blimp and it was like, WTF? Hormonally I am supposed to be in my LEAST-bloated phase of the month!
Any news on when the fat actually falls off? Because when I say "thin" I mean more in shape and less jiggly than anything else - not weighing less (I wish!).
I am feeling kinda manic right now which is weird/unusual for me. Last night I was actually feeling good! Today has been rough though. I had to lie down in the afternoon as I usually do and I did have a weird feeling of polarities integrating in me and then I fell asleep and woke up all confused. My days are so weird and creepy and just fly by without my accomplishing anything other than cooking dinner because I enjoy it for some reason. Then tonight I've been feeling angry/frustrated/depressed/betrayed/fatigued/lonely/bored/sad/feeble/incompetent/pathetic/anxious, but reading your post helped a lot.
Here's my big question. If ascension is happening to everyone on Earth, then why aren't the people around me showing any real signs of experiencing it? I'd say maybe 2-3% show some minor signs (questioning reality, bored with the status quo, feeling a little tired, etc) but NOTHING compared to what I go through, at least that I'm aware of! And with most of my family members it's just business as usual and they judge me for being so weird and useless! What gives?
Also I think that any relaxed, couch-sitting unseen who, in the future, decides they wish to incarnate into physicality, should have to feel/experience what WE all went through before they can, so they'll appreciate us and what we've sacrificed!!!! Oh jeez now I sound like my mother...
Hi Ava - this has been my question all along, if we are all ascending why do I not see it in others around me - except for the subtle things you mentioned - but not full-blown like we are, not life-changing (debilitating).....I still don't know the answer to this, do you?!
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Thank you for confirming what was going on this past weekend! I should be used to this by now, but this weekend was particularly brutal for headaches and nausea that came out of nowhere. It's good to know I'm not the only one (though I wouldn't wish it on anyone! ;o) Thanks for all you do...
ReplyDeleteThank you very much Lauren!!!
ReplyDeleteSo timely your info. I am in the group who still feels fear and I feel glad to know that prove will be for dummies, so to say (or so I understood).
On friday, in was kind of hard but in saturday I got confused and started playing in my head many of my miasmas (victim), just to realize that there was no-thing to worry about and that my fears were playing against.
I certainly thought those things were "true", and none were! So surrealistic! Amazing!!!
Eleven steps? Just like in november: probando, probando, 1, 2, 3... ???
Sooooo! As you say: this is not something we can choose. This is something pre-arranged before taking this body or ours in this life.
5 mins. ago, I was kind of feeling this bloating in my stomach, and now I know why this happens (beeter knowing than ignoring).
Thank you again for this effort of writing this wonderful service of keeping us all in track, updated!
Los saludo a todos con cariño y con compasión, digamos!
Besos,
rín
Thank you so much for being you and sharing this with us!
ReplyDeleteThank You Lauren!!!
ReplyDeleteYou are the best Lauren, thank you!!
ReplyDeletemy anxiety has been at an all time high the last few months or more, sat and sun were actually 2 days that i felt pretty good/calm in a while, and i was happy, but then monday morning came and i was an emotional mess, i have had some headaches, and nausea, body pain, had alot of those severe fatigue episodes within the last month or 2, not sure if my timeline is off on experiencing things, i guess i still question if im one of the people that is moving along with the pack here, ive been following these reports from various people over the years, and i seem to be experiencing alot of what is said... so im hoping im there :)...guess that is some fear huh? :/
ReplyDeletei really enjoy your blogs Lauren.... thank you
I was thrilled to see you post so soon, too......but figured it had something to do with the solar flares. I have really been wired up/down-loaded big time, this last 10 days; more than usual over the last 3 months. And for some reason, I woke up one morning and 'decided' I would be a good girl and please 'others' by going to get a physical. I haven't been to the doctor in over 20 years and had no intention of ever doing so....i'm an ex-RN. The office visit resulted with my butt in the hospital with a BP of 230/140. They just stared at me as if I had landed from another planet and wondered how I could be walking and talking. I felt fine, except for the usual buzzing, body aches, irritability, head aches, yeast infection, and lethargy.......nothing new. They did lots of tests and everything was 'normal'...Ha! Ha!
ReplyDeletePut me on medication that brought the BP back to their version of 'normal' so they could feel better, and sent me home. After 5 days on drugs ( i abhor medication) and feeling like a walking zombie, I said 'to hell with it'. I decided that I am going to live my life the way I want to, regardless of any other 'group fear' consciousness. I will continue Being who I am and doing what I came here to do, until I decided I've had enough of it..........and I'm getting pretty darn close!!!! Seriously, I know we are just about finished with all of this. Hang in there.
Thank you again. Just when I think I am not on the right path you bring me back to reality. Oh.... and this would explain why I have been so tired recently.
ReplyDeleteAgain thanks.
Hey Christie...so glad you brought this up! I think this is good information to share...
ReplyDeleteI too had a very similar experience last year when I went to a chiropractor...she was testing my adrenal function thru blood pressure and was REALLY concerned at how high it was. I blocked out the number, but she said it was scary high. I felt the usual solar flare symptoms, but nothing out of the ordinary...but what's ordinary, right?
Interestingly enough, it was the day after a major solar flare and so I told her in 2 days I would "normalize" and not to worry. Lo and behold, in 2 days I went back and my blood pressure returned to below normal. She was confused as hell, but intrigued as well.
Then she told me that one of my "beauty marks" may be pre-cancerous and I realized that there was just no way to bridge our worlds. Needless to say that was my last visit : ((
OMG is all I can say. I spent the entire weekend on my bathroom floor or in the bathtub. Looking back on it I am amazed that I once again managed to pull my self through it.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the timely push to keep on trucking... Got. To. Be.... Closer than we were last week?? LoL Not even funny anymore I know.
Love and Hugs to you all.
Thank you so much Lauren for this update and encouragement! This weekend was also really tough for me but enough grace was there to get through it. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm starting to really feel an acceleration for upgrades, particularly near the back of my head, for the pineal gland I assume. My dreams the past few nights have been really bizarre, and felt truly multi-dimensional. Last night I dreamed that the sun's companion star (I sensed) was suddenly visible next to the sun from Earth's perspective. There seemed to be a very sacred geometric alignment taking place with christed energy flowing through, possibly from other dimensions or worlds. My brother has also recently had a dream where a large planet suddenly 'appears' in our sky that was there all along. It was very interesting to say the least. We'll see if any of these type of events occur soon! :)
What a blessing you are. Your messages are alway right on and you have helped me so very
ReplyDeletemuch. I am one of those still holding onto some
fear, but through your help I have learned to
acknowlege it, accept it and am beginning to
be able to transmute it - You are love and I thank you for your generosity - Love & Blessings!
OMG! I was wondering wtf was going on with me. Solar Flares?! I started full on pmsing around that time and since but it's waaay too early. But it's the worst this time, BLOATing, odd cravings, nausea, tender breasts, headache, cranky, mood swings, and FATIGUE. And then dealing with more old karmic ish and detoxing on top of all of that!!! I could just scream.... but I don't have the energy. This post, Lauren is much appreciated and it resonated on so many levels...thanks Universe/Us! :)
ReplyDeleteSo much synchronicity and sharing. So close to what we've been building in our lives and in our past/parallel lives and in our sleep and in our blogging and in all our conscious and unconscious moments. So close and so less separate.
ReplyDeleteI'll say it again, as it seems it's all I've got when it comes to responding to the enormous generosity and clarity of these posts: Lauren, whatever would we do without you?
Ava, love your energy and your issues, which sound very familiar and personal, which may or may not be odd since I'm probably old enough to be your grandmother in this lifetime! And regarding your mother . . . don't we all channel our mothers to some degree? No one ever loves us more, regardless of what form "mother" takes.
And looking at Trish's response ("I'm going to have a chat with my soul who said this was going to be fun . . . and before I came here I said bring it on"), I think, "Well, that's just me."
Rin, I'm so glad you're here. There's something about your posts that help me feel connected to the global heart.
What a treat this has been reading through the comments, particularly considering how incapacitating the energies have been lately. And, Lauren and Christie, you remind me why I don't take the medical approach.
Slg8, you are so moving along with the pack.
But you have to ask yourself, "Do I really want to be a part of this motley crew?" (That was a joke, by the way. When it comes to naked words on paper without benefit of facial gestures and vocal nuances, sometimes you have to explain that you're making a joke!)
Love from kay to all fellow travelers, named and unnamed. Mys. just popped in as I was about to post this. Thanks Universe/Us!
I so relate to all of this and everyones comments! I have had a ruff last week, a turn in the road and a complete reworking of sorts. I can feel the physical effects especially the last few days. Today I took a walk which generally gives you energy, but when I came home I was so fatigued I just passed out! The sleep felt gooooood :)
ReplyDeleteMys.Terious : I totally feel you on what your going through especially> "more old karmic ish and detoxing on top of all of that". Aint that karmic miasms ish a B*tch! Especially when that karmic stuff is likely from many Past lives... There are moments when I feel anxious, down, or like come on really??? Why am I putting up with this sh*t?? And how long is this galactic soul blueprint alignment gona take?? I can be impatient at times, but come on! (lol)
But then I remind myself that all is in Divine Order and exactly where it needs to be, and how lucky are we to be here now and have the tools and awareness to help us with this amazing Destiny! =) Thank you God and Angels!
And posts like these help alot! Thank you Lauren!
Hang in there everyone! Much Love 2 All~
Hi!
ReplyDeleteJust desided to try to be a "blogger" now too.
Want to say, that I always enjoy to read Laurens Posts. It´s always a lot to laugh, with her black humor. I´m on this journey too since am... years...
greetings from Vienna - Austria
So, will see this post will work.
Smiley
ohh!!! it worked!!!!
ReplyDeleteI´m a real blogger now ;-)
never did this before.
Aloha kindred spirits. Thanks for joining me on this wild ride. The energetic intensity is amazing and I am just attempting to notice the transitions and go with it. For an almost 60 yr old, I was feeling very PMSy and my bloated belly feels like pregnancy. Yeah, right!
ReplyDeleteThanks as always Lauren for your insights and humor. Also, I totally avoid allopathic western doctors for the same reasons. We are just on different wavelengths and I can feel healing waves from our spirit guardians.
March is feeling very good to me also. I think the ancestors have been whispering sweet somethings in our ears. Looking forward to Oneness. I can't imagine how 3D thinkers are handling all this turmoil and transformation. Love n hugs, Kamalani...xox
o.k. so. Last Thursday evening, when I went in bed. I got my "migraine". (which acompanies me since some years now). It always feels like some energyhands are working on my head. Like an Operation during i´m in full conciousness. The energy then flow through all my body, back, neck, stomach, get sick, through out. it always takes about 2 - 4 days. sunday i felt already a bit better. but i´m still all the time feeling my body "working" "Energy" working on my body. Yesterday evening, laying in bed, I had the intuition to tell all my cells to release the rests of fear and old negative emotions. Some old pictures come up from events that hurt a lot, and from which i had some trauma, so i watched this pictures and felt the rest of negative emotions about it. Especially in my abdomen, bladder-area i could feel some energetic blockade. so I asked this part of my body, what it would like to tell me, and then i felt this old emotional trauma and pictures of this. so it could co. Also then i talked to my cells, in every part of my body so that now it is time to release all old stuff, i told them your real substance is pure love and everything else can go now.
ReplyDeleteit fits a lot of what Lauren wrote above, about the body and the miasm. Whenn I do something like this release yesterday evening, i always to it intuitionally, not planned, i lay in bed and it just comes to my mind, it is there now to do.
greetings
smiley
@Ava I know what you mean about others sailing through. I think it's all to do with LOA and our desire for 'more' than just what we 'see'. We want to expand in leaps and bounds and some people just haven't 'woken up' yet. But when they do they will shoot through it all becuase the energy is so much faster these days.
ReplyDeleteI don't get much in the way symptoms anymore, not as much as I used to. I apply more LOA to it all and I'm not waiting for external change to change me, I'm changing myself through thoughts and feelings. I find this has helped me a lot. The less resistance I have, the less the external enviroment can control how I fell, physically and mentally. Oh I still get the odd tired day, but nothing like I used to.
Finally thanks to Lauren for a lovely blog!
MWAH!
Thank you Lauren, and everyone.
ReplyDeleteThe "volatile weather patterns" are certainly manifesting here in Oz, not least in the form of a massive cyclone heading - once again - for our poor, dear Queensland.
For me, the last weekend brought - instead of the usual physical symptoms - a monumental and profound emotional/karmic unzipping which (I hope) will now allow some movement toward finally releasing ages-old patterns of unsatisfactory relationships.....
So good to know that there are more of us around the world.
Love you all!
Let's do this thing!!!
.. what I feel for the next weeks, month to come for me personally.
ReplyDeleteIn autum I did some inner process to find the motto for the next months till may.
So for February for meit was the word "unfolding". As the butterfly is a symbol that always accompanies me, I have the picture in my head that january was still somehow in a cocoon. For me I felt already stronger in my body and could also in the good days make some sports and there where two weeks when the creativity was really flowing quite strong. But my inner knowing tells me that this flow of creativity will be at least seven times higher and stronger within the next time. Since two weeks I´m in this cocoon again. With nearly no movement. February feels to me to be a month with even more unfolding then January was. After this latest upgrade last week´s (which I´m still in the middle of, but at the endphase) it feels to me that it will bring a jump in creativity flow. That means that February will be already a quite stronger using of the new tools then January. For example two weeks ago, I had a day where my inner knowing that I will write 25 pages for my book, and I couldn´t quite believe that I can write so many pages on just one day, but I said O.k. let´s do. We well see. And really I almost did the pages my inner knowing told me. It was just two pages less then it told me. And the missing pages where the thing, where I thouhgt, Oh, can this be? This is increabile, so much on just one day? So it was the part in me that blocked the whoule quantum, because it felt so incredible. But it showed me what is possible, and in the next flow, I will have already the trust that 25 pages are easy to do, and so it can be even more and in still more flow. Like a learning process with now this new experience. So every experience, brings me to more trust and a even better result the next time. So February will be an upgrade in using the new energies in a new way with even more trust, and this, I guess, will hold on the next month. Like steps. Back to the butterfly. February is for me the month where the butterfly leaves its cocoon and looks in the world. A little bit tagger, the wings still a little bit crumpled-up. but trying to make the first movements with the wings. Not yet flying but moving out of the cocoon. March for me was the month (when i did this motto process in autumn), where I turned around looked back on all the last month and told my "me" in October, "Hei when you are here. it will be really wicked. The body felt great in this positions and quite strong. And until May.... oh..gosh..!
So some comments of my inner feelings...
greetings to you all!!
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Lauren, amazing update as usual! Spooky how I know when you’ve updated, like so many readers.
ReplyDeleteIt’s great that you have the courage to be honest in your blog updates. You cannot sugar-coat news in the hope of avoiding negative reactions to what you may write about. Too many spiritual writers make that mistake. They’re not grounded and this is reflected in their work. One gets the impression that they live in la-la land and that’s not a healthy place for writers or readers to live.
It’s very interesting that you write about the correlation between macro-Earthly changes (geomagnetic changes which result in severe weather conditions (Australian cyclones, American storms, etc.)) and micro-human changes (severe mood swings) because it’s confirmation to me that two are becoming one, polarity-based consciousness is ascending to unity-based consciousness. I experienced a massive mood swing a couple of days ago. I got unbelievably angry over something comparatively trivial. This is the second time that this has happened to me within the last six months. One would think that I would have had the intelligence to make the connection after what happened last time (slaps forehead in a Homer Simpson-like Doh-Way) but I didn’t until I read your latest update. How stupid am I?
It’s interesting that you write about a “blissful, transcendent connection to our power Source” because over the last couple of months I have been experiencing spurts of this – it’s the same energy that I experienced when my seventh chakra was opened in 2000. I know that this is a preview of what’s to come. Can you imagine the impact this is going to have on the world when millions of human beings reach this level of consciousness? Conflict will be impossible because the polarity will have been transcended.
The repeating telepathic motif from the last month has been the merging of the lower-self and the higher-self. I also keep thinking about our atomic components – proton (positive), electron (negative) and neutron (neutral). My focus is drawn to the neutron. It’s message to me is, “there is a third way”. Our personal and collective gateway is through the neutron. Another motif is the transition from “love of power to power of love.”
One of the psychological blocks that I’ve had great problems with in the past has finally been identified and cleared. My ego developed a spiritual martyr/vanity complex since my crown chakra was opened in 2000. (It’s a common problem for a mystic that’s been written about at length.) Two words can perfectly sum it up - spiritual vanity. Physical vanity is one of the ugliest flaws in human nature but spiritual vanity is so much worse! It’s a lesson that’s taken me an entire year to learn and it’s been a painful lesson to learn! I’m too embarrassed to write details. There’s someone who posts on Lauren’s comments who is also afflicted with the same problem. I’m not going to mention names because unfortunately it’s a lesson that has to be learned through personal experience.
Love, LW.
Thanks Lauren...for the detailed explanations about how people are feeling the changes in energy differently it helps.:D much love Namaste
ReplyDeleteThanks Lauren...I follow your blog and I must say the information is always timely and spot on with what I am experiencing! I also feel a strong connection to the Pleiades...That is comforting...I always reach a point where I need the support from knowing that others are experiencing similar phenomena...recalibrations, adjustments, complete knock down makeovers.... Just a quick question though, I seem to be experiencing alot with the emerging of the new well of dreams chakra (back, bottom of skull)...anyone else experiencing this?
ReplyDeleteDear Lauren,
ReplyDeleteYou are right in that this is totally out of our control and divinely pre-ordained. When I find myself in that place of fear and worried about where my next meal is going to come from (as I try to stand in what I know is my divine call), I have reached out in search of support for getting a "real job".....well guess what.....the universe is simply not allowing this. Professional, upstanding men in the community who make a living helping people with career search, etc. and people I know very well, one as a close friend have totally blown me off. I call, they don't return my calls. I email, no response. Then if they do respond, our schedules for meeting simply don't match. Now, I have simply surrendered to the fact that I am NOT supposed to get a real job, I AM supposed to be doing what I think I'm supposed to be doing as my Divine call and all is in perfect order. Now....to explain all this to my husband! ;)
Thank you for your on-going support through this time of transition.
Lauri Lumby
Authentic Freedom Ministries
Oshkosh, WI
http://yourspiritualtruth.com
Thanks Lauren. Well put..@sgarifallia..Yes.
ReplyDeleteWhisper: I'm actually relieved to hear you talk this way because in your last couple comments I was thinking, "has he REALLY transcended all his fear? Because I certainly haven't! Can it be true?" and now I see you are struggling with an issue that I am too... except I'm probably like 10 years older so it's that much more embarrassing for me to live at home right now, heh - I think we are confronting similar energies blocks, fears about dependency/not being able to rely on self to provide. Where do we go when we are such an energetic mismatch to the world and no new level of "job" really exists for us yet (that will feel good, anyway)? For me I have always been terrified of parental disapproval, etc... anyway if you want to discuss that one more, I'm open to it!
ReplyDeleteChristie: interesting stuff, really enjoyed your comment! You should've seen my folks' faces yesterday when I told them I haven't had any health insurance for the past 5 months. Now they REALLY think I'm "unstable." They are confused because most of the time I seem pretty rational but then I'm also very emotional, I've found it's easier to let them chalk this all up to clinical depression and anxiety (i.e. "she has a chemical imbalance in her brain") than try to explain anything about this process or to say, "well maybe my depression has roots in how the world is right now" because then they really get upset and say, "well how do you expect to change the world! Especially since you do nothing all day, you should be getting out there and volunteering, etc." It is purely an exercise in frustration and also brings up the aforementioned terror of parental disapproval. Anyway I went ahead and bought catastrophic health insurance again. I'm not perfect and if I don't get it within 6 months I can't reapply or something, and that's not a risk I'm emotionally ready to absorb at this point...
Mys: I think being female and going through this process is a double whammy, we already have to deal with such crazy hormones and emotional/physical changes each month! Oy
Kay: whatever your biological age may be, you don't feel old to me and I never would have guessed it! Mother issues are tough... I think they have always been the core for me... I felt so much sadness when you said "no one loves us more"... I still have stuff to "unpack" in this area... thanks so much for your words!
Smiley: About 11 years ago, as a teenager I had the thought of going into a cocoon... if I'd known I would be in it this long I never would have bothered! And my whole concept of it was much more shallow, mostly I thought about losing weight, haha. I still like the imagery though, thanks for sharing!
Catherin: interesting theories! Maybe the process isn't able to start until the mind is open to considering the possibility, and many people haven't experienced enough... well, enough suffering yet! I was questioning for awhile, but then in 2007 the panic attacks started and I tried EVERYTHING medical/natural to fix them (no luck), I also started having these amazing synchronicities, but a close friend's near-death accident is what really got me on board. I guess I just wonder why those sort of obvious energetic situations haven't happened to more people yet... maybe that's what all of the current world dramas/disasters are for?
LW: When you wrote that, I immediately wondered, "does s/he mean me?" Hahaha which probably means I'm not, plus I know what you're talking about and I've been that way at times I'm sure but I am not able to channel, I just feel energies and since emotions are generally so downplayed and dismissed as "irrational" by our culture, it's hard to feel superior when you're an emotional processor. :-P
Wow this was like marathon comment response. You all wrote such great things!!! Ahhhh
Spot-on, Lauren! Just when I thought 2011 would start all wonderful and new...I found myself last week a hormonal (that is, ill-timed hormonal) screaming BANSHEE, having a tantrum because of people in my world and screaming at my guides like I was back in...when was that last meltdown?...whenever...I don't have a memory anymore. Of course, at the same time, I found myself staring, horrified, at my reflection in a dressing room mirror. What was I thinking, trying on clothes last weekend?!!!!
ReplyDeleteAnd then Feb 1st came and everything changed (except the fat part)....just hoping it lasts (the calm, not the fat).
Speaking of adrenal function...my TSH keeps going up; my GP keeps trying to get me on synthetic T4 (no way!) so I'm finally going to an osteopath next week to, hopefully, get to the bottom of this. TSH is actually a pituatary hormone...I am convinced this is all part of the ascension/body upgrade process and I am going to bravely broach the subject with my new D.O. Your newest energy update gives me courage to do so! Thanks, Lauren. Blessings, all.
ReplyDeleteLauren,
ReplyDeleteLOVED your post, as always. Especially the part, "As always, what is important to know is that we already know it all".
So, no worry, no fear, just happy. I know what I am doing. PERFECTLY ... just can't remember it.
Great job with the posts,
Joanie
Thankyou to all of the bloggers!!! I haven't read the blog posts lately....usually just read Lauren's update, but felt the desire to do so this time. Soooo happy that I did...Just more confirmation for me.
ReplyDeleteTo those of us here who are experiencing the 'can't get a job-don't want a job' issues; YOU are clearing some of the oldest karmic miasms on this planet!!! You are such a powerful healer to this planet. I know as I am one of them. You stand in the forefront and accept some of the highest 'disdain' from others, imaginable. Your experiences are a direct response to the belief that says, " If you are not working/producing/providing some type of product/service to another, then you are UNWORTHY." This belief is huge and stretches for thousands of years through our past cellular programming. It connects very strongly to to the granddaddy core belief(lie) of the universe "You are not an authority unto your Self and must seek your answers outside of your Self." We are here to transmute/nullify these 'less than True' miasms that have been handed down celluarly, generation to generation for thousands of years. We are not more or less special than any other human on this planet...........but we are very different and we know it. Most of us reading Lauren's blogs, have awaken to our role to some extent or another.
Mother issues are huge right now. And as a mother and grandmother my self, mother issues are not always what we think they are. A good portion of the 'mothers' on this planet, past and present, had no understanding of unconditional Love; Acknowledgement, Acceptance, and Allowance. We are healing this cellular miasm, as well.
Ava:-
ReplyDeleteFirstly, I wasn’t writing about you. :-)
Secondly, I’d just like to make it clear that I’m not playing mind-games by not naming the person whom I think has the same flaw as me. I actually read about this problem many years ago in a truly great mystical work called “The Cloud of Unknowing” but foolishly didn’t heed the writer’s advice. It’s a great example for me of the difference between knowledge and experience.
Spiritual vanity can be dangerous because the new Divine energies that are experienced by the mystic through the activation of the crown chakra can be appropriated as originating within the lower-self - when they actually originate from the higher-self.
One of the hardest lessons that I’ve had to learn over the years is that the Divine cannot be understood through the intellect. I wasted years of my life banging my head against a brick wall with that approach. I don’t want to sound trite by quoting Yoda from Star Wars but you have to “unlearn what you have learned”. :-) We can only know the Divine through Love – an emotion; so if you’re an emotional processor you’re smarter than me. :-)
All the intellect in the Universe is nothing compared to Love.
Love, LW.
Ava - I just wanted to say you are not alone! I can relate with a lot of your situation. I've also struggled with major anxiety in the past, and have been living with my parents for awhile. At times it has felt very hopeless, embarrassing, and frustrating. For a long period living here I felt unable to manifest the life I've truly wanted and completely 'stuck'.
ReplyDeleteSince finding this blog though back in November it helped me to get a different perspective on my situation. For me, I've felt more and more that this is where I'm supposed to be right now. I've been getting a lot of healing with my parents, but also helping them in ways I couldn't if I lived elsewhere. I like the saying, 'plans within plans', which I interpret as there always is many perspectives we can see from a situation, even if it appears in stalemate. I really feel our dreams are just around the corner, including our jobs/positions that will bring us the most fulfillment! They might just not be created yet. :) Hang in there, the best is yet to come....
Christie said:
ReplyDelete--You stand in the forefront and accept some of the highest 'disdain' from others, imaginable. Your experiences are a direct response to the belief that says, " If you are not working/producing/providing some type of product/service to another, then you are UNWORTHY."--
Christie, I was totally gobsmacked with this in January, and the whole MOTHER thing on top of that. I felt ashamed at how badly it affected me, as I thought I had grown to that "tell it to the hand 'cause the ears aren't listening" level of peace with it.
Apparently NOT!
leavemealone: I, too, have the TSH/doctor frustration stuff going on. It's REALLY challenging, and each time I dead-end with it and seem to get nowhere.
Dave: Glad to find one more person living with parents and finding myself part of a plan in a plan, too. Can't seem to get past the stifling and shameful feelings of it, though ...You just found this blog in Nov? Welcome, fellow New Englander!!!
thanks for all the great comments and post it so helps to know that we are not alone in our journeys...but I too was saying "I signed up for this...really???!!!"
ReplyDeleteYeah! I also feel like a Banshee within, sooo suspicious! My miasma... and have to let go and let God.
ReplyDeleteCommon archangels! We don´t need to drop our energy doing polemics! Have to be quite and alert to our enemies, which always lay within!
Good luck every one!
I don´t visit allopaths any more either.
I feel many of you are sooooo cosmic!
Love and admiration!
Rín
hi Ava, thank for your comment ;-)
ReplyDeletehi Christie and others with the topic of job.
Till last June i was a job coach and personality trainer working in a project for a company self-employed. I knew then I HAD to quiet the project. So I did. (some days before that, I had such a strong feeling in my heart that this time, this kind of work is over that I couldn´t doubt this in any way, tears in my eyes then because it was a really, really hard time to work in this really dark space with a lot of negativity and emotions, lot of agression, and it was hard work to keep my light shining during this time, but i did, also if everyday when i stood up i thougt, I can´t any more, but then I stood up and did, don´t know how I could, at the same time i knew that all what I experienced in this place, all fears and things i got to know about the people, is a necessary experience for me, also for my task in the future. it gave me a deep understanding of many different people, there fears, cultures, all ages, professions, motives, branches, companies, economy,...so I coud study the human psyche and jobmarket and what most people really want,... in a very broad range. Which gives me now a broader understanding and sensitivity in many different characters, cultures, young and old,...)After i left the project I first thought, It wouldn´t take such a long time till I will get a new task to do. But I was wrong. Summer was quite ok. What I had to do to leave each and everything behind me. I closed up my website, closed all online-networks I was a member of, canceld all workshops in September, and left all people behind, which where still left (except my family , mean parents and Sisters, fortunately)I closed many many doors, and theres was nothing else to do. So came autumn, Sometimes i asked myself, what I´m doing? maybe now I get really crazy and ready for straitjacket ;-) During working i saved some money, and I knew it will be enough till the end of the year, and then over... so I thought at least till the end of the year there will be some new income. So I stayed stronlgy in my light and let one day pass after the next. I started knitting ;-) colourful scarf, socks, and a cap in the same colourful colors ;-) November, December I watched all seasons of "Gilmore Girls", and i stayed in this world for my own. Sometimes there was some small creativity but it was really very less. Christmas was, well, some good days, some not so good days, I stayed with my family, on 4th January I got back to Vienna after Christmas and a creativity phase begann for about two weeks, Than cocoon, Now here in my flat, keeping on, watching "six feet under" ;-) now season four already, what I didn´t say is that nobody except my older sister knows that I have no job. All my "Former" friends, (I had to cut off the contect to everybody) and also my family, don´t know that I am sitting at home in ma flat since 7 month. Nobody knows this. It would be to complicated, they wouldn´t anyway understand it. When my mother calls me, I always give her the feeling, that still working in my job. So its just me who knows. Sometimes when my brain starts to think for some seconds (till it collapes again) I thinnk "you´re completely crazy" from the common perspective. But I know that everything is ok. Anyway it is work to keep the trust, and the faith, and when I drop out, I have to push me back in the middle of the light and the faith. So ... ahm... I didn´t think that I would write so much but obviously I had the desire to share my last 7 months...
So, yes, I think everybody who is on this journey must be crazy, because I mean, how else, could somebody come through all this stories?
Oh Gosh!!
ReplyDeleteDon´t tell my parents ;-9 hahahahaha!!
And Christie what I forgot to say: When I read your post there was such a strong energy coming out and really pushed my heart..
In my job as jobcoach I always worked with the people on this topic about selfworth and not have a job and the general view of value and don´t have a job. It is really very deep within the people and in the society.
I worked this topic through my self some years ago, somehow at the beginning of my crazy journey, when I was unemployed myself for a year. So I could work with the people then in my job, for my own experience what it means to be unemployed and the different facetts on this topic and what it makes with the people an there emotions.
greetings to all!
smiley
Smiley said:
ReplyDelete--So, yes, I think everybody who is on this journey must be crazy, because I mean, how else, could somebody come through all this stories?---
To Smiley: hahahahahaha! We come through it because after you and your couch have watched every episode of "True Blood" on DVD, and every book that goes with every movie, like all the Harry Potters, and watched all the old shows you have stored on a hundred old VHS tapes, and every new DVD in the library, and can tell anybody anything they want to know about the Steig Larsson stories, or the contestants on Dancing With the Stars, and the mystery/metaphysics behind the TV show "Lost," then you know you're part of THAT world and the only thing crazy is the 3D world you've left behind! Hahahahaahaa
These are some of the most amazing comments I have seen! Christie, LW, Smiley, Dave, on and on, I didn't realize so many were feeling this same shame/worthlessness at being unable to force ourselves into an old "3D job"/living situation and being judged so heavily by those closest to us who have no concept of what this feels like or where we *hope* we are headed... we're trying to describe something that doesn't exist yet except at the feeling/thought/intangible level. Any synchronicities we experience could still be chalked up to pure coincidence by the starkly rational mind. And often what makes these occurences so meaningful is the feelings they inspire, as anyone who has experienced one will know... the funny part too is that my folks are so susceptible to public opinion, I'm sure as soon as this goes "mainstream" they'll be like, "oh of course, ascension, we knew all along" and then judge me for being such a whiner/so confused... hahaha well, hopefully not
ReplyDeleteDave and Cheryl - unemployed, live-at-home New Englanders in the house! Maybe we should start a club, start going out for karaoke or something... that is if I can work through my driving anxiety enough to get myself there :-P
@LW i've been getting a lot of info on microcosmic biological and atomic perspectives to this as well. it comes from my root chakras. i think the chakras actually speak to us. they're our DNA telling us what is happening.
ReplyDeleteYeah I don't want to live in the clouds anymore. It's not healthy. I've been tuning into the desire to become part of the world and now it's raging inside me.
Last night, my entire nervous system lit up. I was on fire, writhing, burning, itching, EVERYTHING. A bunch of old toxins were coming up until every part of me was burning brightly with nothing left. My brain was glowing and pulsing and i could feel entire galaxies come into focus and i just felt so electric. i felt like i was going to rip my skin of and scream. it hurt like hell. it was so incredibly painful even for my spirit. it wasn't just my body that was itching and burning. my entire energy system as one movement was completely lit up.
I definitely vibe with you on spiritual vanity. I've recently had to blast through this lately. Luckily for us there are so many people out there willing to cut us down to brilliant shape :) until they can't cut anymore.
We just have to let go of whoever is afflicted with it. It's not something we can do anything about. Instead, let's focus on ourselves and anyone who expresses pain about this.
@Ava, no I've certainly transcended a LOT and come into brilliant new spaces. But each new space has it's own trials and tribulations and I've definitely come across those as well. Whenever we gain a new level and receive new information, we are put through the grinder of integration and a physical test to apply what we've learned.
I'm feeling EXTREMELY pulled into the art world. I've come across some artists that have made my heart burn with desire. I need to get my shit together so I can just hop a plane and start working. I know where I'm going next. I just need to get a job and build something. I need to build.
@Mys, It's not just the females. this weekend, i was dead sure i was developing my first period. that solar blast had be screaming at my dad for a whole 15 minutes after he said something really hateful and racist in public while I was there. I was pretty much in a castrating mode that day. And then I had these really bad emotional feelings of being lost and scared and being in a manifestation with no heart. I had actually manifested something because it was physically beautiful despite the fact that my heart wasn't in it. It was perfect down to every detail i had carefully crafted in my mind. It was so beautiful, but i didn't put my heart in it and the karmic backlash was immediate and brutal. I could feel how dead it was and it just sent me spinning. I had to recover with a 2 hour hot bath and alanis morissette. it only got worse from there.
So my breasts are also tender but that's because my sexual partners keep biting my nipples like they're fucking steaks. shit. i need better sexual partners.....
@LW the great thing about becoming aware of spiritual vanity is that it isn't so difficult to overcome and the awareness of it can gain us access into a new and wonderful level. I always tell people I don't play video games(this is true) because I'm already playing one. They always look confused or bothered by the fact that I read into things very deeply.
It's been a hell of a ride and I'm really glad that today is a good day. haha. that's all i can say. I'm aching to get out into the world and have her feed me as I feed her in return.
I love you all more than you remember! How grand it would be if we could all meet in the here and now at some physical point on this planet! Yes, we are doing so now through this forum, but I feel that the physical to physical would put us over the top! Sounds like a few of you are New Englanders......anyone 'stationed' in the Midwest....or am I the only one 'holding the light/bag' in this area??? ;-)
ReplyDeleteWith Great Love,
Christie
I just want everyone to know that I'm finding my own system. I'm finding the places my heart wants to go. I can physically see the places my heart is going to take me. This is happening. This is real. Egypt will glow with our hearts and the world is going to burn with the brightest fire.
ReplyDeleteI'm so incredibly excited. I'm alive and I'm loved and people want me. I want them and we're going to live forever together.
Dear Whisper,
ReplyDeleteI love your video game metaphor....I have used the same comment and get the same response. It's the same reason I don't watch much tv and especially find a severe distate for 'reality shows'......SSDD. ;-)
Ha ha, Ava!
ReplyDeleteLet's karaoke. You do "Ice, Ice Baby" and I'll do "Singin' in the Rain" --Christie, you can sing that song from the Wizard of Oz that goes "The wind began to switch,the house to pitch, and suddenly the hinges started to unhitch..."
hi lauren and all,
ReplyDeletelauren you must have heard tom and i talking.... "unzipping our fat suit"
we started on that journey 3 weeks ago and i used that phrase ! cool,eh
realizing that this fat suit was connected to a false identity appearing real. sorta like fear (false evidence appearing real)
nice to know our general ill will,general crappy weekend was caused by a larger force, solar flares vs, a downslide.lol
blessings to all of us taking this journey consciously and to all those
who will leave their bodys thru these catastrophic weather patterns
can feel , yes, this is the last leg of the race.soon to be upon a higher vibrating platform to go forth with.
much love all
~ irene ~
Whisper:-
ReplyDeleteWow, that was quite a comment! Something tells me that you are being sarcastic ... :-) ... some of that was very funny! lol
Look, I know you think that I’m full of BS. That’s fine, everybody’s entitled to their opinion. I can see that you’re just blowing off steam - you’re obviously under a lot of pressure, feeling a lot of pain. I’m sorry that you’re in that place. I’ve been there before; it’s certainly no laughing matter. I wish you well, brother.
Love, LW (gee my nipples sure are sore, need to get some new sexual partners, lol!)
P.S. sorry, I know that laughing at what you wrote isn’t helpful, but I can’t help it! lol
Lauren, I love your updates, and to everyone who posts..thanks! It helps keep me going.
ReplyDeleteTo tired to write much for a few weeks!
Hanging in there along with all of you
Love and peace to you all! CJ
Boy can I relate to this post better than any before and the people's postings. Ditto to whisper of the electricity running through your body. That happens to me sometimes too...feels like I stick my finger in an electrical circuit..I end up with several gashes and scratch marks on my skin after howling and rolling around in pain.
ReplyDeleteCheryl and Dave, how old are you all? I just drove across country to live w/ parents after 19 years away in Cali. I just turned 40 this summer.
in dec., I had the "perfect" job (for my experience in this lifetime...perfect really would be a dancer...) literally fall into my lap...broker in natural products industry. I thought, yes, "flow, ease" that's what I've been holding out for refusing to play the effort, will, and force game. Yet, it was like a mirage that I cannot reach..the whole process has been excruciatingly painful and no flow.
I'm reeling for what I am to do from here. The 3D job thing is rather outdated, although it does offer me an outlet for a passion of mine - education on holistic health.
as far as cleansing goes that Lauren wrote about...what is this cleansing for each of you? For my 30, I cleansed emotionally, psychically, physically (detoxing, cleaning up diet and lifestyle through cleanses and whole food, organic, gluten free diet). I go through about 4-8 weeks a year in cleanse mode, but on the off weeks, I still drink wine sometimes..not to get drunk, but because I'm also a foodie and like the pleasures of this.
Due to being a highly sensitive one, I get slaughtered w/ my nervous system over active and need to take a pharmaceutical for sleep. something I won't compromise on...the threads are really bare holding the sanity together as it is without it, then throw in lack of sleep...suicide is highly possible.
So, long story short..."cleansing" I have done, but I'm not perfect and I wonder what others consider as "cleansing" in prep for this "future" event...
Lauren--Im a 67 year old Indigo Adult who has started to understand why I've felt so worthless, alone and ignored. this has helped immensely and I've written a series of items called Through the Eyes of a Child. This has enabled me to get in touch with my inner child. But then my impatience,judgements and MF attitude come up and I feel like I failed. Well when I read your material, I breathe a sigh of relief and hope. Your humor is absolutely priceless. You help me to feel normal. Much love and thanks.
ReplyDeleteThis is awesome Lauren, and to those who commented! This is really like they, the PHC, are saying, "ok, it is time now. Fear not and let us take your vitals. All is well." I liken it to going into the hospital to give birth-great Dr.'s on stand by, but we have to push. I am excited because this is just feeling more real than ever!
ReplyDeleteI do have anxiety that was so intense I had to go on Neurontin and klonipn. Might not be here if I hadn't. I am having BEAUTIFUl insights and dreams. physically, I feel as though a big creature wants to bust out of my back.
In the physical world, well, whisper913251, I can relate. I have to break through all fear and what is left of my low self esteem and go get a job with a shotty work history, because I have been housebound for so long. I live with my parents and I feel like a teenager being pushed out of the nest WHILE going through all of these ascension things. I just keep the faith as best I can, and I DO see the amazing growth because of it.
I do notice that as much as the 5 people who live with me drive me nuts, when just one of us is gone for the day, the rest of us feel a loss of energetic support. So I now know why I have not been "allowed" to get my own place, my own life that I have been begging Craetor for. I need these characters in my life!! Ahh!!
I do feel that the long awaited reunion with our brothers and sisters on the way. I am ready and as of TODAY, it has started to show up!! Will it stick? Yes, now or soon!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-4QP5jsrAaA
ReplyDeleteI know personal stuff should be kept to a minimum, but Here is a link to a song that boosts me up on the tougher days-Jimmy Eat World-The Middle, very uplifting!!!
Believe it or not, I find Marilyn Mansons "This is the new shit" my current anthem. I have him and Arcturian mediations both on my ipod. Who says hard core and ascension do not mix! M. Manson came to help a generation break out of the box! I do not feel he is evil at all! In fact, I LOVE him!
Thank you, Lauren..in perfect timing as always. Solar flares! That explains a lot. At first I thought it was something I ate or some combination of something I ate, since food choices are becoming a challenge once again.
ReplyDeleteLast weekend, I felt waves of fatigue wash over me. At night I experienced many of the symptoms you describe and just felt achy all over...miserable. I have not felt symptoms to this extreme for quite some time. I was in such agony that in the middle of the night I begged angels and archangels to help me through this. Someone must have heard me because the symptoms subsided a bit, enough for me to attend a crystal/chakra workshop over the weekend that really helped!
Trish: I, too, have frequently uttered those same words..."I'm going to have to have a chat with my 'soul' who decided this would be 'fun'....and I said 'Bring it on'. I've often wondered what possessed me to do this. And then there are days I wouldn't trade this moment in time for anything. Last weekend was not one of those moments. :)
And like so many others here, I'm also looking for work and feeling like I just don't want to accept something that would be unfulfilling. Thankfully, I'm briefly staying on the coast in central Florida where I'm connecting with people who understand how I feel. I'm choosing to align with my heart's true desires and having a bit of faith that the appropriate work will manifest. I'm hoping that happens soon, as it would be great to be able to pay my bills on time.
Lauren, I'm so glad you posted about the alignment of the etheric body with the physical. Tom Kenyon just posted a message from the Hathors about how we can use the solar flares/winds to assist us in charging the etheric body, or KA as he refers to it. Here's a link if anyone is interested:
http://tomkenyon.com/partaking-from-the-solar-winds
Lastly, LW: I love that quote... "All the intellect in the universe is nothing compared to Love". Where did you find that?
I'm so grateful to be connected to everyone here and especially you, Lauren. Bless you! It really does help to know we're not alone on this journey!
Lisa
Susan - thanks for your comment and insights. :) I just turned 29 a few weeks ago. It's hard to believe how fast time is flying by! For me, cleansing has been on every level I can think of as well. Starting last fall I was diagnosed with a small hiatal hernia. It was painful and scary at times to say the least. I was forced to eat much healthier and from that was able to lose some weight/density I had wanted to for a long time!
ReplyDeleteLuckily, within a few months I felt back to normal, but actually more energetic overall. When I found this blog it felt like a life-saver because it explained so much of what I had been feeling/good through. I think the hernia had more to do with repressed anger and emotional clearing than anything else. Its funny how life works.
I know I also do a ton of clearing in my sleep, which is fine by me. Sometimes I ask my higher self for a night off though as it can be very intense. I also have been feeling intuitively that March has some great surprises coming for us all!
C. Danielle - I'd love to hear more about your beautiful insights and dreams..... :)
Here's another unemployed NEW ENGLADNER (who just finished scraping off ice on top of snow! wtf?!)
ReplyDeleteLauren - you mentioned how we will be able to create our idea of heaven on Earth, and I feel very strongly about this. I am becoming a harp therapist and thankfully, have that to focus on right now while being unemployed (for 2.5 years).
Symptoms: migraine headaches everyday, back of the skull, shoulder/neck pain, ringing in ears, crappy sleep.
Dreams: I had a dream where I got an "F" on a paper I didn't read the book for. I argued with the teacher and in the end had to accept the "F" and be ok with it. As in, being ok with making mistakes. (obviously clearing fear miasims) :)
Thank you - to those that have posted about tuning into the pain in your body and asking it what it wants to tell you. I will do that and also ask assistance for the headaches.
It's amazing how each one of us is having such a similar experience, it really helps (even if it's just in the comments) knowing you're not alone.
Hi Dave and everyone! I have heard March will be equal in consciousness raising as the last 20 years have been! Wowe! Clearing has been intense, and finishing karma for me has been the most painful yet the most freeing. It is such a perfect plan from the higher levels, I now see. What was the end of the world to me just 2 months ago is what has pushed and molded me to a place of more neutrality and love, salvation, closer to the spirit me! I have hard days, but over all I am SEEING with new eyes!
ReplyDeleteI have always heard fish dreams, as in fish for pets, represent our responsibilities in life. Over the years I have had most gruesome fish dreams. Not to be gross, but dreams of finding them dead or moldy. Well, last night I had the most beautiful fish pet dream. :-) I dreamt I pulled out a pet gold fish in a snow globe, completely sealed. It was healthy, vibrant, happy, and needed no worry or care, no food-as long as I did my part, what I am being guided to do, and that is to go back out into the world and face my fears around that. So I was basically being told that all is well, stop worrying so much, your "fish" are ok!!! We ARE being helped now more than ever!!
Lisa: the “all the intellect in the Universe is nothing compared to Love” is something I may have read on the Internet many years ago. I may have been inspired to write it from a spiritual conversation or story I’d read – it happened so long ago I’ve forgotten the source, sorry.
ReplyDeleteLove, LW.
It’s always such a great relief to read Lauren’s post and subsequent comments!
ReplyDeleteDear Lauren, thank you, I knew you were about to send a new update, I could “feel” it this time.
My symptoms came a little late… On Monday instead of during the weekend. Is this delay normal? I really hope I’m moving along with all of you guys!
Love all the way from Brazil,
Ivy
PS- I see many of you have issues about your ‘job situation’. Does anyone have body issues instead?
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ReplyDeleteRegarding body issues............Oh yea!
ReplyDeleteWhere to start? Here's a list of mine that started about 10 years ago. Migraines, teeth pain, neck/shoulder pain and cranial pressure, ear ringing constantly and to the extent that I must run a fan at night near my bed in order to drown out the ear-ringing so I can sleep.........if it is a night for sleep. I do much clearing in my sleep, as well. Very disturbing sleep patterns. Sharp pains through my head like an instananeous flash; itching skin like something is crawling on me....worse when I lay down. Splitting and cracking skin on my heels....I received a clear message that this was due to grounding the intense energy that is coming in through the crown chakra, accompanied by swollen ankles, feet and intense heat on the bottoms of my feet. Then there is the occasional nausea and diarrhea and sometimes the nausea is so bad that is is followed by vomitting, but that has only been that severe a time or two...the most recent around this last winter soltice. All over body aches....comes and goes and feels like flu. Sinus drainage. Hot flashes that sometimes roll through and over back to back for over an hour; the message I was given regarding the hot flashes is that they clear the fear or issue you hold regarding fear of 'what if'. Another wierd one is the inability to hold a phone, landline or cell, next to me ear/head. I get a pulsating, pounding pressure when I do. Very painful. TV sound is another discomfort. Music is about the only sound I can tollerate for long periods of time; other than the soothing sounds of nature. So anyway..........that's the short list!
Thank you for the feedback, Joan and Christie!
ReplyDeleteHowever, I think I didn’t make myself clear enough, sorry for that. These symptoms you both mentioned, I also have them, and I think they are uncomfortable, but bearable. When I say issues, I mean… BIG issues. Like emotional consequences to certain symptoms.
I was “blessed” with genes that always made me gain weight even if I was only thinking about food, so this ascension process has been really challenging in that department! I wish I could have my body back! 11 years (or so) ago I could see results if I started a diet and I could keep my weight under control (my self-esteem has always been very linked to my weight, clearly). These last years I just can’t get results! Being so overweight makes me feel like everybody here who talks about the job situation: I feel shame, I feel judged, I feel guilt and isolation. The fat-suit, in my case, is more like 3 suits, one on top of the other one (because I already had this tendency before the ascension).
This is what I meant when I said body issues: emotional consequences because of these ascension symptoms… Anyone out there shares this situation?
Love to all of you,
Ivy
Oh, THOSE Issues!!! Well, of course!!! Yes, Ivy, unwanted weight gain is also an 'issue', and for me, it was huge because I could always cut back on calories and get rid of the weight. At least that was so in my 20's and 30's and early 40's. Now I hear many of you saying, 'well it's just age or hormones', but I am here to tell you that is not entirely true! It's very interesting, Ivy, that you used that magic number '11' years ago. That's exactly when it started for me, as well. I gained 35 lbs in 1 year and didn't change the thing, in fact I was expending even more calories.......and I do not jest! That happened in 2000, and I have kept the majority of the weight on, more or less. I did drop about 10 lbs without 'changing a thing' about 3 years ago, but here I stay. As for the emotional consequences; the belief that we must look/weigh a certain 'way', is of course another huge sociatal belief that we are working through (re-leasing).....and it is one of the most difficult. We are so 'hooked' into another's approval. Whether it be a parent or society, it can be very strong; and many of us carry the cellular belief through previous incarnations; i.e. starvation. Once again, we are back to Self worth issues.....or lack thereof. The way out or through this is to know without a doubt that your are Divine and Magnificent. You chose this body and this body size for a very good reason. There are no mistakes and you know very well what you are doing. Stop believing anything other than that and tell the rest of the world where to go!!!And if you need to draw them a map and show them how to get there, then do so..........'nuff said.
ReplyDeleteThat should have read 'gained 45 lbs in 1 year'.
ReplyDeleteIvy & Christie:
ReplyDeleteI'm in the same boat with the weight, and it really doesn't bother me much how I look to others as the problem of having to get more clothes (I can't afford) all the time because stuff doesn't fit...and just the discomfort of trying to bend over and tie my shoes. I gained 30 lbs in the course of 18 mos or something like that, several years ago, and it's never gone down, just up from there. It's so hard to know how much is water and how much is not. And despite improvements in my thyroid function (according to "the numbers"), my body is not letting things reverse. I read somewhere...forgot where...that ascension-wise it might not be till this summer that we start shedding some weight.
My vision is to take my 41-year-old broken body and rejuvenate back 20 years (although I wasn't in such great health back then either, ha ha!)
So, in brief, you may all be feeling crap & it will get worse but, don't worry it's nothing to do with geo engineering by HAARP used alongside chemtrails & if you're all really, really good you will go to heaven...
ReplyDeleteSure I've heard that before somewhere...
Opiate for the people.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q2iEXhYrRWU
ReplyDeleteHAARP is being used for weather modification & to cause earthquakes.
Funny, I would have thought the 'PHC' would have known that!
Love.
Dear Use-less,
ReplyDeleteYou are absolutely correct about HARP and other attempts to control/manipulate the masses........And as for the 'PHC' comment, why do you think we are here in the first place?
You are not seeing the big picture, but that's OK, we're use-full.
Much love to you, as well.
Hi to you all and thanks for comments ;-)
ReplyDeleteIts 2.54 in the morning now. I stood up, thought its already 7 or so. Completley awake. The insivisble voice told me, they need me at the moment in an awake modus. Drinking black tea. Thinking about this night. People in Egypt. Storm in Australia. The cold storm in USA. When I was laying in bed it came to my mind about the word "Frontrunners" and yes I know for sure all the difficulties everybody has who is in this boat and all the symptoms of the ascension process (on weekend my migraine and throughing out made me crying)
Yesterday evening when I watched the people in Kairo in the Internet. A group of man standing side by side in a row. One thin row. And Infront armors. Fighting to free there country in peace. To free from dictatory regimes. Not knowing if they get killed for fighting for freedom.
So now... isn´t it a shame to worry about, some more kilos, job, some headache, some vomiting,... and is it really true to call ourself "frontrunners?". Yes of course in the spiritual realms this is our job to clear this aerea and it is hard work to do this and int the concious stuff we are those guys of forerunners. But anyway...
those guys out there. Fighting with there life to free the world, to free there countries, and stand strong, and not knowing if they pay with there life...
Those are the TRUE frontrunners for me.
I bend down my head infront of them in humility.
What is it if I´m knowing already about the path and being good connect with the source, if the invisible we need you awake now? And if they tell me, as they did tonight, when I asked them can I do something? Send the people light ore something, pray for them? They just told me, stay strong in your inner light. That what you have to to. That´s your job now. So how difficult is that, compared with the guys out there in the storm in Australia or in the storm in Egypt. (Especially, as I´m not even standing, but comfortly laying in my warm, cosy bed, sleeping, some insivible around, holding hand and feet ;-) ;-) hahaha)
So those guys out there for me are the real heroes.
bless you all...
Uesless Eater
ReplyDeleteLeave us to our opiates, it seems like a better option to what your perspective offers :)
Do you want everyone here to be as miserable as you, even after reading what many have been going through, do you really think we could endure the burden you are carrying on top of that?
All the best
Daniel
Thanks Beautiful Lauren!!
ReplyDeleteLove Light and Namaste (:
Yonatan
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ReplyDeletethis weekend reminded me of my ex- girlfriend...a complete bitch.
ReplyDeleteI had a massive argument with my mother (who is a sweet lady - and I think she hates me) and I just ended up running down the road in tears -howling horrible gutteral sounds like a friggin dying cow.
Usually I can find something to laugh about..or look forward to..but I am so unhappy right now.
I don't particulary like the person I have become, and I hate that in the process of awakening..I have hurt the ones I love the most..(I don't want to be anyone elses fucken catalyst anymore. FUCK that shit).
I was a much nicer person before this 'light' gig - Mum told me I have become so serious. It's true..generally I despise (real life)people.
What gives? Not very love n light.
That is the great irony for me...that in becoming more 'light filled' I have never felt so dark. Sometimes i wonder why I chose the 'light' gig and not the 'dark' gig this time round...I would have made an excellent mistress of the dark lol.
But no - light it is. Be nice to have a bit of love for a change.
I'm over it.
Meant to say also thanks Lauren for this and all the updates - Stylish and Stunning ... they always SING to me :D
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It's Chinese Year of the Rabbit today...the box of fluffybunnies better fucken arrive.. or I'm going to do a 'Cruella De Vil' on that bunnies arse.
@LW, I sometimes utilize sarcastic humor to lighten the mood, but I am very sincere and consider you as one who I share common perspectives and experiences. I wasn't making fun of you at all. I was being very sincere.
ReplyDeletewhisper913251: I feel you are totally transforming and on a good path. Keep holding those positive thoughts and visions!
ReplyDeletebe11a: I can totally relate to you. The last week was such a bitch to me too. And I've definitely had my share of feeling used. And I've definitely been there... hating most "real life" people because at the time I thought: so many are ignorant fake selfish bastards who would die to protect this 3D LIE. Yes, I was definitely a mistress of the dark at one time ;)
But thats exactly why people like you are here... to bring more Light and Compassion into the world by being an instrument of Light. This clearing process is a serious challenge for everyone, but I have practiced looking at it as part of the process to pave the way for our perfect selves. And thats what I see your going through.
Just remember you are LOVED. :) And not alone!
There are some amazing healing tools on this site... I recommend checking it out... http://www.bluerayhealing.com/
It has helped me a great deal through this process.
Peace & Blessings~
Christie & Cheryl,
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your words! It comforts my soul to know I'm not alone, for I share with you all the feelings that you talked about on your posts.
THANK YOU!
Love,
Ivy
@ Daniel
ReplyDeleteWhy do you presume I'm miserable mate?
Caring for others & wanting to know the truth don't make me miserable.
Tell you what does make me sad tho?
Seeing good people being programmed not to inform themselves or care about what is really going down on this planet because they want to be told everything is ok.
Everything isn't ok on our beautiful planet & last time I checked duality was still the operating system we're all working with which in the real world means people going cold & hungry & facing their fears by confronting tyrants, such as in Egypt.
If you choose to ignore the evidence that technology exists to manipulate the weather, earthquakes, even the human mind (synthetic telepathy) & choose to accept a 'story' from the PHC, then that's your choice man.
But we need you all hands on deck down here right now & we need people to be brave enough to inform themselves & speak about it & most of all ACT, in whatever way you choose express yourself.
Read peoples comments FFS.
You're all wanting validation it's ok & if you just wait passively it will get better & you'll go to heaven.
Truth has a price for sure, but the reward is worth much more.
Without truth you are unable to make choices & decisions that are in the best interests of yourself & those you LOVE.
Don't sell your intelligence or compassion for some promise of heaven in the future.
Think about Gandhi, MLK, Jesus... did they live in denial or did they get their hands dirty?
Question & inform yourselves.
Truth, & Love have given me everything I care about but they hurt sometimes too.
Hello all,
ReplyDeleteThank you, Lauren, for this timely blog. I was hoping that you'd coalesce the vibe for us with your words. I had the flu-like symptoms last week and was hearing to intake more and more high nutrition and minerals. So, I flooded my cells with lots of good stuff. About 3 hours later I had the most amazing, blissful energy experience. It lasted for about 7 hours. It definitely had me asking later, what is going on? Yet, in the experience I knew and just enjoyed the ride.
It seems like these days the need to adapt to the rising energy is swift. I became vegan a month ago (was vegetarian but felt the impulse to remove dairy); anything that comes up as discordant needs to go ASAP--I spend a lot of time on that. Though, the process is quick, there's generally something more that comes up behind it.
@Christie, "mother" issues have also come up for me both in the micro and macro of my life. I have recently moved back home (another New Englander living with her parents!) so that's given me the opportunity to create harmony with my mother (not going easily but it's teaching me how to be in the heart in a deeper way). I also am teaching a course on Gender and the Environment. I'm dedicating a lot of the course to the divine feminine and our relationship to the divine Mother. So, there's been a lot coming up over that. The main connection recently has been about honoring the abundance of the divine mother--honey and bees are a theme for me...the workers and the nectar of the mother. I'm thinking of doing a ceremony to right my relationship to her.
@useless eater, MLK has been ever present in my consciousness. About a month ago, I had a dream that he was my father and we were living in a Middle Eastern country that was oppressing its people. A foreshadow of what was to come I'm sure...MLK, Ghandi, Jesus and all the peace makers are present. Peace is birthing through the chaos. I feel that part of being 'active' in the change is to hold the space for the new consciousness to come in. This happens on multiple dimensions in my experience. Both in walking dimensional realities where the Masters dwell and anchoring their consciousness here and in the intentionality of our day-to-day work. I work for a UN environment project and some days I'm not sure that my daily work makes as much of a difference as my meditations do. But I know it's all serving a purpose to the whole in ways that I just do not see or understand.
Peace to you all!
Corrina
@useless eater. i have a sort of different opinion that i don't wish to share as it is pretty irrelvant to our communication. however, i do want to say that it is not so necessary to become aware of these things as it is to become aware of what we want, how we would counter these things. remember you give energy to whatever you focus on. if you feel such opposition, maybe it would be wise to do something about it? we all know that nobody is really going to give much credence to someone who is just sitting there screaming like a baby with their hands flailing. you're an adult and you can decide what to do with your energy, if you want to be afraid, if you want to be sad. personally, trying to uncover nefarious plots in the government and "raising awareness" regarding covert activity isn't something that feeds my soul. it doesnt make me feel warm and loved inside and in that way, it doesn't at all support my energy system. maybe i'm not as holy and enlightened as some who wish to sacrifice their energy for the good of all, and that's ok. i have a body and i intend to feed it while i am needed on earth.
ReplyDeletei'm not saying you're wrong or anything like that, i would just like to suggest a different tactic. it would be a more efficient way to combat whatever it is you're facing if you were to apply the methods we have all been learning to your own problems. i have applied them all and i've found them to be surprisingly useful. a little bit of light can go a long way in sweeping away the shadows.
you say that you care what's really going on in this planet and society and whatever. that's great. what do you intend to do about that caring? do you mean that you are personally emotionally affected by the bad things that happen? this is not the same thing as caring with your heart, but rather becoming attached through emotion. remaining emotionally detached and neutral will allow a different charge to form in your heart, a charge that resonates love and healing instead of internalizing chaos. you really do want to focus on externalizing your own love and compassion which is obviously there. it's much more effective at this stage in global consciousness.
@useless eater
ReplyDeletei would also like to say that polarity consciousness is not everyone's operating system and a LOT of people are operating beyond it while maintaining physical bodies. it really does create a bubble of energy around them that is very protective in the sense that things seem to change form when they enter your sphere of consciousness.
No one is being passive here. this is a very active process, albeit internally active. but while i may be inside right now evolving and changing dramatically without applying it to my external world, i will be a completely different person when i do go out into the world, meaning that much movement had taken place.
personally, i don't understand why you are coming to lauren's forum if you don't agree with what she says. i think it's a bit naive to assume that we havent already heard what you have to say, seeing as we are very much on the fringe and all of us are well acquainted with our neighboring fringe enthusiasts. if you have something to contribute, please do. if you just want to hear yourself talk, then there's nothing we can do for you.
it is quite easy to give so much fear to things like HAARP that can control the weather. but when i can sit on a hill for 10 minutes on a bleak and cloudy day and with my own mind move the clouds apart so that i may bathe in the sun, i cannot be afraid of something so crude as modern technology. far too much power is given to those devices, even in your own mind. power is subjective. if you wish to no longer be a part of certain systems, then take your energy away from it. amplify your own energy to attract only the things that feed you. it is quite simple if you would only focus.
no one is saying we'll go to heaven. we all know that if we are to die now, we would go to our own homes, or be reincarnated again to enjoy the fruits of our labor. our mission is to assist in the birth of the next stage of human evolution. in our own microcosmic ways, we are completing this.
and with all we know about the nature of our reality and our own power, it is absolutely foolish to think that a mental opiate could not be beneficial in some way. nothing is truly positive or negative. it is neutral, innocent, blameless. you can use anything to your advantage if you just work with it, harness it, and make it your own.
I had a really incredible experience Tuesday night, on Imbolc, the pagan holiday to celebrate the return of the light to our planet, the return of spring.
ReplyDelete"Incredible" isn't the right word. "Searing" would be more accurate. My entire nervous system lit up and burned. Everything itched. EVERYTHING. somehow, my chakras were also itching. My emotions were itching. I was irritable, hating everything, detoxing like a mug, and my brain was on fire. It was really intense. I was holding onto and cracked my headboard while writhing with the waves of energy. It was super intense and really painful. But it burned up pretty much everything. At least I think it did. You never really know until something else blind-sides you.
It was pretty groovy. I could feel my brain glowing and pulsing and connecting to the entirety of the universe. When I woke up the next morning I felt this glowing white light around my head and flowing down my spine. There was a pink flame on my third eye. It's was aight. I'm still going about daily life. I'm really happy to no longer be itchy...
I also had a "detox" experience on Tuesday, putting out all kinds of angry feelings!!
ReplyDeleteDear Whisper, I make your words mine, in all your last posts!
Love and light,
Ivy
@ Corrina
ReplyDeleteI know your meditations do far more good than your job & let me say why.
The UN is a tool of the NWO founded by them to form the basis of a one world government & massive population reduction.
They have hijacked the environment movement through Agenda 21 & the now discredited man made global warming & overpopulation myths.
Your employer has been caught spreading weaponised polio & sterilising women in Asia, Africa, South America through it's 'vaccination' programs.
Rothschild & Rockefeller own the UN.
http://www.infowars.com/the-un-eugenics-and-the-mass-media/
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=4434160622382887664&q=New+world&pl=true#
There is so much evidence you need to be in denial not find it. Please do a search or let me know if you want information that will prove all of my assertions.
@ whisper
Unless we can stand under the same sky & you can make the chemtrails disappear, & unless you are immune to the effects of the barium, strontium & aluminium, then you are still operating in duality, you're just in denial mate.
& I disagree, you DO NOT necessarily give your energy to what you focus on. It is what you do with what you focus on that determines that & not the mere act of giving your attention.
But hey, if I was a genocidal tyrant, I would love for you all to believe that! "Look the other way people or you give me your energy."
Please, this is obviously false but is great for those in denial.
If you do the research, you will see the overwhelming evidence that technology can cause earthquakes, manipulate weather & 'synthetic telepathy'
If you accept this & then still choose not to question what you are being told here then that's your choice but unless you inform yourselves you are a fool for those seeking to manipulate your passivity & acquiescence.
Love.
Dear Useless Eater,
ReplyDeleteI'm not sure whether to laugh or cry when I read your comments. Have you ever considered seeing a psychiatrist?
Regards,
Fernanda
I've quickly become addicted to the music of Jimmy Eat World, recommended by one of my sisters here.
ReplyDeletehttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-4QP5jsrAaA
Consider it background music to what I'm posting.
“You can’t turn the light off,” a blogger said several months ago at Lauren’s place.
It just can’t be done. We’ve come too far, we’ve worked too hard, and we can’t go back even if we want to. Can’t see us wanting to.
And here's something to make you laugh, which brings on the joy, which is really the same as love.
http://www.wimp.com/animalvoiceovers/
Thanks to all of you who show your authentic beautiful Selves here. Kay
Hi All!
ReplyDeleteFeeling pretty tired with all this detoxing thing!
Some times I really seem like the black/white dove (Hollywood picture), and others like the Le Concert characters, which are funny.
We seem to be soooo much in the here and now! Time seems to be so slowly and then so fast!
Let us just go within! We will be carried "there" (sic.) where we signed to be! At the museum, children are soooo alive, so much bright!
And I seem to be more forgetful within (specially with myself).
Take good care of you selves (wish I do too). Miasma is made out of plutonian feelings, dense like petroleum, which I just would never dare to let go!
So... step by step, for me!
Just for today and without expectations (thou I try to control with thin thougts!).
Bliss and kiss!
Rín
Ps.: Do you have to click three times in order to get your post in this wall, too?)
Hi to all!
ReplyDeleteIt is really great to be here and read all your interesting views, experiences, opinions. That makes me weak and focused! (just stood up from bed, drinking coffee)
whisper, I really enjoyed reading your posts. I wanted to say something special about a special section you wrote but I cannot find it anymore, I have forgotten, what it really was,... ehm... something... ahh... have no connection to it anymore...ooohooh..hahaha!! it was something connected with what I felt to do with "just stand strong in your light within, that´s all you have to do now"
Corinna: i liked your post. thanks. you wrote about your energy experience. in the night of Wednesday to Thursday when i first was awake form 2 to 5 in the morning I went to bed again. The night before I did some cleaning of cells with attend (as I wrote i on of my posts), when I went to bed again at 5 I was in a "half"-sleep. and then it started at one part of my body, like a plop, if some light or whatever bursted through, and it felt so comfortable at this part, like "aaaahhh" something popped up and felt very light, difficult to explain, and it went through different parts of my body. i thought this can go on and on now, it was like burdens, where taken from me, and I just felt "aaahh".
about fear:
last night I had an interesting insight about one major fear I had/have to face. I´m not sure if I can bring it down on paper, but I will try.
Ahm... o.k...I felt that one of my last major fears is, as I´m already completely out of money, and my rent and daily expences are just pay by account overdraft. The fear is that something new comes right in time, till the bank doesn´t give me money anymore. So the fear goes so far that there is a part withinn me thet sees me loosing my flat and I have to sleep on the street, seeing me going around in the street like a vagabong. Seeing also to face, that I have to tell my family about the fact that I live on the street now...
So of course I know that this is just a fear, because the worst thing that can happen to me, is that I will have to face the fact that I´m out of money and tell my family and there is always a room for me to sleep there. And also I know that this will never happen, because... well ... I know...this is not the place to put me next.. so anyway, last night I wanted to face that fear and look deeper in it. So I said within me I would like to release this fear now. And after this, all the sequences I wrote above came to my mind. And I felt, did If I would experience what I wrote above. I went to my parents told them....blalba...
The part when I said, I would like to release this fear now, felt as to jump completely open into air and falling into, yes like a free fall out of a plane, or like somebody threats you with a weapon, and you don´t even say, O.K. shot!, but you take the weapon and shot yourself, in trust, that all is well, and the weapon, can´t harm you anyway. O.K. after I did this and I could feel this fear in my heart, I had some more insight. This kind of fears Is also a fear of existencial fear. O.K. and the next thougt was, I know that I will always exist, that my existance cannot be destroyed, because it is infinite. So the next thought was that this is a kind of fear, that I still not completely trust in the ongoing process, and the "universe" knows what to do, and is protecting also my human existence, and guiding me right in time. so than I realised that this fear, I kept, to have a last "possibility" of control. Something like. O.K. if the universe fails, I will take it in my own hands, and find a "normal" way to earn some money to pay my rent. And then I thought. O.K. I also know, that it is already a long time ago out of my control, and it always was. I just can decide "how" I go throught this process, and to release, what I have to release, "right in time", to be always some seconds infront of the "Wave", so it is the easiest way to go throught, to wait any second longer, to give conciously and O.K. or release people, I have to release,...whatever,.. just means more pain and the next wave, hurts, or hurts more. ... So I tought it is "maybe" the last big part to give up this kind of fear, and with it, the last "control", which I anyway don´t have about the process itself. as I said just how "swim" in the process. so this fear was about "control" and "not completely trust in the process". and a rest of, "do I miss something? should I "do" something? even if I know that everything is alright. So I just say I "release" this part, I´ll see if it will go.. has gone? ah... wondering if anybody can make sense of what I wrote.
ReplyDeleteO.K. greetings from sunny Vienna,... really warm weather outside I read in the Internet, although my inner guidance, wants me to stay sitting in my living room the next days, anyway, yesterday, I could do some small "preperation" for my felt next steps. This was already a good feeling because it was some forward movement, trying out my body, and it is already working better then months ago..
I´m really thanks full that my inner guidance "allowed" me to plog here since the 2.2.2011. it also give me the feeling that there is some new connection to like-minded people, even if it is via the Internet, it gives me the feeling of forward movement and of to come closer to each other. I´m looking forward to the time, when I can connect with like minded people "face" to "face". But till then I stay in my inner peace and heart, as good as possible without connection in the outer world. But it´s good to write it down here and share my inner feelings to someone. I mean. For me it is, and will be always one major human thing and desire to be connected to other people, to be in a community, to be part of a group, and exchange with others. as i love it to sit on a big table with many other people i like and enjoy a good meal with them. this experiences are always big experiences with me... maybe the best as a human...
o.k. enought now ;-) ;-)
greetings to you all!
smiley - Vienna
smiley, thank you for sharing. I love how you approach the whole process. You've developed some really concrete ways of working with the energy and the issues. Intention seems to be the main thing. Plus talking to the cells. And turning out 25 pages in a day (or just 23!) is amazing. Way to go with intention! Or maybe, way to go with the flow!
ReplyDeleteRin, I don't know if you actually intended to write "to control with thin thoughts," but that's how I understood it and it's an interesting idea. "Thin thoughts" is a really interesting idea! And I agree, being in the here and now is so much easier now than even a few months ago.
If you mean, do you have to click on "preview" a time or two before getting to "post," or on "post" a couple of times, yes, I think so.
Night all. Keep the faith. Kay
Oops! Wrote something and it disappeared. Nevermind.
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to say thanks to Dianne :D It really does help to know someone gets it..despite my emotional outburst!)
One good thing..Recently I had a dream about a group of climbing/ journeying people that said:
"We made it to the top of the IVORY TOWER!!"
..and I woke up with that phrase going through my mind. So I googled it, and apparently in Judeo/Christian tradition, the term IVORY TOWER is a symbol for NOBLE PURITY...
(yay!)
Onwards and upwards..or should I say..sideways ;D
Hi Kay,
ReplyDeletewell intention... I never think about this conciously but I you are right. There are some major assumptions in the whole process that are let me say somehow "law" for me:
- there is no other way then through it
- if you wait that the next issue comes to you then it surprises you and beats you down more easily
- the universe just wants the best for me and for everybody else
- I have to clean my own rubish away, no one else will do it
- years ago I said to spirit, O.K. I want to fulfill my highest potential here on earth and beyond (I really want to know what is possible to do or be as a human being)
- I have the strong wish to give my really best contribution to all this process (even I didn´t understand anything at the beginning of the process and now also not much)
- I´m ready to walk blind and jump in the blind and knowing that I will fall soft
- be always one step forward means: when I have finished one issue and I´m strong enough again I say to spirit "What´s next?" O.K. let´s do it. Show me!!
- I never say to spirit a concrete thing what to do next I say, let me do next what´s the best to do on my path. Show me up, what´s best now!
- I´m speaking a lot with my soul, the invisible, body (if something hurts)
- I read my environment, there are sign´s everywhere, and I learned to read them, everything is talking to us and helping us.
- I listen strongly to my heart, if it get´s wide and open, then I do it, if it closes down, I leave it
- To listen to my inner guidance was a way of trial and error, I did this finetuning over years, with easy things like when I buy food I tried the guidance
- I ask a lot to spirit and I listen a lot to spirit,
- I make a lot of mistakes ;-) when learning the language to spirit
- I accept to make mistakes
Well, for me the whole process is a very active process, but I prefer I drive the car and have a good GPS which guides me. The wheel of the car is mine. So there is good cooperation with spirit
- and at least - I sometimes shout with the unseens because of there naivity how it feels to live in a human body! This guys (some of them) really have no idea! And I refuse things if I feel this is really rubish (when I realize it in time ;-9)
- Now it is already like this that my body "act" itself, means my essence has occupied my body, (or is deeply connected with my body) so strong, that my human me has no chance to act in it´s own way. e.g. if my human me wants to go for a walk, and it isn´t good now to do this, which my human me doesn´t know why or understand, my body just doesn´t move, it doesn´t react, if there is nothing to do. and then I come back from my human me to my essence and can feel in all my body what´s the best now.
it is really a great potential we all face, and it will be a really good time for all of us, when we are through, this is what is absolutly sure.
be11a: ivory tower sounds great!
have a good day today, feel really stable and strong with new power to move and take the next step.
greetings to all!
smiley ;-)
Did anyone else have a really, really rough time yesterday (Friday 2/4)? I had one of my worst panic attacks to date - it crippled me all afternoon. Headache, wanting to throw up, gas, heartburn and other digestive problems (even though I hadn't eaten anything!), feeling dizzy/faint, and also afraid and angry all at once... didn't know if another flare or something came through. Twas not fun. I am staying far away from coffee this morning - I had one cup yesterday and it REALLY didn't help my situation... Blah
ReplyDelete@ Ava,
ReplyDeleteI did have a rough time yesterday. Mostly anger out of control and a lot of fear. Physically, just the usual, nothing different. Today is a little better, but still very unstable to me. I'm working really hard on focusing on positive aspects to keep going. For example, my mantra today is "I believe all is well, all is always well".
Love to you,
Ivy
Ivy, I noticed there were some spikes in solar activity yesterday. I think I reacted with fatigue and feeling flattened (more than usual), and I do recall feeling like I was gonna barf in the evening. Still sort of have that today. Seems like my spine is just really sensitive this whole week too.
ReplyDeletei fell in love with my straight friend...soooooooo i guess you could say i've run into a bit of a snag. i feel really great though. i feel in love. it feels unconditional. he's like me and he's very conscious and powerful. he's so beautiful. i don't know what to do other than to just soak in the feeling and enjoy him.
ReplyDeletePlease read this.
ReplyDeleteThis could be why many of you are feeling ill & why we are witnessing extraordinary weather events, mass animal die offs & increased earthquakes worldwide.
Posted because I believe in truth & not fear or ignorance.
Thank you.
http://www.cftc.gov/ucm/groups/public/@lrfederalregister/documents/frcomment/08-004c002.pdf
useless-eater,
ReplyDeleteI can absolutely sense the intention of your heart and mind to create a better world, and to serve fellow seekers on their journey. Thank you for continuing to share your truth from this level of well meaning... and for the work you are doing to grow your own awareness.
That said, it perplexes me that you might believe the games of men could manipulate and control the being that is this Earth. I trust you can sense the enormous power and wisdom of this amazing being. Do you really believe there is anything man can do which, ultimately, would alter its destiny and intentions?
Please think about this. Feel and know that these games of men are short-lived at best. A vital, but fleeting, part of our human journey. These men control nothing... no more than the Romans, Greeks or Nazi's controlled their worlds... all just a fleeting moment in history.
Do you not feel your own destiny? Do you really sense that your soul has journeyed here, into the physical, hundreds or thousands of times, only to be denied its long held dream of creating a world based on higher consciousness, peace and love? All of the signs you have pointed to in your various emails are actually the signals by which we can know that time is finally close at hand. For now, when we finally have the technical ability to destroy life on Earth, is precisely when forces far greater than men will assure this does not occur.
There is an endless amount of information one can read to support ones greatest fears. To absolutely know, however, that our course ahead is ultimately one of love and victory for light, we each must go deep within.
Useless-eater... what you do by following your prompts to share words of caution forces many to dig deeper within and confront remaining fears. This is good work.
The answers to your warnings cannot be known from anywhere but within our hearts and higher selves. But therein lies our destiny... and it is one I rest within in comfort and joy.
Peace.
Richard
Ava
ReplyDeleteI have been having some of my worst attacks recently too, and alot of other wierd things, or not weird just annoying or scarey. Ive noticed my ears ringing, in fact right now, was wondering if anyone else is having this or knows why? Also headaches, body pain, emotional, just feeling down. I have to catch up on some of the posts since I last came to this page. Thanks
Im from New England as well, and living with parents, not by choice. Have been laid off for over 2 years, went back to school, etc etc. Have been looking for work but nothing is speaking to me and Im just about to run out of money. My parents will help me but I dont want them to. I want to do it myself. I dont want them to have to support me. Im so unhappy about this. Im 37. This week has just been crappy. Im sick of it! I just feel lost and not sure what to do next. My boyfriend and I are fighting too. Ive had the back and neck pain, anxiety etc which im sure with all that im going through is also stress related. Just seems like im in one big shitstorm...BUT whisper913251, the nipple comment, I laughed out loud, thank you :)
ReplyDeleteHi All!
ReplyDeleteFear? Fear? Noooo kidding! there are times that is really miasma. My miasma! In deed. I do feel also that I could loose my job (children museums, in-cration) and start living as a paria (having two children, my self and in need of a mother with common-sense, not a paria living in the streets, in this subjectivity, thinking that every body is wrong except me (and now... Us!, all along with Lauren: bienvenue!!!).
Miasma? Are you talking about miasma??? (in the tone you might remember: taxi driver (Are you talking to me?, in front of the mirror).
Noooo kidding, I feel like dying. I always have confronted people because not taking care of mother earth, and because they don´t take care about animals, and because they don´t help the poor!
And they respond defending them selves: attacking!!!
And this is my very bottom: going to this paria mode(living in the streests), ending crazy (paranoia) and "knowing" that I am right (but crazy, unable to live with others, because they do not seem to care and only work for themselves!).
This is my miasma: polemics with those who won´t understand. And it is me IN FRONT, against others!!!
Fear to hurt myself (just like in the movie the black swan)...
This is my own miasma, where I then feel resentful, unjustly treated, not recognized, bla-bla-bla...
And beleive me, this are not thin thoughts, as I some times have. This are heavy feelings (of the victim role I have always played).
Thought I stopped by just to vomit this... sorry pen-pals!).
May God Bless Us All... I know everyone is going thru this miasma thing just like me, in the unique form miasma takes for each one of us.
I know answer is to "Let go and Let God", but not easy, not for me!!!
And to deny and be out there as if nothing happened and the birds and the trees, and the butterflies... is not for me, anymore (or so it seems).
Are we connected yet? (don´t think so!).
At least, not alone, for sure (we feel just about the same, all of us).
Good luch for all of you with you miasma and may I send I loving thought with my heart to ME!!! to see if I might just sooth all this miasma away!
Bliss, all in all!
Rín.
Kfreeman: Oh! where does it hurt in your case?
Ava, yes to all all you wrote for me too. pains, emotional melt-down. Rin, absolutely relate to you..I keep seeing you write miasma...this is miasm? A dna related pattern?
ReplyDeletethe challenge I'm having is finding the right kind of support. I do need it now (I'm fiercely independent, somewhat loner), but most of the support out there is not helpful to me. This forum comes close, but it's just a forum. I may have to contact my ole steady stand by psychic. Most people don't know who I am so cannot support me at the levels I need.
Anyone else feeling so tired they could just die? I am in a fit of tears because I am so tired. If I do have a purpose here, shouldn't I have been given in equal proportion the energy to acutalize it? I'm so done with this paradigm that we must suffer for growth.
ReplyDeleteJust when exactly are we to reach completion and are no longer negatively effected by the geomagnetic activity and in perfect neutrality? March 2011? This last hit felt like a major set back and replay of last year this time with the symptoms and emotional upsets but maybe not as extreme.
ReplyDeleteAnd why doesn't the PHC give direct, blunt, straight info with the understanding that they are in oneness and we are in duality???
Something like the frontrunners will reach completion on 00/00/00 date? Is that so difficult and too much to ask?
And furthermore does anyone recall that "Your Powers are returning exponentially" article that was put out in July 2010 and we all cheered and yet...here we are, and it's obvious that we are all in this together so there is no individual anymore (if it ever was) we just didn't consciously know of one another in the beginning. It's a group effort... and out of all of us, none of us can quite truly gauge when this will be over?
Has anyone reunited with their sacred counterparts yet (besides Lauren)? Is anyone actively co-creating or producing yet with passion and vitality (besides Richard)? Does anyone even feel like it anymore?
I am so not enthused.
Excuse my rant... it was necessary. And I am not going to delete it just in case someone has something intelligent and/or encouraging to say regarding it. :)
ReplyDeleteI dunno MysTerious, a month ago I was roaring like the Incredible Hulk, today I feel more like his alter ego DR.Bruce Banner (not so sexy).